Bonnie shook her head. She didn't have any voice yet. She thought she still might faint. But she tried to pull away just the same.
He didn't tighten his grip, but he didn't let go. And struggling did about as much good as trying to break a brick wall with bare hands. She gave up and tried to calm her breathing.
'Are you frightened of me?' Damon said. He smiled reprovingly, as if they shared a secret. 'You don't need to be.'
How had Elena managed to deal with this? But Elena hadn't, of course, Bonnie realized.
Elena had succumbed to Damon in the end. Damon had won and had his way.
He released one of her arms to trace, very lightly, the curve of her upper lip. 'I suppose I should go away,' he said, 'and not scare you anymore. Is that what you want?'
Like a rabbit with a snake, Bonnie thought. This is how the rabbit feels. Only I don't suppose he'll kill me. I might just die on my own, though. She felt as if her legs might melt away at any minute, as if she might collapse. There was a warmth and a trembling inside her.
Think of something… fast. Those unfathomable black eyes were filling the universe now. She thought she could see stars inside them.
Elena wouldn't like it, she thought, just as his lips touched hers. Yes, that was it. But the problem was, she didn't have the strength to say it. The warmth was growing, rushing out to all parts of her, from her fingertips to the soles of her feet. His lips were cool, like silk, but everything else was so warm. She didn't need to be afraid; she could just let go and float on this. Sweetness rushed through her…
'What the
The voice broke the silence, broke the spell. Bonnie started and found herself able to turn her head. Matt was standing at the edge of the yard, his fists clenched, his eyes like chips of blue ice. Ice so cold it burned.
'Get away from her,' Matt said.
To Bonnie's surprise, the grip on her arms eased. She stepped back, straightening her blouse, a little breathless. Her mind was working again.
'It's okay,' she said to Matt, her voice almost normal. 'I was just—'
'Go back to the car and stay there.'
Now
'Look, Matt—'
'Go on,' he said, still staring at Damon.
Meredith wouldn't have let herself be ordered around this way. And Elena certainly wouldn't. Bonnie opened her mouth to tell Matt to go sit in the car himself when she suddenly realized something.
This was the first time in months she'd seen Matt really
Bonnie bit her lip. For a moment she struggled with her pride. Then she conquered it and lowered her eyes.
'Thanks for rescuing me,' she murmured, and left the yard.
Matt was so angry he didn't dare move closer to Damon for fear he might take a swing at him. And the chilling darkness in Damon's eyes told him that wouldn't be a very good idea.
But Damon's voice was smooth, almost dispassionate. 'My taste for blood isn't just a whim, you know. It's a necessity you're interfering with here. I'm only doing what I have to.'
This callous indifference was too much for Matt. They think of us as food, he remembered. They're the hunters, we're the prey. And he had his claws in Bonnie, Bonnie who couldn't wrestle a kitten.
Contemptuously he said, 'Why don't you pick on somebody your own size, then?'
Damon smiled and the air went colder. 'Like you?'
Matt just stared at him. He could feel muscles clench in his jaw. After a moment he said tightly, 'You can try.'
'I can do more than try, Matt.' Damon took a single step toward him like a stalking panther. Involuntarily, Matt thought of jungle cats, of their powerful spring and their sharp, tearing teeth. He thought of what Tyler had looked like in the Quonset hut last year when Stefan was through with him. Red meat. Just red meat and blood.
'What was that history teacher's name?' Damon was saying silkily. He seemed amused now, enjoying this. 'Mr. Tanner, wasn't it? I did more than try with him.'
'You're a murderer.'
Damon nodded, unoffended, as if he'd just been introduced. 'Of course, he stuck a knife in me. I wasn't planning to drain him quite dry, but he annoyed me and I changed my mind. You're annoying me now, Matt.'
Matt had his knees locked to keep from running. It was more than the catlike stalking grace, it was more than those unearthly black eyes fastened on his. There was something
But he wouldn't run. His conversation with Stefan was blurred in his mind right now, but he knew one thing from it. Even if he died here, he wouldn't run.
'Don't be stupid,' Damon said, as if he'd heard every word of Matt's thoughts. 'You've never had blood taken from you by force, have you? It hurts, Matt. It hurts a lot.'
Elena, Matt remembered. That first time when she'd taken his blood he'd been scared, and the fear had been bad enough. But he'd been doing it of his own volition then. What would it be like when he was unwilling?
I will not run. I will not look away.
Aloud he said, still looking straight at Damon, 'If you're going to kill me, you'd better stop talking and do it. Because maybe you can make me die, but that's all you can make me do.'
'You're even stupider than my brother,' Damon said. With two steps he crossed the distance to Matt. He grabbed Matt by his T-shirt, one hand on either side of the throat. 'I guess I'll have to teach you the same way.'
Everything was frozen. Matt could smell his own fear, but he wouldn't move. He couldn't move now.
It didn't matter. He hadn't given in. If he died right now, he died knowing that.
Damon's teeth were a white glitter in the dark. Sharp as carving knives. Matt could almost feel the razor bite of them before they touched him.
I will not surrender anything, he thought, and closed his eyes.
The shove took him completely off balance. He stumbled and fell backward, his eyes flying open. Damon had let go and pushed him away.
Expressionless, those black eyes looked down at him where he sat in the dirt.
'I'll try to put this in a way you can understand,' Damon said. 'You don't want to mess with me, Matt. I am more dangerous than you can possibly imagine. Now get out of here. It's my watch.'
Silently, Matt got up. He rubbed at his shirt where Damon's hands had crumpled it. And then he left, but he didn't run and he didn't flinch from Damon's eyes.
I won, he thought. I'm still alive, so I won.
And there had been a kind of grim respect in those black eyes in the end. It made Matt wonder about some things. It really did.
Bonnie and Meredith were sitting in the car when he got back. They both looked concerned.
'You were gone a long time,' Bonnie said. 'Are you okay?'
Matt wished people would stop asking him that. 'I'm fine,' he said, and then added, 'Really.' After a moment's thought he decided there was something else he should say. 'Sorry if I yelled at you back there, Bonnie.'
'That's all right,' Bonnie said coolly. Then, thawing, she said, 'You really do look better, you know. More like your old self.'
'Yeah?' He rubbed at his crumpled T-shirt again, looking around. 'Well, tangling with vampires is obviously a great warm-up exercise.'