Ezra sat in Geiger’s chair, at Geiger’s desk. The cat lay in his favorite spot, just to the right of the keyboard, his gray silken stomach exposed. He prompted Ezra’s hand with a tap of his paw whenever a minute had passed between scratchings.
Ezra stared at the long row of black three-ringed binders before him. They were labeled chronologically, starting with “Jan-June 1999” and running right up to the present. He felt as if the binders were calling out to him, all of them whispering, “Open me.” He slid the keyboard to the side, pulled one of the binders toward him, and laid it on its side. Nearly two dozen tabs jutted from the stack of pages. His fingers randomly found one, and then he opened the binder and began to read.
• DATE/TIME: 5-22-2004/3 A.M.
• LOCATION: Ludlow St.
• CLIENT: NYPD detective
• REFERRAL: Carmine/ASAP
• ISSUE: Detective’s 24-year-old daughter missing
• JONES: Daughter’s ex-boyfriend, 25
• DATA: Daughter missing 3 days. Detective has “real bad feeling” about ex-boyfriend, and rather than arrest him he went to Carmine for a favor.
• SETUP: Jones strapped in barber chair, clad only in boxer shorts. Muscular. Shaved head. Room fully lit. Portable cart w/aerosol spray, straight razor, blindfold.
Ezra turned a few pages, scanning them. This time, the word “razor” caught his eye. He went back to the top of the page and read more slowly again.
G: Do you know where Lisa is, Victor?
Jones: I told you, man-I don’t know where she is! You think I messed with her just ’cuz she broke up with me?
G: Victor, I know what you told me, but I think you are lying-and I’m usually right about these things.
G takes straight razor from cart, swivels blade out of sheath.
G: Victor, pay close attention to what I’m saying now, because it’s crucial that you understand what is to come. I’ve honed this razor to such a sharpness that precise cuts barely cause any pain.
Jones: Oh man, this is so fucked.
G takes vial of aerosol freeze spray from cart.
G: Victor, this works immediately and wears off quickly.
G takes one of Jones’s fingers and sprays tip. Jones flinches, stiffens.
Jones: Motherfuck-that shit’s cold!
G puts down aerosol, then cuts tip of Jones’s middle finger with razor. Blood brims from cut.
Jones: Fuck, man! You cut me!
G: But it didn’t hurt. Did it, Victor?
G prepares to make another cut.
Jones: No, it didn’t fucking hurt!
G: Victor, you’re only here to tell me the truth. Nothing else. I’m going to blindfold you and ask you again about Lisa-where she is, if she is still alive-and then I’m going to start slicing parts of you-
Jones becomes more agitated.
Jones: No, no, no, man. That’s totally not-
G: — but I’m going to apply the spray first, and that, along with the blade’s sharpness, means you will feel the pressure of the blade, but no pain.
Jones: Jesus, are you fucking crazy, man?
G: Victor, blood carries oxygen through the body. If blood loss is gradual, you can lose up to twenty-five percent of it-about one and a quarter liters-before your organs start to shut down from oxygen deprivation-
Jones: Jesus Christ, man! Don’t cut me!
G: — so the heavier the bleeding, the less time it takes to die. But you won’t know how much you’re bleeding, or how long you have to live.
G takes a blindfold and ties it around Jones. Sprays Jones’s face, chest, arms, groin. Jones flinches, whimpers.
G: I’m going to start cutting now, Victor.
Jones: C’mon, man. Wait. This is fucked. Don’t do it!
G folds blade back inside sheath and draws blunt edge of sheath across Jones’s left arm. Jones struggles in straps.
Jones: Oh fuck!
G: Victor, where is Lisa?
Jones: I told you, man! I don’t-
G: You’re wasting time and blood, Victor.
G pulls down Jones’s boxer shorts. Jones flinches wildly.
Jones: No, no! Fuck, man, no! Not my-
G grabs Jones by the throat.
G: Next question, Victor. Do you want to be cockless or heartless?
Ezra slammed the binder shut, as if locking in a monster before it could reach out and grab him. The cat jumped up and leapt from the desk.
Ezra slumped back into Geiger’s chair. He would spend the rest of his life with this day tucked into a pocket of his memory, and over time it would become a yellowing receipt itemizing the cost of what he’d lost in the past twenty-four hours. And scrawled at the top would be the question he now uttered aloud:
“Why did you save me?”
Amsterdam Avenue was a tangle of noises. Geiger felt vulnerable, almost defenseless, and he was still trying to absorb not only his encounter with Burger King but also his visit to a drugstore. He had never been in one of those, either, and the experience of confronting a palisade of brightly colored containers in the “Pain and Sleep” aisle had been nearly paralytic. There seemed to be curatives for every sort of pain and dosages for every person and situation. It had taken him ten minutes to decide on a small bottle of Children’s Advil.
He turned down his block. Up ahead on the sidewalk, sitting in his folding chair with his scarred crutch at his feet, was the man everyone in the neighborhood called Mr. Memz. The last thing his right foot had ever stepped on was a land mine in a jungle in Vietnam, and he’d come home without half the leg. His sanity was often questioned by those who walked by, but his ability to memorize vast amounts of text had made him a local legend.
To supplement his disability checks, Mr. Memz sat at his outpost and took wagers from passersby on whether he could recite, verbatim, a page from any of the half dozen books he had on display on a portable card table. The bettor would declare the size of his wager, pick a book, choose a random page, and read the first four words of a sentence aloud. Mr. Memz would then begin his recitation, ripe with the drama, humor, or passion that the selection, in his estimation, called for. He almost never made a mistake, and even then most of his customers rarely pointed it out.
As always, Mr. Memz was dressed in military-issue camouflage, and as Geiger approached he was stubbing out a Newport.
“How you doing, BT?” said Mr. Memz. “BT” was the nickname he had bestowed on Geiger years ago. It stood for “Big Talker.”
