“Like Gallia?”
“It’s possible.” He stood and opened the door. When he was sure there was no one outside, he closed it again and came back to my couch. “In five months Marcellus is going to have his
I shook my head.
“At fifteen, every boy puts aside his
“Why? You don’t think he suspects
“I don’t know. But even Agrippa’s and Juba’s chambers have been searched.”
I made a face.
“I know,” he said. “They’re desperate.”
“Has Gallia’s name ever been mentioned?”
“I don’t think so. But it’s impossible to know whom the Praetorian Guard are watching. Including Marcellus.”
I was quiet for a moment. “And what does Marcellus say about marriage?”
My brother gave me a long look. “Nothing you want to know about.”
“So he’s in love with Julia?” I exclaimed.
“I don’t know.”
“But what does he say?”
My brother hesitated. “That she is beautiful, and they have the same passion for the Circus.”
“But she doesn’t even care about the Circus! She only goes for him.”
“What do you want me to tell you, Selene? He’s mentioned that he thinks you’re pretty.”
“He has?”
“Many men think so,” he said dryly.
“But what else has he said?”
“That’s it. I’m sorry. You know whom he’s been promised to; you’re wasting your time thinking about him.”
That afternoon, ebony litters were arranged to carry us to the ship. No one was particularly happy about leaving, least of all Marcellus, who couldn’t bear the thought of returning to the steam bath that was Rome.
“If we had vacations like every other family,” he complained on the portico, “we’d be here until October.”
“I don’t believe we’re like every other family,” his mother reminded him.
“Yes,” Tiberius said mockingly. “There is the small matter of governing Rome.”
“That’s what the Senate is for.”
“So when you’re Caesar, is that what you plan to do?” Tiberius asked Marcellus. “Give the reins of government to the senators and sit back while they steer?”
Octavian appeared, and everyone fell into an uneasy silence. “Wave good-bye to the Do-Nothings,” he said as he crossed the threshold of his palace. “This is the happiest day of their year.”
Livia laughed, and Octavia smiled fleetingly at her brother’s strange sense of humor. But Marcellus crossed his arms over his chest.
“I’m tired of the ludus,” he grumbled, and he turned to find a sympathetic ear in Julia. “I don’t want to wait until I’m seventeen to leave school. I don’t think I can stand it for another two years. Especially not when we could be here.”
She patted his arm. “It’s better than hard labor,” she said teasingly. “Selene”—she turned to me—“why don’t you ride with your brother?” Julia climbed into a litter after Marcellus, and I watched their shadows on the curtain for a moment before my brother pulled me into a second litter.
“Don’t obsess about it,” he said sensibly. “Just be glad he doesn’t want you.”
I stared at him in amazement.
“Well, how would that turn out?” he demanded. “What do you think Julia would do?”
“Turn against me.”
He nodded. “She’s not all pretty tunics and jewels.”
“I notice you stare at her enough.”
My brother laughed. “I have no interest in Julia. Trust me.”
“Why? I thought you said she’s beautiful.”
“She is. She also belongs to Marcellus. And no matter how much we may wish otherwise,” he said darkly, “that’s not going to change.”
I thought of Julia and Marcellus laughing together in the litter next to ours, their shadows growing closer and closer, and tears of frustration blurred my vision. My brother put his arm around my shoulders, and I let my tears roll down my cheeks. Then I noticed I wasn’t the only one. My brother’s handsome cheeks were wet. But I was too absorbed in my own misery to ask why.
CHAPTER FIFTEEN
A FEW months after our return from Capri, Octavian dedicated the Temple of Apollo, and the feast that followed lasted until the early hours of the morning. But it was nothing compared to the reception being planned for Tiberius and Marcellus, who had both turned fifteen recently and would now celebrate their coming-of-age during March’s festival of Liberalia. Julia insisted on new tunics for the ceremony, and wasn’t satisfied with the bolts of cloth we had purchased over the winter holiday.
“This has to be something special,” she’d said as February drew to a close. She’d begged her father to let Gallia take us to the Forum Boarium, where barges from Ostia unloaded their goods. This way, we could barter for cloth before any other woman in Rome had a chance to see it. He finally agreed a week before Liberalia, and with seven of the Praetorian guards we followed Gallia into the cattle market.
“How can anyone stand this?” Julia complained, holding up a ball of amber to her nose.
“This was your idea,” Gallia reminded.
“But look at these people. They’re so poor.”
Gallia gave me a weary look. “Welcome to Rome.”
Unsatisfied with Gallia’s response, Julia turned to me. “Have you ever seen so much dirt? I’ll bet these people don’t even bathe.”
“It’s their work,” I said. “They can’t help it, dealing with cattle all day.”
“Even so.” She passed her hand in front of her nose. “If my father wasn’t so obsessed about his reputation among the plebs, he could have ordered the bargemen to just bring their cloth to the Palatine.”
The odor of cattle excrement really was overwhelming. On either side of the road, concrete apartment buildings teetered three and four stories high, and I wondered how the inhabitants could live with such stench and noise around them. We passed the bronze bull that occupied the center of the marketplace, and Gallia warned us to watch for cutpurses.
“You never know what sort lurks around here. And sometimes—”
A woman screamed on the other side of the Forum Boarium, and suddenly people were running. Julia grabbed my arm. “What is it?” she cried.
For a moment, we couldn’t see anything; and then a space cleared in the middle of the Forum, and Gallia shouted, “Bulls!” The guards fanned out around us, but as the two animals charged, the soldiers scattered.
Julia and I pressed ourselves against the side of an apartment building. As the bulls drew closer, Gallia shouted, “Move!”
But there was nowhere for us to run. I closed my eyes as the first bull charged past us through the open door of the apartment building, missing us by a hairsbreadth. But the second bull lowered its head. It had no intention of
