die.'

19

Into the storm

Dawn broke gray and wet over Pelusium. A chill north wind drove thick clouds inland from the sea. Fat droplets of rain spattered the ground from the coast to the desert's edge. Trumpets blared in the Egyptian camp, and men who had slept uneasily stirred and went about their morning ritual.

Under a makeshift awning, Callisthenes extinguished his lantern and rubbed his eyes with ink-smudged fingers. He had slept fitfully, plagued by dreams of his aging father. In the cold hours before daybreak, he had risen and went in search of a scribal palette and papyrus.

… Dawn is not far off With the rising of the sun, the army will shake itself and come to life, a beast woken from slumber. Across the field, amid the Persians, Ihave no doubt that there is a man like me, a man roused early by the need to send one last greeting to his family

I ask a favor, Father. Do not weep forme, for this is the path I have chosen for myself, regardless of whether it leads to glory or ruin. Remember the talks we used to have, in the Hellenium at Naucratis? The talks of duty and honor? The memory of those has sustained me through many a dark night. How I use to scoff at you for deriding glory! Now, though, I understand.

Glory like Justice, is blind. In the past year I ha ve seen scoundrels rise to great office while those of far more noble bearing have expired. You said once that Glory has no master. It's true, I've found. But beyond that, Glory seems to bestow herself like a whore on those least worthy

The sun's rising, Father. Already I hear the polemarchs stirring. Soon the fight will be joined, and I will be in the thick of it. I pray I will be the one who delivers this letter to you. If I'm not, if I fall, then understand that freedom is ofttimes purchased with blood. If my blood is the coin of your freedom, then so be it. The gods have given no man the right to live forever.

He read the letter one last time. Satisfied, Callisthenes rolled it up, placed it in a leather pouch along with his scarab amulet, and looked to his borrowed panoply.

From the doorway of Hathor's forgotten chapel, Barca stared out at the scudding veil of clouds. The rain was a welcome ally. It would neutralize the most feared weapon in the Persian arsenal, the bow. Their archers would be useless. Barca pulled his gaze away and rubbed his eyes. Already he felt tired, drained.

Behind him, he heard Jauharah moving about. She had finished dressing and was gathering up the remnants of their small meal: bread, fruit, a finely strained beer. The leftovers went into a wicker basket. Barca turned from the door and went to where his armor lay. The bronze gleamed, buffed to a mirror-bright sheen, the leather supple, oiled. She must have spent hours on it. Barca picked up his linen corselet and held it between his fists for a long moment before slipping it on.

'Will they fight?' Jauharah said. There was a tension to her voice despite her neutral tone. 'In the rain, I mean?'

Barca nodded. 'One way or another. They'll be reluctant at first, unwilling to give up their superiority with the bow. Without archers or cavalry, they will be forced to meet us hand-to-hand. That might be too close a fight for Cambyses' liking.'

And for mine. Unsaid, the words hung in the air between them. Jauharah hugged herself, shivering. Barca glanced up and saw tears rimming her eyes.

'I had a dream last night,' she said. 'We were walking down a long slope beside a rushing river. The place was lush, groves of olive and pomegranate trees and long rows of wheat. Cattle grazed in the distance, and I could hear the voices of children …' her voice faltered. She looked away, remembering. Her arms tightened around her chest. 'But, as we walked, men rushed along the ridges. Men in armor bearing long spears. They waved and shouted at you, and your eyes flickered between them and me. You were in torment, agonizing at having to choose. The space between us grew until my hand slipped out of yours. You drifted away, toward the ridge, toward the armed men, toward the promise of battle. After that, after you had gone, the land withered. I passed skeletal trees and fields razed as if by fire. I saw rotting mounds of flesh that were once cattle. Even the rushing river grew dry and parched. Worst of all, though, was the silence. I could not hear the children anymore.'

Barca's heart wrenched in his breast. He could say nothing, his throat tight, as he blinked back tears of his own. He pulled her close and wrapped his arms around her. Jauharah buried her face in his shoulder, her body wracked with sobs.

'I thought I could be strong, thought I could let you go, but I can't! Let's leave this place while there's still time!' she said, her voice barely above a whisper. 'Please! If you go out there, I'm afraid you'll never come back! '

Barca kissed her, stroking her hair as he cradled her head against his chest. He whispered to her: 'I'm sorry, Jauharah. You have asked me for so very little. A roof, a warm bed, food. The necessities have been your only desires. And this thing, this one tiny thing, that you ask of me is the one thing I cannot do. This battle began months ago, as a skirmish with Bedouin raiders. Now, it has finally reached its culmination. I, of all people, must see it through to the end. Honor …'

'Honor, Hasdrabal?' she said, pushing away from him. She wiped her eyes. 'Honor means nothing if you're dead.'

'It's more than that,' he said softly. 'This has become a thing of far greater importance; greater than any here realize. It's grown beyond individual soldiers or generals or kings. It's become a question of survival. We will be fighting to preserve the Egyptian way of life; the Persians will be fighting to destroy it. This,' he gestured around them, 'could be the last dawn of Egypt as we know it.'

Jauharah's shoulders slumped as her anger drained away. 'You're right. There's more at stake here than my own selfish needs. I'm sorry.'

'Don't be sorry.' Barca caught her hand and pulled her toward him. 'If anyone should apologize, it should be me. I'm sorry for dragging you into the middle of all this.'

'You didn't drag me, Hasdrabal. I'm here because I could not imagine being anywhere else. And, I'll be here when the battle's over.'

'Then, when the battle's over,' Barca said, 'we'll find that long slope beside the quick-flowing river and make the best parts of your dream come true.'

Jauharah hugged him tight; Barca buried his face in her hair. Beyond the doorway, the Phoenician could hear the distant sounds of armed men, muffled by the rain. He imagined they were beckoning …

In his tent, Nebmaatra listened to the staccato plop of rain as he tightened the last buckle on his corselet and took up his ostrich-plumed helmet. He had risen early, dismissed his grooms, and prepared himself as he had in the past, when he was a mere soldier. His mind was calm, unburdened by dread or trepidation. The general had spent part of the night going through the contents of a small cedar-wood chest he planned to deposit at the House of Life. Old letters, drawings, legal documents, his father's scarab seal, his mother's faience bracelet. All of this would pass on to his sister, at Thebes. Both his brothers had died young, one of the fever and the other from a fall. He had no wife; no children of his own.

Nebmaatra smiled, recalling the look on his sister's face when he declined to take a wife. 'Who will care for you in your old age?' she would say, in the same patient voice she used on her unruly children. Nebmaatra would only smile and pat her cheek. He did not have the heart to tell her that, as a soldier, he would likely never see old age.

Nebmaatra's life revolved around one simple premise: service to the throne. Perhaps he had done a disservice to the gods by not marrying and begetting children, but in his mind this was balanced by his commitment to protect his land and his king. If the gods allowed their favorites to prosper, then he could not have soured too many divine stomachs. He had a modest tomb at Saqqara, a set of grave goods, and professional mourners. What more did a man need?

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