Black Halo

‘Considering the years she’s spent to studying the physical condition? Probably quite a bit.’ Denaos tapped his chin. ‘She started screaming and ran us out a moment later, but I remember clearly-’

‘He knows nothing.’

‘Remember what? How could you know? You and Kat have both now said she went mad and drove you out like … like …’

‘Heathens.’

‘Heathens!’ he spat. ‘How could you know what she knew? What happened after she drove you out? Why did she do it in the first place?’

Denaos remained unmoving, glaring quietly at the young man with the same unpronounced tension in his body that Lenk had seen before, usually moments before someone found something sharp embedded in something soft. The fact that there was scarcely anywhere on the rogue where he could keep a knife hidden was small comfort.

‘That,’ he said, ‘is no business of anyone’s but hers. I believe her word over yours.’

‘Liar.’

‘A good point,’ Lenk muttered.

‘What is?’

‘Why so defensive over her?’ the young man asked, raising a brow. ‘You’re always the first to suspect, yet you so willingly take her word over mine?’

‘She has the benefit of not being visibly demented,’ Denaos replied.

Lenk wanted to scowl, to snarl, but the pain inside his head was growing unbearable. On wispy shrieks, the voice was agonisingly clear.

‘Traitors. Liars. Faithless. Ignorant. Unnecessary.’

‘Just ignorant,’ Lenk muttered, shaking his head. ‘Just … just …’

‘Look,’ Denaos said, his tension melting away with his sigh. ‘I’m not sure what kind of message is entailed by displaying the object of your attention with sea life replacing her anatomy, but it can’t be good.’ He leaned back and looked thoughtful. ‘The Gods send visions to speak to the faithful, to reward them, to guide them,’ his eyes narrowed, ‘to warn them.’

‘I didn’t think you were religious.’

‘Silf’s creed is silence and secrecy. It’s probably a mild blasphemy even telling you about this.’

‘So why do it?’

‘Greed, mostly,’ the rogue replied. ‘Averting a man from imminent mutilation of heart, head and probably genitalia seems a deed the Gods would smile upon.’ He glanced at the young man. ‘Tell me, what were you hoping to do once this whole bloody business was over and we stood on the mainland again?’

‘I’d given it some thought,’ Lenk replied, rolling his shoulders. ‘Farming is as good a trade as any. I figured I’d get some land and hold onto it as long as I could. Just a cow, a plough …’

‘And her?’

Lenk frowned without knowing why. ‘Maybe.’

‘Do you remember how she smiles?’

Lenk stared at the ground, a slight grin forming at the corner of his mouth. ‘Yeah, I remember.’

‘Remember her laughter?’

His smile wormed its way to the other side of his face. ‘I do.’

‘You’ve probably seen her truly happy a few times, in fact.’

He stared up at the sun, remembered a different kind of warmth. He remembered a hand on his shoulder, a puff of hot air between thin lips, heat that sent tiny droplets of sweat coursing down muscles wrapped under pale flesh. He remembered smiling then, as he did now.

‘I have.’

‘Good,’ Denaos said. ‘Now, of those times, how many had come just after she shot something?’

His smile vanished, head dropped. The rogue’s words rang through his head and heart with an awful truth to them. Surely, he realised, there were some moments between the shict and himself where she had smiled, where she had laughed and there hadn’t been a lick of blood involved.

But had she really smiled, then?

‘So she …?’

‘Was around for the violence? It’s a possibility, really. Nature of the beast, if you’ll excuse the accuracy of the statement.’ Denaos sighed. ‘Perhaps it wasn’t what you wanted to hear, but it’s the truth.’

‘It’s not.’

‘It is,’ the voice hissed.

‘It’s not!’ Lenk insisted.

‘Her motivation is pointless. She is a distraction, useless. He, as well, but less so if he makes our purpose that much clearer to foggy minds.’

‘Well, it’s not like you’ll have to stop seeing her,’ Denaos offered. ‘Just keep killing things and she’ll continue to follow the scent of blood.’

‘He is right.’

‘He is not!’ Lenk muttered.

‘Ours is a higher calling. We are not made for idle farming and contemplating dirt. There is still too much to do.’

‘What happened to you?’ he whispered. ‘Why do you speak like this now?’

‘Too much to cleanse. A stain lingers on this island. Duty is clear.’

‘Well, you asked for my opinion,’ Denaos replied, raising an eyebrow. ‘It’s hardly my fault that your thoughts run so contrary that you find sanity offensive, but the fact remains …’ He held out his hands helplessly. ‘Adventuring or the shict. You can embrace both or give up both, but never dismiss either. And you’ve got divine reinforcement for that fact, not that godly visions are necessary.’

‘Or real.’

The sudden appearance of what appeared to be a pale, talking stick drew both men’s attentions up to the stream bank. Dreadaeleon stood there with skinny arms folded over skinny chest, nose up in the air in an attempt at superiority that was made unsurprisingly difficult given his distinct lack of clothing, muscle and dignity.

‘How long have you been standing there?’ Denaos cut him off with a direct swiftness. ‘It’s weird enough to be wearing a loincloth, talking to another man in a loincloth, without a third boy sitting and staring … in a loincloth.’

‘I had come by to talk to you. Fortunately, I arrived just as the delusional talk of gods came up.’ Dreadaeleon waved a hand as he sauntered toward them. ‘It’s irrelevant as pertains to the subject of hallucinations.’

‘It is?’ Lenk asked, quirking a brow.

‘Wait,’ Denaos interjected, ‘don’t tell me you’re going to listen to him.’

‘Why shouldn’t he?’ Dreadaeleon replied smugly. ‘Insight based on reason and knowledge is far superior to conjecture based on ignorant superstition and … well, I suppose you would probably cite something like your “gut” as credible source, no?’

‘That and the fact that, between the two of us, I’m the only one who’s managed to talk to a woman without breathing hard,’ the rogue snapped. ‘You’re aware we’re talking about women, right? Nothing even remotely logical.’

‘Everything is logical in nature, especially hallucinations, which you were also discussing.’ The boy turned to Lenk. ‘To credit one hallucination to one delusion is preposterous.’

Lenk frowned at the boy. ‘You … do know I’m a follower of Khetashe, don’t you?’

‘And yet, gods’ — Dreadaeleon paused to look disparagingly at Denaos — ‘and their followers don’t seem to be doing much for you. I once believed in them, too, when I was young and stupid.’

‘You’re still-’

‘The point I’m trying to make,’ he said with fierce insistence, ‘is that hallucinations are matters of mind, not divinity. And who is more knowledgeable in the ways of the mind than a wizard? You know it was the Venarium that discovered the brain as the centre of thought.’