The affair floated in the broad gray area between commerce and appetite. Albertine was not beautiful, quite the opposite. Some day, perhaps, she would glow with motherhood, but not now. At nineteen she was pinched and red, with hen-strangler’s hands and the squint of an angry farmwife. That was, Casson thought, the root of the problem: there was a good deal of Norman peasant blood in the population of Paris and in big Albertine it ran true to type. She came to his apartment, revealed the mystery of the yellow beans-one boiled them,
The time with Albertine was late afternoon, usually Thursday. Then, before she went home, she would make them something to eat. In the old days his dinners had drifted down from heaven, like manna. Life was easy, attractive men were fed. There were dinner parties, or a woman to take to a restaurant, or he’d go to a bistro, Chez Louis or Mere Louise, where they knew him and made a fuss when he came in the door.
That was over. Now the Germans ate the chickens and the cream, and food was rationed for the French. The coupons Casson was issued would buy 3 1/2 ounces of rice a month, 7 ounces of margarine, 8 ounces of pasta, and a pound of sugar. The sugar he divided-most to Albertine, the remainder for coffee. One had to take the ration stamps to the cafe in the morning.
So mostly it was vegetables-potatoes, onions, beets, cabbages. No butter, and only a little salt, but one survived. Of course there
The women he usually made love to were sophisticated, adept. Not Albertine. A virgin, she demanded to be taught “all these things” and other than an occasional
Casson went to the office but the phone didn’t ring.
It didn’t ring, and it didn’t ring, and it didn’t ring. The big studios were gone, there was no money, nobody knew what to do next. Weddings? The director Berthot claimed to have filmed three since July. Rich provincials, he claimed, that was the secret. Watch the engagement announcements in places like Lyons. The couple arrive separately. The nervous papa looks at his watch. The flowers are delivered. The priest, humble and serious, greets the grandmother. Then, the kiss. Then, the restaurant. A toast!
Casson glued two papers together by licking the edges and rolling tobacco into a cigarette. Working carefully, he managed to get it lit with a single match. “Can you make me one of those?” Berthot asked hungrily.
Casson, that devil-may-care man-about-town, did it. When it took two tries to light the ragged thing, Casson smiled bravely-matches were no problem for him. “I had an uncle,” Berthot said, “up in Caen. Wanted to turn me into a shoemaker when I was a kid.” He didn’t have to go on, Casson understood, the shoemakers had plenty of work now.
The October rains sluiced down, there was no heat on the rue Marbeuf. He had enough in the bank to last through November’s rent, then, that was that. What was what? Christ, he didn’t know. Sit behind his desk and hold his breath until someone ran in shaking a fistful of money or he died of failure. He went to the movies in the afternoon, the German newsreels were ghastly. A London street on fire, the German narrator’s voice arrogant and cocksure: “Look at the destruction, the houses going up in flames! This is what happens to those who oppose Germany’s might.” Going back out into the gray street in mid-afternoon, the Parisians were morose. The narrator of the newsreel had told the truth.
He answered an advertisement in
28 October, 1940.
He’d brought his copy of
11:35. He could now leave the office, headed for a cafe he’d discovered back in the Eighth near the St.- Augustin Metro, where they had decent coffee and particularly good bread. Where he could pretend-until noon but not a minute later-that he was taking a late
Casson’s hand was on the doorknob when the telephone rang.
He ran to the desk, then forced himself to wait for the end of the second ring before he picked it up and said “Hello?” Not disturbed, exactly, simply unable to hide the fact that his concentration had been elsewhere, that he’d been busy-perhaps in a meeting, perhaps in mid-sentence as he reached back for the receiver.
“Jean Casson?”
“Yes.”
“Hugo Altmann.” The line hummed for a moment. “Yes? Hello?”
“Altmann, well, of course.”
“Perhaps you don’t-remember me.”
“No, no. I was just …”
“Tell me, Casson, can you possibly cancel your lunch today?”
“Well. Yes, I could. It’s not anything I can’t reschedule.”
“Perfect! You’re still on the rue Marbeuf?”
“Yes. Twenty-six, just off the boulevard.”
“Save me parking, will you? And wait for me downstairs?”
“All right.”
“Good. Ten minutes, no more.”
“See you then.”
He ran into the bathroom down the hall and stared into the mirror above the sink. Shit! Well, not much he could do about it now-his shirt was tired, his jacket unpressed. But he’d shaved carefully that morning-he always did-his hair simply looked vaguely arty when he avoided the barber, and his shoes had been good long ago and still were. It was, he thought, his good fortune to be one of those men who couldn’t look seedy if he tried.
Altmann he remembered well. He worked for Continental, the largest of the German production companies, with offices out by Paramount in Billancourt. A film executive, typical of the breed. The practical, plodding French of the long-term expatriate-nothing fancy but nothing really wrong. Smooth manners, smooth exterior, but not sly. He was, one felt, constitutionally neat, and courtly by upbringing. Well-dressed, favoring muted tweed suits and very good ties in rich colors. The kind of hair that faded from blond to no color at all in the mid-forties, combed back at the age of seven and still in place. Scandinavian complexion, blue eyes-like a frozen lake-and a smile. Always a second drink, always enthusiastic-even about the most godawful trash because you just never knew what people were going to like-always at work. Casson had been at several meetings with him out at Continental, a lunch or two a few years ago, it was all a little hazy.