going for a better look.
Garman took no notice of any of them. His neck craned back and his head lifted up in that eerie slow motion, and he drank in the power of the fire. The magnificence. He stepped several feet in front of, and away from, the truck, just far enough to pick him.
In Boldt’s ear, the drone of radio communication sounded slowed down as well, the words impossible to discern. The sergeant’s hand gripped the pistol. The investigation came down to that moment: a truck loaded with volatile fuel and a disturbed, disfigured man just out of reach.
Garman, his synthetic face filled with a childish glee as he drank in the fire, rocked his head back and forth in joy, spraying rainwater off his sweatshirt like a dog shaking, glancing around him, attempting to share the thrill of that moment with others. The fire erupted into a shower of flame, spark, and ash, and Boldt thought he saw the suspect’s body convulse; his awkward mouth seemed shaped into the curve of a laugh.
Garman’s excited eyes swept briefly over the scene behind him, where, in a failed attempt to convince the driver of the Chevy to retreat, the undercover cop had resorted to dragging and shoving the bystander to the ground, anticipating a fire fight. In the process, the man’s coat flew open and his gun, holster, and harness showed.
Garman’s elation collapsed. Realization stung him. His eyes registered each of the fifteen people immediately in his vicinity, and he seemed to acknowledge that each and every one was law enforcement personnel. He was trapped. He identified LaMoia, and then the street woman, and backed up two steps toward the truck and the fuel it contained.
LaMoia changed direction too quickly, slipped, and fell. The street woman was blocked by the truck itself.
Boldt and his fellow construction worker, the closest officers to Garman, launched themselves in the direction of the suspect. Over the radio a sharpshooter announced a line-of-sight shot. Shoswitz’s voice gave the order to take him.
The shot went straight through his shoulder and sprayed blood onto the truck, but Garman never felt it. He swung open the truck door, which absorbed the sniper’s next two attempts, and jumped in behind the wheel.
Boldt’s slow-motion world continued-all action, all sound misplaced.
The pickup truck lurched ahead, smashing into the car parked in front of it. LaMoia was back on his feet, and Garman looked just quickly enough to see him. Boldt was three strides from the truck, as Garman cut the wheel and, rather than turn into traffic, rather than face LaMoia, jumped the sidewalk. The driver’s side window blew out behind the power of another sniper attempt. Boldt jumped for the truck, his toes catching the running board, his right hand losing hold of his gun as he clawed to hold on.
Garman shoved down the accelerator.
The pickup’s back tires squealed over the curb, and Garman drove through the weedy vacant lot toward the street ahead and that raging fire.
Boldt did not know nor did he think that the fuel in the truck was enough to consume over three city blocks; he knew only that Miles and Sarah needed a father, now more than ever, and that their father was riding a pickup truck toward Hell.
Whether Garman was attempting an escape or a suicide didn’t matter, because the present course of the truck predetermined the destination.
The driver aimed his blank white face at the sergeant, brown eyes recessed behind sculpted plastic skin. For that instant, something exchanged between them, something sparked. Boldt reached for the gear shift, but Garman struck him hard. The sergeant shoved himself deeper into the window, pushing the driver across the seat. He reached for balance, and his arm pushed through and stuck inside the steering wheel, making it impossible to turn the wheel. They bounced through the lot, and Boldt’s head struck the ceiling and the pickup altered its course just far enough to crash into one of the pumpers. It was like hitting a brick wall. They careened off to the right, heading once again for the burning building, and thumped over the swollen fire hoses. Boldt felt his arm snap. His head swam with the pain, and for an instant he slipped toward unconsciousness. He couldn’t catch his breath.
They were headed straight for the missing front door of the burning building-straight for Hell.
I don’t belong here, Boldt thought. It’s not my time.
Garman clawed at Boldt’s face, trying to drive him back out the window. His foot found the accelerator and the truck surged forward.
Overcoming the pain, Boldt heaved his broken arm farther through the wheel, his fingers fishing for the key. Garman’s attention was fixed on the white bucket on the floor. It registered in Boldt that this bucket would have been the one to use in window washing; Garman’s rocket fuel was inside it. The driver craned forward to reach for it, but Boldt grabbed the sweatshirt hood, pulled hard, and held him up short.
Still clinging to the sweatshirt hood, Boldt swung the man’s head on the end of the sweatshirt’s tether, back and forth, Garman resisting, but Boldt with the better angle. The man’s right ear pounded into the rear panel of glass. Garman cried out and grabbed for the pain.
Boldt heaved his broken left arm forward; his fingers groped and found the key and he twisted.
The engine died.
The truck grumbled to a stop, fifteen yards from the burning building’s brick wall. The paint on the truck’s hood bubbled and blistered from the heat. The inside of the truck was instantly an oven.
Fire hoses trained on Boldt and Garman, and the truck was swamped in hundreds of gallons of water with a force so powerful that Boldt was lifted up and driven further into the cab, fully atop Garman.
They were too close. The truck would catch fire and blow.
Boldt felt his feet and legs grabbed by strong hands. “Hold tight!” a voice called out. The pickup rocked onto two wheels and then slid sideways as a fire truck collided with the pickup and drove it away from the fire, the man holding Boldt never letting go.
The truck stopped, now twenty yards from the inferno. Loud voices shouted orders simultaneously in a language all their own-what sounded to Boldt like total chaos. Boldt felt Garman dragged out from underneath him. “Hold him!” Boldt shouted, his voice buried by the others. He realized that few of the firefighters would be aware of the ultimate purpose of the operation, would not know the threat Garman represented. “Hold on to him!”
As Garman hit the ground, dragged from the wreckage, he left his rescuers with only his zippered sweatshirt in their heavily gloved hands. He rolled twice. Boldt counted the revolutions and would later swear to Daphne that he and the suspect locked glances in the midst of one of them. He would swear there was nothing in those eyes: no remorse, no fear, no life.
Jonny Garman came to his feet, and faced a team of police rushing toward him. Boldt recalled Daphne’s comments about an asocial’s reaction to crowds.
“No!” Boldt shouted at the group of cops, closing at a run.
Garman looked once at that wall of armed men rushing him, glanced once toward Boldt, turned, and ran at a full sprint into the burning building. Already engulfed in flames before his screams ripped toward the sky, he disappeared into the pulsing orange light.
75
Appropriately, it was raining. Daphne was glad for that because it would disguise her tears.
“You don’t need to come in or anything,” Ben said, meaning he didn’t want her to.
“I’ll just see you to the door,” she said.
“Whatever.”
It hurt her to see him so excited to be reunited with Emily. How she wished he might change his mind at the last minute and beg to find a way to stay with her. But the finest things pass through your life, she thought, like migratory birds. They do not light. They leave you with a glimpse of beauty and pass on.
This was not the death of a friendship, it was the beginning of a young man’s life.
Reading her thoughts, as they sat in the dull glare of a red light, the windshield wipers working like a metronome, he said, “It’s not like we won’t see each other.”
