direction of the hoarse, tired-sounding voice that bade me be welcome to Drummant.
There followed other introductions—the brantor’s elder son Harba and his wife, his younger son Sebb and his wife, his daughter and her husband, the grown children of some of these, and other people of the household—all names without faces, voices in the dark. My mother’s shy, gracious voice was drowned out by these loud talkers, and I couldn’t help but hear how different from them she sounded, how foreign in her Lowland courtesies, even in her pronunciation of some words.
My father was close to me too, right behind me. He didn’t talk on at length the way the Drum men did, but made prompt, affable responses, laughed at their jokes, and spoke to several of the men there with what sounded like the pleasure of renewing a friendship. One of these men, a Barre, I think, said, “So the lad’s got the wild eye, has he?” and Canoc said, “He does,” and the other man said, “Well, never fear, he’ll grow into his power,” and began a story about a boy of Olmmant whose gift was wild till he was twenty. I tried hard to hear the story, but the clamor of voices kept drowning it out.
After a while we went to table, and that was a terrible strain, for it takes a long time to learn to eat in a decent fashion if you cannot see, and I had not got the skill yet. I was afraid to touch anything for fear of spilling it or soiling myself. They had tried to seat me away from my mother, and Brantor Ogge called for her to join the men at the head of the table, but she gently and immovably insisted on sitting next to me.
She helped me to a chop I could pick up in my ringers and gnaw without shocking anybody’s sensibilities. Not that they went in much for fine manners at Drummant, to judge by the noises of chewing and gulping and belching all round me.
My father was seated farther up the table, near or next to Ogge, and as the noise of talk slackened a bit, I heard his quiet voice, unmistakable, though there was a tone to it, a kind of lilt I’d never heard before: “I want to thank you, Brantor, for looking after my heifers. I’ve been cursing myself for a fool all month for not keeping my fences mended. They jumped them, of course. They’re light-footed, those Rodd cattle. I’d all but given that pair up. Thought they’d be down in Dunet by now! And so they would be if your people hadn’t kept them safe for me.” By this time nobody at that end of the table was saying a word, though at our end some of the women were still chattering. “I counted a good deal on those heifers,” Canoc went on in the same open, confident, almost confiding way. “I have it in mind to build up a herd such as Blind Caddard had. So my hearty thanks to you, and the first calf one of them drops, bull or heifer as you please, is yours. You have only to send for it, Brantor Ogge.”
There was just the one beat of silence, and then somebody near Canoc said, “Well said, well said!” and other voices joined in, but I did not hear Ogge speak.
The dinner was over at last, and my mother asked to be shown to her room, taking me with her. I heard Ogge then: “Oh, you’ll not take young Orrec off already? He’s not such a child as that, is he? Sit up with the men, boy, and taste my spring brewing!” But Melle pleaded that I was tired from the long day’s ride, and the brantor’s wife Denno said in her hoarse, tired voice, “Let the boy be for tonight, Ogge,” and so we escaped, though my father had to stay and drink with the men.
It was late, I think, when he came up to the bedroom; I had been asleep, but I roused up when he knocked over a stool and made some other clatter.
“You’re drunk!” Melle whispered, and he said, louder than he meant to, “Horse-piss beer!” She laughed, and he snorted.
“Where’s the cursed bed!” he said, thumping about the room. They settled down. I lay on the cot under the window and listened to their whispering.
“Canoc, weren’t you taking an awful risk?”
“Coming here at all was the risk.”
“But about the heifers—”
“What’s to gain by silence?”
“But you challenged him.”
“To lie about it in front of his own people, who all know how the heifers got here—or to take the out I offered him.”
“Hush, hush,” she murmured, for his voice had got louder again.
“Well, I’m glad he took the out.”
“If he did. That’s yet to see. Where’s the girl? Did you see her yet?”
“What girl?”
“The bride. The blushing bride.”
