Black Halo

‘There is nothing here,’ Lenk replied, ‘nothing but lizardmen and bugs. What purpose is there in staying here?’

‘When was the last time you found a purpose by looking behind you? What awaits you there? Burned ruins of your old home? The graves of your family?’

‘What would you know of it?’ Lenk snarled, feeling his hands tense, restrained from strangling the creature only by curiosity and dread for the answer.

‘I know they will not be there when you return,’ the creature replied. ‘Just as I know what little family you’ve scraped together you only have by coming this far.’ It grinned broadly. ‘Go farther and who knows? Blood, yes. Death, most certainly. But in these, you find peace … Perhaps you’ll find the kind that lasts? The kind that lets you know who it is that speaks in your head and who it was that sent you on a road that began with the blood of your family? The kind where everything is fine at the end?’

Lenk swallowed hard.

‘Will I find it?’

‘Are you asking me if things will get better or if things will turn out the way you hoped?’

‘I don’t know.’

‘Just as well. Much of the future is uncertain, save for this …’ It leaned forward slowly, eyes widening, mouth widening. ‘None of that matters.’

‘My happiness does not matter?’

‘You were not bred for happiness. You were bred to do your duty.’

‘I … wasn’t bred! I was born!’ Lenk nodded stiffly, as if affirming to himself. ‘My name is Lenk!’

‘Lenk what?’

‘Lenk … Lenk …’ He racked his brain. ‘I had a grandfather.’

‘What was his name?’

‘He was … he was my mother’s father! We were all born in the same place! The same village!’

‘Where?’

‘A … a village. Somewhere. I can’t …’ He thumped his head with the heel of his hand. ‘But, I knew! I remembered! Just a moment ago! Where …’ He turned to the creature, eyes wide. ‘Where did they go?’

‘It hardly matters. They won’t be coming back … not on the mainland.’

A long silence persisted between them, neither of them breaking their stare to so much as blink. When Lenk spoke, his voice quavered.

‘But they will here?’

‘I did not say that. What I implied was that there is nothing to gain upon returning to the mainland.’

‘And what is here, then?’

‘Here?’ The creature grinned. ‘Death, obviously.’

‘Whose death?’

‘A meaningful one, be certain.’ It twisted its yellow gaze toward the distant edge of the forest and the village beyond. ‘Ah … sunset will come soon and your precious farewell feast with it. I would be wary of these green creatures, Lenk. You never know what might be lurking behind their faces.’

The creature’s saplike voice felt as though it had poured over Lenk’s body, pooled at his feet and held him there staring dumbfoundedly at the creature as it strode away like a thing much larger than its size would suggest. Dumbstruck, the young man found the voice to speak only as the creature began to slip into the foliage, green flesh blending with green leaves.

‘Wait!’ Lenk called after it. ‘Tell me … something! Anything! Give me a reason to keep going!’ As the creature continued on, he took a tentative step toward its fading figure. ‘Tell me! Will Kataria kill me? Who killed my family? Who is it in my head? You never told me!’ He growled, his voice a curse unto itself. ‘You never told me anything!’

‘I know …’

Whatever pursuit Lenk might have mustered further was halted as the creature turned to look over its shoulder with a face not its own. Its jaws were wide, impossibly so, to the point that Lenk could almost hear them straining under the pressure.

Gritted between them, reflecting his own horrified visage that shrank with every horrified step he retreated, a set of teeth, each tooth the length and colour of three bleached knucklebones stacked atop each other, glittered brightly.

‘Ominous, isn’t it?’

The words echoed in his thoughts, just as the polished, toothy grin embedded itself in eyes that stared blankly, long into the sunset, after the creature had vanished and drums began to pound in the distance.

Twenty-Five

CONFESSIONAL VIOLENCE

Pagans had certain enviable qualities, Asper decided after an hour of lying in the mossy bed and staring up at the sun, enjoying the sensation of it as it bathed her.

First among those qualities was the confidence to lounge around in skimpy furs beneath the sun for hours on end, she decided. That was certainly a practice she’d have to abandon upon returning to decent society. Not too hard, she thought as she scratched a red spot on her belly, especially if meant fewer bug bites.

But she was possessed of the worrying suspicion that she would have more difficulty leaving behind the second quality she found so enviable: the complete confidence they had in their faiths. She had often wondered what it was about people with limited grasps of homesteading and hygiene that made them so sure of their heathen beliefs.

Only recently, though, was she wondering what it was they had that she lacked.

Perhaps, she reasoned, her faith permitted her a unique position to come to the conclusion. The creed of Talanite was to heal, regardless of ideological difference. The occasional attempt to convert the barbarian races from their shallow, false gods were largely carried out by the more militant faiths of Daeon and Galataur. The most she had ever seen of such attempts was the gruesome aftermath: the hacked bodies of shict, tulwar or couthi who had refused to give up their gods and chose to meet them instead. The most thought she had ever expended for them was a brief prayer and a silent lament for the futility of dying in the name of a faith that made no sense to her.

Of course, she reminded herself, you worship the sun. That seems pretty silly at a glance, doesn’t it? She sighed, wondering if those barbaric races had ever asked themselves the same question. Does Kataria ever wonder that? She doesn’t look like she does … then again, she doesn’t look like she ever pays enough attention to anything deeper than food … or Lenk.

She instantly cursed herself for thinking his name. The memories always began with his name. Like a river, they flowed from his name to that night when Kataria had dragged his unconscious body into the hut. The memories never got any easier to digest. Her heart never ceased to beat faster with every recollection.

It was seared into her mind, its heat every bit as intense as the one that ran through her arm that night.

Funny, she had almost forgotten about her arm, at least for a moment. She had almost forgotten the night prior to that, when it burned at the sight of that hooded face and skeletal grin, the confusion of waking up amidst a tribe of sentient reptiles, she could hardly think of anything else.

Of course, he changed that entirely.

Naturally, she had fallen to her knees beside him, running practised hands over his body, checking flesh for wounds, bones for breaking, skin for fever. She had ignored it all at that point: Kataria’s shrieking demands, Denaos’