the guy who tells the screw to put you with the soapies and he does it; I’m the guy who says to put the roaches in the soup, and the cook does it. I have friends. I make friends easily. Like with you, right, Nicky? Buddies, right? Let’s have a little nod, Nicky.”
If Boldt hadn’t seen it a dozen other times, he might have been shocked to see the suspect nod.
Daphne, clearly amazed, said, “I could study LaMoia for a decade and never write a comprehensible paper about how he does what he does. It’s not simply intimidation, it’s something beyond that.”
“It’s LaMoia,” Boldt said.
“That’s what I mean,” she agreed. “He’s despicable, and yet he’s lovable.”
“I’m just glad he’s on our side.”
“Sometimes I wonder,” she said.
“He called me,” Hall said, the first break in his silence.
Suddenly quiet and a fellow conspirator, LaMoia said, “Give us what we need, Nicky, and you just might walk out of here. No promises. But the flip side is that we can make life hell for you. It’s like a game show, Nicky. Choose the door. Go ahead and pick. But don’t waste any more of my time, and don’t make them send me on any more errands to clean up your shit for you. You got into this shit all by yourself. Now you need me to get out of it. The doors are right in front of you: Truth or Dare. Your choice. Pick one, Nicky, and pick fast, because I’m running out of time here. I’m going home at the end of the day, just remember that. You’re not. Not yet. I’m going home to my own bed, my TV, and a warm little friend from Puerto Rico with a pair of cheeks that just sit in the palms of your hands, you know? Sweet stuff. Truth or Dare, Nicky? Time’s up!” LaMoia was out of the chair, leaning across the table at the suspect. “Buzzer’s ringing. Nicky Hall: Come on down!”
Even without seeing the detective’s face, Boldt knew that the man looked insane and ready to crack. LaMoia lived on the edge, and at times like this it was impossible to tell how much was acting and how much was real.
Daphne said, “I can’t believe this. It’s going to work.”
“Yeah,” Boldt echoed. “I know.”
LaMoia pounded the table again. “Truth or Dare, Mr. Paddle Paw! You start talking or I start walking. Matthews can’t save you. Boldt can’t save you. Only
“He knew that both parts of the stuff were stored on the base,” Hall explained. “He had to have either been stationed there or worked there at some point. I figured that out right away.”
“Brilliant. Pray continue, my man.” LaMoia kicked his feet up onto the table, stretched his hands behind his head, leaned into the cradle, and said, “I’m listening, Nicky. I’m listening.” He glanced toward the glass and winked.
Boldt reached down and turned on the tape recorder.
As if cued to do so, LaMoia said, “My name is Detective LaMoia, Mr. Hall. Tell me what you know.” He did this for the sake of the tape, which he knew was running by then.
Hall picked up where he had left off. “I was working MP duty. I’d driven by those buildings for
LaMoia glanced back at the window with a cocky, proud expression and grinned widely.
“Sometimes I hate LaMoia,” Daphne said.
“Yeah,” Boldt answered. “I know what you mean.”
40
On Saturday Daphne took Ben to the Seattle Aquarium. He’d never been, and it was a place she enjoyed so much that she often went there simply to relax, to stroll and think in what to her was another world. She never took notice of the tanks, rarely read the descriptive labels; it was the fish that captivated her attention, the unflinching eyes, the pulsing gills, the gentle-paced wandering through the kelp and imitation coral. Despite her frequent visits, she didn’t know one fish from another, couldn’t tell a dolphin from a porpoise, a pilot fish from a pike.
Ben, on the other hand, was a product of TV documentaries and knew the names of the various species, as well as their feeding and mating habits. “I taped most of them late at night, once Jack had passed out, because he only liked sports and sitcoms.” He said it as if this was to be expected, and it cut to Daphne’s core. He would toss such things her way, slowly opening the door to his existence, and the wider that door opened, the more she glimpsed of what Ben accepted as a normal life, the more she ached to change his existence. It was this mutual desire to improve his environment that connected Daphne, however indirectly, to Emily Richland.
“Have you ever felt that way?” Ben said, pointing at a red snapper kissing the transparent walls of the tank. They were in what to her was the most exciting section of the aquarium, a large open room exposed to several large fish tanks that housed entire communities of oceangoing species.
“Which way is that?” she asked. She wanted to see the world through his eyes, experience the world through his developing senses.
“Trapped like that,” he answered pensively, stopping at the tank and studying the fish that appeared to be kissing the boy. “What’s it like for him, banging up against that wall? He probably can’t figure it out. And what’s he think of us? This whole other place he can see but can’t get to. Like that.” He looked deeper into the tank at the lumbering fish. “They flush seawater in here at night. It has the nutrients and stuff. It feeds them. And then they filter it out to make the water clearer so we can see them.”
“Do you feel like that, Ben? Trapped?”
“Not by you,” he clarified. “Not you. But yeah.” He pointed to the snapper, which continued to push on the clear barrier. “That’s me at my window at night, you know? Looking out at other people’s houses. Wondering what it’s like. If their lives are any different.” He led her a few feet forward but stayed with the same tank. “Emily says it doesn’t have to be that way, but I’m not so sure. People are different than what they seem. That’s just the way it is. Not Emily. Not you. But most people.”
“I don’t think you can group people together, lump them together like that.” She wondered why she and Owen discussed the next party they were supposed to attend, and here she was with a twelve-year-old discussing the hard points of life. “I think it’s possibly better to take people as individuals, weigh them on their own merits, and try not to be too judgmental.”
“Yeah, but how do you do that?” Ben questioned. “First thing I do when I meet someone is size them up. You know? Like that guy,” he said, pointing into the tank. “See him checking everyone out? Looking over there, over here. On the prowl. That’s me. He’s thinking someone’s going to sneak up and try to eat him-that’s what he’s thinking. And that’s right too, because one of those fish probably
“Watch the language,” she scolded, but Ben didn’t respond. He walked on and Daphne followed. If Owen had been here, she would have tried to lead him around, she realized. Why was she willing to follow the boy, when she didn’t like to follow anybody?
He glanced back at her. “Are you crying?”
“Allergies,” she lied.
“I wonder if fish have allergies,” he said innocently, turning back to the tank. “Check out that guy’s fin. You see that? Someone womped on him, took a chunk. That’s what I’m telling you, D. You turn your back, someone womps on you.”
He had been using this nickname for her occasionally, and she had cautioned herself not to allow its use to draw them closer-to remain professional-but in this she had failed. Boldt called her Daffy. Everyone else, even Owen, called her either by her first or last name. Only this little bundle of energy called her by that nickname. It endeared him to her.
“Can you swim?” she asked.
“Nah. Not so you’d notice. Sink to the bottom if you put me in there. I’m a retard in water. Scares me, and I start flapping around, and that’s pretty much it. Down she goes. You?”
“Yes. I swim.”
“Teach me sometime?”