“Canoc, be quiet!” She was half scolding, half laughing.
“Shut my mouth then, love, shut my mouth for me,” he whispered, and she laughed, and I heard the creak of the bed boards. They talked no more, and I slipped back into the luxury of sleep.
THE NEXT DAY Brantor Ogge sent for my mother to join him as he showed my father about his establishment, the buildings and barns and stables, and I had to come along. No other women were with us, only his sons and some of the men of Drummant. Ogge talked to my mother in a strange, artificial way, patronising yet with a wheedling note. He spoke of her to the other men as if she were a pretty animal, talking about her ankles, her hair, the way she walked. When he talked to her, he often mentioned her Lowland origin with half-joking contempt. He seemed to be trying to remind her or himself that she was inferior to him. Yet he stuck to her side like a great leech. I tried to be between her and him, but he always got next to her on the other side of her as we walked about. Several times he suggested, all but ordered her, to send me off with “the other children” or with my father. She never refused to do so, but answered lightly, with a smile in her voice, and somehow did not do so.
As we returned to the Stone House, Ogge told us that he was planning a boar hunt up in the hills north of Drummant. They had been waiting, he said, for Parn, Gry’s mother, to come before they set off. He pressed us to come on the hunt. My mother demurred, and he said,
“Well, women don’t belong on a pig hunt after all. Dangerous business. But send the boy along, it’ll give him a change from moping about in his blindfold, eh? And if the boar charges, he can flick an eye at him and goodbye pig, eh? Eh, lad? Always a good thing to have a quick eye along on a pig hunt.”
“It’ll have to be mine, then,” my father said, in the unfailingly pleasant tone he had here at Drummant. “A bit too much risk, yet, with Orrec.”
“Risk? Risk? Afraid of the pig, is he?”
“Oh, not the risk for him,” said Canoc. The tip of his fencing sword just touched Ogge that time.
Ogge had dropped his pretense of not knowing why my eyes were sealed, since it was clear that everybody else at Drummant knew why, and indeed believed all the wilder versions of my exploits. I was the boy with the destroying eye, the gift so powerful I couldn’t control it, the new Blind Caddard. Ogge struck out with his bludgeon, but his blows fell short; my reputation put us just out of his reach. But he had other weapons.
Among all the people we had met the night before and all the people round us this morning, we had not yet been introduced to the brantor’s granddaughter, the daughter of his younger son Sebb Drum and Daredan Caspro. We had met the parents: Sebb had a jovial, booming voice like his father; Daredan had spoken to my mother and me kindly enough, in a weak voice that made me picture her as decrepit, though, as Canoc had said, she wasn’t all that ancient, after all. When we went back into the house later in the morning, Daredan was there, but still the daughter had not been brought forth, the girl who was, perhaps, to be my betrothed. The bride, the blushing bride, Canoc had called her last night, and at the thought I blushed.
As if he had the Morga gift of knowing what was in your mind, Ogge said in his loud voice, “You’ll have to wait a few days to meet my granddaughter Vardan, young Caspro. She’s down at the old Rimm house with her cousins. What’s the use of meeting a girl you can’t see, I was going to say, but then of course there’s other ways to get to know a girl, as you’ll find out, eh? Even more enjoyable ways, eh?” The men round us laughed. “She’ll be here when we’re back from pigsticking.”
Parn Barre arrived that afternoon, and then all the talk was of the hunt. I had to go along. My mother wanted to forbid me to go, but I knew there was no way out of it, and said, “Don’t worry, Mother. I’ll be on Roanie, and it’ll be all right.”
“I’ll be with him,” Canoc said. I knew my prompt stoicism had pleased him deeply.
We left before dawn the next morning. Canoc stayed right beside me, on horseback and afoot. His presence was my only rock in an endless confusion, a black meaningless wilderness of riding and stopping and shouting and coming and going. It went on and on. We were gone five days. I could never get my bearings; I never knew what
