Ben inched toward the darkness, heart pounding, chest heaving, throat dry, skin prickly. A heavy foot thumped loudly on the trap door, testing. It thumped again.
Ben dragged himself deeper into the darkness, consumed by spiderwebs, convinced that his stepfather was dead and his own death imminent.
Light flashed sharply behind him as the trap door came open. “Don’t fuck with me, kid. You’re pissing me off something bad.” He tested. “Kid?”
Ben stopped, suddenly wanting to answer. He didn’t care about the money; he would gladly give it up. He opened his mouth to reply, but nothing would come out. Slowly, carefully, as if someone had let the air out of him, Ben laid himself down prone on the dusty gravel. He would hide. It was all that was left.
The ground was disturbed there, humped, the gravel mixed with dried mud. He tried to make himself as thin, as low, as invisible as possible. The intruder’s leg entered through the hatch. The man was coming down after him.
Ben had run out of options. He couldn’t think what to do. Face pressed low to the gravel, he peered toward the open hatch and the flood of light there.
Ben’s one good eye shifted focus, the resulting perspective out of proportion. It was not gravel or stone or mud that he saw. It was not the wooden supports rising at equal intervals from poured concrete pads to support the floor overhead. Nor was it the pair of legs groping for where to land. All this remained within his field of vision, yet all that Ben could see, the entire focal point of his attention, was an arc of dull yellow metal a few inches in front of his face.
He reached out and pinched the yellow metal between his fingers. A ring. A gold ring.
At once he knew. It spoke to him in the familiar soft, tender, feminine voice that he had longed to hear. Hearing that voice brought a tightness to his throat and blurred his eyes.
His mother’s wedding ring. He knew this absolutely and without doubt. His mother’s grave.
Impelled by anger, rage, and grief, without a second thought, he sprang to his feet, crouched low, and flew through the crawl space, fingers clutching the ring. He charged wildly, knocking over the man named Nick without any outward effort other than the sheer determination to be gone from this place as fast as his feet would carry him. The intruder fell back. Ben leaped through the trap door access and hurried out of the closet.
His stepfather was just coming to, dazed and badly beaten. Ben stopped abruptly and stared down at him. Disappointment drained him: The man was
Ben had never dared raise a hand to the guy. The realization of what he had just done, coupled with the knowledge of his mother’s grave and the presence of the intruder behind him, sent him out the door at a full sprint. The call to 911 would come, but not until he reached a pay phone several blocks later. “I want to report a murder,” the terrified young voice was recorded as saying. “He killed my mother! She’s under the house!”
For the second time that youthful voice was recorded by the Seattle Communications Center. This time, the address given by the boy matched the address of an earlier recorded call, though that connection was missed. The center’s computer-aided dispatch system assigned the call to a patrol car near Seattle University. The driver of that car, officer Patrick Shannon, would find an unconscious man on the living room floor, the victim of an assault.
As directed, he would hold this man for questioning and pursue evidence of a possible body in the crawl space.
A second car was dispatched to the pay phone from which the 911 call had been made. The phone was back on the hook, the receiver warm to the touch.
Far away from this phone, a small boy sped through the night. Running, running, running. Running until his legs would carry him no more.
28
Boldt was thinking that there are many shades of gray, many moods to accompany these shades, and not all dark, as many people believed. There was the gray of morning, leaning more toward the color of lint in a laundry dryer; there was the gray of noon, a dripping gray that bleeds from the sky and enhances the lush greens of the ivy and the grass; there was the gray of evening, dark and foreboding, warning of a pitch-black nighttime that turns all men blind and all children scared. One learned to live with gray in Seattle. The gray of moods. The gray area between right and wrong.
Sergeant Lou Boldt was one of many who saw the paperwork on the decomposed female corpse discovered in a crawl space. Boldt felt convinced all they needed was a few hours in the Box with the suspect. They would win the confession. A grounder, as the saying went. If this failed, Dixie would need to ID the remains, and they would work up a connection between the victim and the suspect. Time-consuming, but feasible. It was just the kind of case that attracted Boldt, though, due to the arsons, all he could do was manage it from a distance. Based on neighbors’ statements, city services was looking for a young boy believed to be the suspect’s stepson and more than likely the source of the anonymous 911 call that had led to the discovery of the corpse. To Boldt, it added up to another runaway somewhere on the streets of Seattle-a possible witness, a scared and terrified young boy, whose picture had been found at the house and was already part of the case file.
He had no choice. Without telling anyone, Boldt left the office and drove the streets looking for that face. KPLU announced a Clifford Brown cut. Boldt pumped the brakes. The pool cars weren’t serviced well anymore.
Traffic was light for a change. He tried the streets of downtown, drove aimlessly over to Capitol Hill, and then to the address listed in the file. No face, no little boy. He stopped at a supermarket and shopped. He drove home and left off the groceries and tried to speak Spanish to Marina, who looked after his kids. He hugged Miles and kissed Sarah and wondered what the streets were like for a twelve-year-old.
Back in the car, jazz found its way into his bones, like the lingering warmth that follows a bath. It lived inside him. He let it out as often as possible, not often enough. He thought that people who lived without music lived tragic lives, but realized that others would say the same about modern art, or poetry, or even dog racing. Each to his own. For him it was jazz, sad and dreary at the moment, like the noon sky. He felt gray all over.
Bear Berenson owned and operated Joke’s On You, a comedy club and music bar with a fish-sandwich menu, a mirrored porthole behind the bar, and, during the evenings, several coeds in their late teens working the tables. On any given night, Bear could be found, slightly stoned, moving between his customers’ tables, one eye on the backsides of the coeds and the other on the bartender, to make sure he wasn’t failing to use the register. After a protracted legal battle with the federal government, Bear, although the victor, had failed to save The Big Joke, his first club and a longtime haunt of Lou Boldt and other cops. Joke’s On You was in Walling-ford, up on 45th, a long way from downtown and his former clientele. This time Bear was aiming jointly at the imports to the U, the young kids with their parents’ credit cards and loose change, and the yuppies turned parents who had abandoned the Beamers for the Caravans. Wallingford had changed a lot in the last ten years, and Bear was there to take advantage. The five-to-seven jazz and cocktail hour was for what Bear called the Headin’ Homes, the young professionals too tired to think, too tired to play mom or dad, but strong enough to stop for thirty minutes of courage. At nine the place rolled into stand-up, the drink prices dropped by a dollar, and the waitresses shed short skirts for black jeans and white tops with a logo of a laughing bear on the breast pocket. In jokes.
At three in the afternoon there were two barflies at the bar, a haze of smoke in the air, and a man behind the bar playing solitaire on a laptop computer. He was a barrel-chested guy but with droopy shoulders, black hair-lots of it-and thick lips. His eyes looked perpetually sad; his lips held back a cynical grin. Bear always looked like he knew something he shouldn’t.
“Rip Van fucking Winkle,” Bear said, the partial grin giving way to a full smile. “How goes, Monk?”
Thelonious Monk was Boldt’s favorite jazz pianist-he played the entire Monk book. Bear had called him this forever. “Just like the Energizer bunny,” Boldt said.
“Lots of dead people keeping you busy?”
That caused one of the two barflies to take note of Boldt. This man nodded at Boldt and Boldt said hello. “Enough to keep me busy,” Boldt answered.
