“Bill lost another job. Working for the township. I got him a job with the parks department, cutting grass, marking ball diamonds. They let him go. He said the job was boring. I found out later that they caught him in a park under a tree, sleeping. He was probably drinking. He accused me of fooling around on him with this guy Jimmy that got the job for him. I wasn’t fucking Jimmy. He was just a friend. But Bill was so bloody jealous. Or else he needed to blame someone like he always blamed the referee when he had a bad game. Anyway, I accused Bill of messing around with Joe Mackenzie’s wife, June. She was always in the Zig Zag picking up someone. June and I were old school friends. It was no stretch to imagine that June and Bill were doing the horizontal tango.
Not that I cared. But I couldn’t stand the idea of him spending money on her, money that was rightfully mine.”
“Did he hit you?” Hank asked.
Mary looked up at Hank and smiled. “Why would you ask that?”
“He sounds like the type.”
Mary shook her head. “No, he never hit me. Not that I would have blamed him. I could be a real bitch. Bill was an enforcer when he played hockey, but with me he was a little teddy bear. He would just whimper.
God, I hated that. Drove me nuts when he’d start whimpering. I could have handled the occasional slap, but being around him when he sulked drove me through the roof. We had rent to pay and he’d be sitting at the kitchen table sniffling away, whining about the tough breaks he’d had. A rough tough hockey player crying like a baby. I felt like hitting him. And I did one time. He let me. Said he deserved it. I think he liked being slapped, but I never had the heart for it.”
Mary put her arm around Hank’s waist and leaned on him, her head against his shoulder as they continued to walk toward her apartment.
“Sometimes I just get so tired,” Mary said. “I want to forget everything. Just throw my cares down a deep well and start over again.” Mary stopped and moved away from Hank.
“Who’s that?”
“Where?” Hank asked.
“In front of my door,” Mary said.
Leem’s Nursing Home
The old man dragged himself up so that he was sitting up in his bed.
Sam Kelly pulled a chair closer to the bed and sat down. Light filtered through the sheer curtains, exaggerating the lines on the old man’s face.
On the wall opposite the window were a series of pictures, some of police officers, one of Jesus Christ. There was a plaque with a set of fire regulations. The detective looked at the old man. God, he must be a hundred years old.
“Kids put me here,” the old man muttered, a drop of spit running down his chin. There was a gap in his smile where his words seemed to whistle, giving the impression that the old man lisped.
“Seems like a nice place, Ed,” Sam looked around the sterile room, swearing that he would never allow anyone to put him in such a place.
“It’s my old beat,” the old man said, gesturing with his head to the world outside. “Kinda funny, ain’t it? I look out the window here I can see myself in the squad car passing along Bloor, never imagining that I’d end up here. Who the hell thinks they’re going to get old? I don’t know what we think we’re going to turn into, but this isn’t it. And now someone from the force shows up. I thought you fellas had forgotten all about Corporal Kaye. Hell, why should you remember? That’s what you realize when you get older. Old people forget because there ain’t no reason to remember. The history books don’t tell the story. The story is too big with too much pain. Eventually we’re all forgotten. My world is dead, Detective, on a slab in the coroner’s office.” The old man’s thoughts drifted away. His eyes glazed over for a brief moment. Then he was back. “Don’t get many visitors. The kids never show up, but I can’t blame them. They got their own lives. My grandson, Jeremy, doesn’t like the smell in here. He hates the smell of bleach and the smell underneath-me, rotting.” The old man coughed, then cleared his throat and swallowed. “But he comes anyway. He’s a good boy. Once a month he shows up with magazines and chocolate bars. I don’t read them. Teen magazines, the latest gossip on the latest one hit wonder. But 69
I never tell him that. We eat the chocolate bars together. Told him I didn’t have much to leave him but I promised him he could have my badge. He wants my gun. Wish my Ellen was here. She was a great gal.
Boy, could she dance. Would love to have seen her grandchildren. She died before we knew Jeremy was on his way. It’s a terrible thing to pass on and not know if you’re going to leave anyone behind. It’s like part of her history had been kept from her. Like her existence had been erased.
But what does that matter anyway?”
Detective Kelly nodded and reached into his pocket for his cigarettes.
“Better not,” the old man said. “They got their rules here. And they enforce them. Did you see my nurse? Big Negro woman named Sally.
She’d have made a good cop. You light that cigarette and she’ll have you out on the sidewalk in no time at all. Never met a woman that strong.
Tosses me around in here like I was a doll. Ellen wouldn’t have approved. Didn’t approve of Negroes. Don’t think she ever met a Negro, but she didn’t approve. Jeremy likes Sally.” Sam Kelly moved his chair closer to the bed.
“Ed, I’ve come on police business.”
The old man’s eyes lit up. He struggled to sit up straight. The detective rose and helped him to adjust his pillows. Then he turned and looked out the window over Bloor Street. The sun was going down. He spotted Joe Mackenzie crossing the street and entering George’s Barbershop.
“It’s an old case, Ed,” the detective said, turning around and taking a seat again. He took out a pad from the breast pocket of his jacket. “I’m hoping you can help me.”
“Well, my memory ain’t that great anymore.” Ed grinned. “But fire away and I’ll see what I can dredge up. Wish I had a smoke. Helps me think.”
The detective nodded, then related the tale that the barkeeper at the Zig Zag had relayed to him. The old man listened quietly. The detective hoped he hadn’t drifted off.
“Could have been a practical joke,” Ed said. “I knew fellows who’d say anything if they thought it might get them a free drink.”
“Jack’s been around awhile. He’s heard just about every con. I don’t think he would have been taken in.”
Ed rubbed his chin with his right index finger.
“Jack?”
“The bartender in the Zig Zag.”
“Don’t know any Jack. Hell, I never heard of the Zig Zag.” The detective described the location of the Zig Zag.
“A couple of doors over? Wasn’t that a drugstore?” Ed asked.
The detective nodded.
Ed laughed. “Maybe I could get old Sally to take me over there for a drink some time. We’d make an odd couple. Do you think they’d serve a Negro?”
The detective nodded. “Been the law for years.”
“The law and the way people are… are two different things.”
“They’ll serve her,” the detective said with a smile.
The old man nodded with satisfaction. “So, where did they find the body?”
“The corner of Bloor and Botfield.”
“Where the kids pick up their newspapers?” Ed asked.
“Ya,” Sam responded. “But they don’t make deliveries anymore.”
“Don’t make deliveries?”
“Haven’t for years,” the detective added.
“God!” The old man thought for a moment. “What do kids do for money?”
The detective shrugged.
Ed shook his head. “No paper routes. Negroes being treated like human beings.”
“There’s no record of any deaths there,” the detective continued.
“Fellow said an ambulance and a police car showed up. A policeman interviewed the fellow. That could have
