longer have an excuse, Shushu darling. My Lord, if I really were as unjust as Khadija claims, why haven't I been unjust to Aisha? Why do I get along so well with her? Why, my Lord, why?'
Ibrahim Shawkat rose and went to take a seat next to al-Sayyid Ahmad, telling him, 'Father, I'm sorry we've troubled you in this mannei and wasted your precious time. Let's set aside complaint and testimony and put the past behind us, so we can see what's truly important and beneficial. Your presence can only be a positive' influence and a blessing. Let's impose a truce between my mother and my wife and have them promise to abide by it always. '
Al-Sayyid Ahmad was pleased by this suggestion, but, shaking his head, he objected deftly, 'No, I won't agree to oversee a truce, for it would have to be concluded between equals. Here one of the sides is our mother and the other our daughter, and a daughter does not have the status of a mother. First Khadija must apologize to her mother for all past incidents. Then her mother, if she is willing, can forgive Khadija. After that we'll talk about making peace.'
The old lady beamed so wide that her wrinkles were pressed to gether, but she glanced cautiously toward Khadija. Then she looked back at al-Sayyid Ahmad without saying anything. He remarked, 'It seems my proposal does not meet with your approval.'
The old lady answered gratefully, 'You always say the right thing. Blessings on your lips and life.'
Al-Sayyid Ahmad motioned to Khadija, who stood up without any hesitation and approached him, feeling more forlorn than ever before. When she was directly in front of him, he told her resolutely, 'Kiss your mother's hand and ask her, 'Forgive me, Mother.''
'Oh!' She had never imagined, not even in a nightmare, that she might be put in this position, but her father, her adored father, was the one imposing it on her. Yes, the verdict had been handed down by a person whose verdicts she could never oppose. So this must be God's will. Khadija turned to the old lady and leaned over her. Then she took the hand that was raised to her yes, by God, raised without any sign of protest — and kissed it, painfully conscious of her disgust and defeat. Then she mumbled, 'Forgive me, Mother.'
The old lady looked at her for a time, her face flushed with delight. Then she replied, 'I forgive you, Khadija. I forgive you for your father's sake and in recognition of your repentance'. A childish laugh escaped her. Then she said in an admonitory fashion, 'There'll be no quarrel after today about Circassian chicken. Isn't it enough for your family that your casseroles and your dishes stuffed with rice are superior to any others in the world?'
Al-Sayyid Ahmad said joyfully, 'Praise to God for this peace accord'. Then, looking up at Khadija, he reminded her, 'Mother always. She isn't Auntie. This is Mother exactly like the other one.'
Then he continued in a low, sorrowful voice: 'Where did you get this disposition, Khadija? No one who grew up in my house should be like this. Have you forgotten your mother and her mild, courteous character? Have you forgotten that any evil you cause tarnishes my honor? By God, I was astonished to hear what your mother had to say. It will continue to amaze me for a long time to come.'
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Following the departure of al-Sayyid Ahmad Abd al-Jawad, the group went back upstairs. Khadija led the procession, her face sullen and pale with angry resentment. The others knew that harmony was still nothing more than a remote possibility for their household. They were apprehensive about what was building up behind Khadija's silence. For this reason, Khalil and Aisha accompanied Khadija and Ibrahim to their apartment, although the racket from Na'ima, Uthman, and Muhammad clearly suggested that their parents would soon need to return home. After they had resumed their seats in the living room, Khalil took the pulse of the situation by saying to his brother, 'Your final remarks were decisive and brought good results.'
For the first time since the tribunal, Khadija spoke out, passionately: 'It brought a truce isn't that so? A truce that humiliated me more than ever before….'
Ibrahim said somewhat critically, 'It's not humiliating to kiss my mother's hand or to ask her forgiveness.'
His wife answered cavalierly, 'She's your mother but my enemy. If Papa hadn't ordered me, I would never have called her Mother. Yes, she's only Mother on Papa's orders. Papa's orders alone!'
Ibrahim leaned against the back of the sofa and sighed dejectedly. Aisha was anxious, for she did not know what impression her failure to testify had made on her sister. Her anxiety was increased by Khadija's refusal to look at her. She decided to speak to prompt Khadija: o reveal her true feelings. So she remarked gently, 'There is no humiliation in the affair, since you parted friends. You mustn't remember anything but the happy ending.'
Her torso rigid, Khadija glared angrily at Aisha. Then she said sharply, 'Don't speak to me. You're the last person in the world who deserves to talk to me.'
Aisha pretended to be astonished and, looking back and forth between Ibrahim and Khalil, asked, 'Me? Why, God forbid?'
In a voice as cold and penetrating as a bullet, Khadija replied, 'Because you betrayed me. Your silence testified against me. You chose to placate the other woman instead of helping your sister. This is treachery pure and simple.'
'I don't understand you, Khadija. Everyone knows my silence worked to your advantage.'
In as vicious a tone of voice or worse, Khadija retorted, 'If you had truly had my best interests at heart, you would have testified for me, even if what you said wasn't exactly true. But you preferred the woman who cooks for you over your own sister. Don't speak! Not a word! We have a mother who will have something to say about this.'
Shortly before noon the next day Khadija went to visit her mother, even though the roads were muddy, with pools of stagnant water in low-lying areas. She went to the oven room, and her mother rose to greet her warmly and happily. Umm Hanafi approached, jubilantly welcoming her. But Khadija returned their greetings with a only few terse words. Her mother gave her a searching, inquisitive look.
Without any preliminaries Khadija announced, 'I've come to see what you think of Aisha, for I don't have the strength to put up with any more.'
Amina's expression revealed her interest and her distress. Motioning with her head for Khadija to precede her out of the room, she said, 'What's happened, may God requite us? Your father told me about the events at Sugar Street, but what role did Aisha play in them?'
Then, as they climbed the stairs, she continued: 'Lord, Khadija, how many times have I asked you to be more understanding? Your mother-in-law is an old lady. You need to respect her age. The very fact that she went to the store alone in the weather we had yesterday is clear proof of her senility. But what can be done about it? How angry your father was! He couldn't believe you would ever say a spiteful word. But what did Aisha do to make you angry? She kept silent, didn't she? It wasn't possible for her to say anything.'
They settled down side by side on a sofa in the sitting room where the coffee hour was held. Khadija admonished her, 'Mother, please don't join forces with them. My Lord, why is it that I can't find anyone in this world to help me?'
The mother smiled reprovingly and remarked, 'Don't say that. Don't even imagine that, my little daughter. Just tell me what you think Aisha did wrong.'
Punching the air as though it were an enemy, Khadija answered, 'The worst. She testified against me. So I was miserably defeated.'
'What did she say?'
'She didn't say anything.'
'Praise God.'
'The catastrophe was a result of her silence.'
Smiling fondly, Amina asked, 'What could she have said?'
As though her mother's question was more than she could stomach, Khadija frowned and replied bitterly, 'She could have sworn I never attacked the woman. Why not? If she had done that, it wouldn't have been more than a sister's duty. She could at least have said she didn't hear anything. The truth is, she favored that woman over me. She deserted me and let me fall prey to a malicious schemer. I'll never forget this about Aisha so long as I live.'
