AnythingBox. We had our talk together later, but she was so completely sealed off fromme by her misery that there was no communication between us. She sat quietlyABC Amber Palm Converter,http://www.processtext.com/abcpalm.htmlwatching me as I talked, her hands trembling in her lap. It shakes the heart,somehow, to see the hands of a little child quiver like that.That afternoon I looked up from my reading group, startled, as though by acry, to catch Sue-lynn's frightened eyes. She looked around bewildered andthen down at her hands again—her empty hands. Then she darted to the Isolationcorner and reached under the chair. She went back to her seat slowly, herhands squared to an unseen weight. For the first time, apparently, she had hadto go get the Anything Box. It troubled me with a vague unease for the rest ofthe afternoon.Through the days that followed while the trial hung fire, I had Sue-lynn inattendance bodily, but that was all. She sank into her Anything Box at everyopportunity. And always, if she had put it away somewhere, she had to go backfor it. She roused more and more reluctantly from these waking dreams, andthere finally came a day when I had to shake her to waken her.I went to her mother, but she couldn't or wouldn't understand me, and mademe feel like a frivolous gossipmonger taking her mind away from her husband,despite the fact that I didn't even mention him—or maybe because I didn'tmention him.'If she's being a bad girl, spank her,' she finally said, wearily shiftingthe weight of a whining baby from one hip to another and pushing her tousledhair off her forehead. 'Whatever you do is all right by me. My worrier is allused up. I haven't got any left for the kids right now.'Well, Sue-lynn's father was found guilty and sentenced to the StatePenitentiary and school was less than an hour old the next day when Davie cameup, clumsily a-tiptoe, braving my wrath for interrupting a reading group, andwhispered hoarsely, 'Sue-lynn's asleep with her eyes open again, Teacher.'We went back to the table and Davie slid into his chair next to acompletely unaware Sue-lynn. He poked her with a warning finger. 'I told youI'd tell on you.'And before our horrified eyes, she toppled, as rigidly as a doll, sidewaysoff the chair. The thud of her landing relaxed her and she lay limp on thegreen asphalt tile—a thin paper doll of a girl, one hand still clenched openaround something. I pried her fingers loose and almost wept to feelenchantment dissolve under my heavy touch. I carried her down to the nurse'sroom and we worked over her with wet towels and prayer and she finally openedher eyes.'Teacher,' she whispered weakly.'Yes, Sue-lynn.' I took her cold hands in mine.'Teacher, I almost got in my Anything Box.''No,' I answered. 'You couldn't. You're too big.''Daddy's there,' she said. 'And where we used to live.'I took a long, long look at her wan face. I hope it was genuine concern forher that prompted my next words. I hope it wasn't envy or the memory of theniggling nagging of Alpha's voice that put firmness in my voice as I went on.'That's playlike,' I said. 'Just for fun.'Her hands jerked protestingly in mine. 'Your Anything Box is just for fun.It's like Davie's cow pony that he keeps in his desk or Sojie's jet plane, orwhen the big bear chases all of you at recess. It's fun-for-play, but it's notfor real. You mustn't think it's for real. It's only play.''No!' she denied. 'No!' she cried frantically, and hunching herself up onthe cot, peering through her tear-swollen eyes, she scrabbled under the pillowand down beneath the rough blanket that covered her.'Where is it?' she cried. 'Where is it? Give it back to me, Teacher!'She flung herself toward me and pulled open both my clenched hands.'Where did you put it? Where did you put it?''There is no Anything Box,' I said flatly, trying to hold her to me andfeeling my heart breaking along with hers.'You took it!' she sobbed. 'You took it away from me! And she wrenchedherself out of my arms.ABC Amber Palm Converter,http://www.processtext.com/abcpalm.html'Can't you give it back to her?' whispered the nurse. 'If it makes her feelso bad? Whatever it is—''It's just imagination,' I said, almost sullenly. 'I can't give her backsomething that doesn't exist.'Too young! I thought bitterly. Too young to learn that heart's desire isonly play-like.Of course the doctor found nothing wrong. Her mother dismissed the matteras a fainting spell and Sue-lynn came back to class next day, thin andlistless, staring blankly out the window, her hands palm down on the desk. Iswore by the pale hollow of her cheek that never, never again would I take anybelief from anyone without replacing it with something better. What had Igiven Sue-lynn? What had she better than I had taken from her? How did I knowbut that her Anything Box was on purpose to tide her over rough spots in herlife like this? And what now, now that I had taken it from her?Well, after a time she began to work again, and later, to play. She cameback to smiles, but not to laughter. She puttered along quite satisfactorilyexcept that she was a candle blown out. The flame was gone wherever thebrightness of belief goes. And she had no more sharing smiles for me, nooverflowing love to bring to me. And her shoulder shrugged subtly away from mytouch.Then one day I suddenly realized that Sue-lynn was searching our classroom.Stealthily, casually, day by day she was searching, covering every inch of theroom. She went through every puzzle box, every lump of clay, every shelf andcupboard, every box and bag. Methodically she checked behind every row ofbooks and in every child's desk until finally, after almost a week, she hadbeen through everything in the place except my desk. Then she began tomaterialize suddenly at my elbow every time I opened a drawer. And her eyeswould probe quickly and sharply before I slid it shut again. But if I tried tointercept her looks, they slid away and she had some legitimate errand thathad brought her up to the vicinity of the desk.She believes it again, I thought hopefully. She won't accept the fact thather Anything Box is gone. She wants it again.