Nocturnal: A Novel

worse than it had on the stairs. Was that ache from dream-terror, or from the flu that made him burn and sweat?

Bryan reached out and turned on his nightstand lamp. He winced at the sudden light, but not for long.

He had to find some paper, find a pen.

He had to draw.

Rex Wakes Up

Rex Deprovdechuk woke up hot and sweating.

Excited. Terrified.

For a brief moment he remained lost in the dream’s power, his heart hammering, his breath short and fast. Then the aches faded back in like a vise slowly squeezing every part of his body. The pain, the fever … he’d never been this sick before.

His pants felt funny. He reached down and touched, felt something stiff. He pulled his hand back — what was that down there? Embarrassment swept over him, making his skin feel even hotter.

He had a boner.

He knew what boners were, of course. Kids at school talked about them all the time. People talked about them on TV. He’d even seen them in Internet porn. Seen them, sure, but he’d never had one. Watching porn hadn’t given him one. Neither had the girls at school. Rex had always known he was supposed to have them, yet they had never come. Nothing had ever turned him on before.

But the dream had.

He had been stalking Alex Panos, the biggest of the bullies who made Rex’s life hell. Stalking him, like a lion would stalk a zebra. The dream-smells still filled Rex’s nose — rotting cloth, garbage — and those conflicting feelings: burning rage against the bully, and mind-numbing fear of the thing lurking in the shadows.

One womb.

What a great dream. He’d almost jumped down from some building to attack that asshole Alex. Wouldn’t that have been great?

There had been other people in the dream, people who were hunting side by side with him. Two people … two people with strange faces. Dreams were crazy like that.

His dick throbbed so bad it hurt. It was a different kind of hurt than the sickness that overwhelmed his body. Growing pains, Roberta had told him. He still didn’t know about that. The pains had come out of nowhere just a couple of days ago. But maybe she was right — he’d just had his first boner ever, so maybe he was growing. Maybe he’d grow a lot and wouldn’t be the smallest freshman in the school anymore.

Maybe … maybe he’d get big enough to beat up the bullies.

The boner brought with it a huge wave of relief. In that way, at least, he was like the other boys.

Rex climbed out of bed, careful to move quietly lest the squeaky floorboards wake his mother. If Roberta woke up at this hour, it would be real bad.

He reached up and tenderly touched his nose. Still sore. That wasn’t from the body aches, it was from where Alex had punched him in the face yesterday. Just a little punch, and it had put Rex down. If Alex ever hit Rex as hard as he could …

Rex didn’t want to think about that. He walked to his desk and turned on his lamp. He had to draw a symbol he’d seen in the dream, something that he knew would make the fear fade away. He’d draw the symbol, and then something else — one of those strange faces he’d seen in the dream, a face that should have frightened him but did not.

Finally, Rex would draw Alex. Alex, and all the things Rex wished he could do to him.

The sketch pad waited.

Rex drew.

Aggie James, Duckies and Bunnies

Aggie James pulled the dirty sleeping bag tighter around his body. Even the two cardboard boxes underneath him couldn’t keep away the ground’s chill. He’d wedged himself behind a dumpster that blocked at least some of the light wind, but San Francisco’s night mist permeated his clothes, saturated every breath he drew into his lungs, even soaked into the sleeping bag he’d been so lucky to find. The sleeping bag was red, with duckies and bunnies on it. He’d found it draped over a trashcan not too far from here.

He felt the cold, the dampness, but those were distant, just faint echoes of something that might concern him. Weather didn’t matter, because he had scored. Scored big. And it was good shit, too — he’d felt the horse kick in before he’d even pulled the syringe out of his arm.

This was his favorite sleeping spot, in the back doorway of some old furniture store on Fern Street, just off Van Ness. They called it a street, but it was an alley. No one really bothered him here.

A numbing warmth spread all over his body, even down to his toenails, man, even down to his toenails. So it was cold out, so what? Aggie was warm in the way he needed to be warm.

He heard a light thump, then a heavier rattle, like something had landed on the dumpster.

“Pierre, you retard, try to be quiet.”

“You sthut up.”

The first voice sounded raspy, like sandpaper on rough wood. The second rang deep. Deep and slow. The sounds echoed through Aggie’s head. He hoped these guys would just pass on by. Sleep was coming whether he wanted it or not. Damn, but this was some good shit.

“This him?” The sandpaper voice.

“Uh-huh,” said a third voice. This one sounded high-pitched. “We gotta clean him up, but for sure he’s a won’t-be.”

The sound of someone sniffing, and that sound was close. When Aggie heard it, he felt a cool trickle of air across his cheek. Was someone smelling him?

Aggie tried to open his eyes. They cracked, just a little. He saw a blurry image of a kid’s head, maybe a teenager?

The teenager smiled.

Aggie’s eyes slid shut, returning him to the delicious darkness. Had he dropped a tab? Maybe he had after he shot up, then forgot about it. Had to be something — horse had never made him hallucinate before. Well, maybe a little, but not like that. Had to be acid. Only acid could have made him see that teenager with big black eyes, skin as purple as grape juice, and a smiling mouth full of big fucking shark teeth.

Just say no to hallucinations, thank you very much.

“I been watching him,” said the high-pitched voice.

“He looks sthick,” said the deep voice. Something about that voice, something wet and slurry. It reminded Aggie of Sylvester, the cat from Looney Toons, the way he’d spit and slobber while working out suffering succotash. The guy sounded like he had a tongue that just didn’t know its place.

“He’s not sick,” said high-pitch.

“He looks sthick. Thly, you think he’s sthick?”

“I dunno,” said the sandpaper voice.

High-pitch sounded offended. “He’s not sick. He’s just stoned. We can clean him up.”

“He better not be sick,” said sandpaper voice. “The last one you picked must have had the flu. I shit chocolate milk for a week.”

“I said I was sorry about that,” said high-pitch.

Sandpaper voice sighed. “Whatever. Pierre, pick him up. We need to get back.”