said. “You say that the guard was trying to kill you?”
“Yes, ma’am.”
“And why would that be?”
“How the hell should I know?”
“Kids shouldn’t cuss on the radio.”
“Oh, sure, you’re a fine one to talk. You can’t even say your name without cussing.”
Denise laughed. This was a pretty sharp kid she was dealing with. “Maybe that explains why we don’t get too many kids calling in here.”
Or maybe its because what’s-his-name said you don’t talk to kids, Nathan didn’t say.
“All right, Nathan,” Denise said, “let’s start over again. You say, in essence, that you killed the guard in self- defense.”
“Yes. Right. Except they’re not called guards. They’re supervisors. You get in trouble if you call them guards.”
“Well, the last thing I want to do is get in trouble with the supervisors.” Denise was surprised to hear the tone in her own voice become warmer. There was something about this kid that was truly disarming. “Why don’t I just shut up and listen. You tell us what actually happened last night.”
Nathan propped himself on three pillows against the headboard of the big bed and stretched his feet out in front of him. “It’s kind of hard to know where to start,” he began. “I learned the hard way that I’d never get along with the other residents. Their idea of a good time was to beat the crap out of me and steal my stuff and, well, do really bad things to me. They’d steal my food and stuff like that. I tried to ignore them, you know? Like my dad used to tell me? But jeez, you gotta eat sometime. It got to the point where I had to snarf everything off my plate while I was still in the food line. For the first month I was there, they wouldn’t let me alone. I tried fighting back, but I just got smeared.”
“Why didn’t you tell someone?” Denise interrupted.
Nathan snorted bitterly. “Yeah, right. I tried that once on my first day there. Big mistake. It was Ricky that I told, as a matter of fact. He’s the guy that, well, you know… that I I…” He just gathered up his strength and he said it. “I’m sorry, ma’am, I know I shouldn’t have done what I did, but Ricky was a real dickhead. Urn, sorry.
“Anyway, there’s this area in the JDC where everybody gets together for school or basketball or just talking, or whatever. I was in there, trying to read, when Ricky came up to me and told me I had to come with him. I knew I was in trouble, but I didn’t know why.. .”
For the next eighteen minutes, Nathan unraveled his side of the story for millions of radio listeners from coast to coast. He spoke articulately, and with the kind of animation that only a child can generate. Denise interrupted only three times to clarify what he was saying, but otherwise sat silently, staring at her control board, envisioning in her own mind the events described by Nathan. By the time the boy was done, The Bitch was twelve commercials behind, but even the sponsors wouldn’t complain. This was great radio.
Nathan had long since finished the books in the JDC library that were worth reading, preferring novels to the comic books favored by the other residents. That day being the Fourth of July, it seemed appropriate to reread April Morning by Howard Fast, a story about a young boy whose life is changed by the Battle of Lexington.
The recreation hall was literally and figuratively the center of activity at the Juvenile Detention Center. Roughly hexagonal in shape and fabricated out of concrete block painted yellow-orange, the rec hall served all nonsleeping activities. Three glass-partitioned rooms served as makeshift classrooms during the day, with the largest of the rooms doubling as a dining hall. The detention cells extended down two hallways on opposite ends of the hexagon—one for the boys and one for the girls. From seven in the morning until eight at night, the doors to those hallways remained locked. By eight-thirty they were locked again, with their residents inside.
The sixth side of the hexagon was the control room, half-Lexan and half-concrete. When residents were in the rec hall, the control room was occupied. Reinforced doors on either side led to the administrative areas and to the Crisis Unit.
At around seven o’clock that night, Ricky entered the rec hall from the administrative section, walked directly over to Nathan, and lifted him out of the chair by his ear. “Come with me, you little shit,” he said.
Nathan yelped, “Ow! What’d I do?”
“You know what you did,” Ricky hissed, his breath smelling of booze and cigarettes. He yanked Nathan across the rec hall toward the door on the other side of the control station. “Maybe a night in the Unit will teach you to draw on the walls.”
Nathan hung onto Ricky’s forearm with both hands, and danced along on tiptoes to keep his ear from being ripped from his head. “Let go, Ricky, please,” he pleaded. “I didn’t do anything. Honest to God, Ricky, I didn’t do anything!”
Ricky didn’t reply, except to lift a little higher on the ear. All activity in the rec hall stopped as dozens of eyes watched the smallest resident of the WC being dragged across the room by the man they all feared most. Each of them looked away, though, as Nathan made eye contact with them, silently pleading for help that he knew they couldn’t offer, even if they’d wanted to.
Ricky paused at the door to the Crisis Unit long enough to snap his key ring from his belt. As the lock turned, Nathan began to panic. The Crisis Unit was little more than a single cell, set apart from all the rest as a place where a resident in crisis could regain his composure and set his head straight. In reality, it was a place of punishment, where food or clothes or even light could be denied until such time as the resident was prepared to change his ways. Although it was rarely used, the Crisis Unit had a reputation among the residents. Nathan was terrified.
The lock turned, and the door opened. Nathan yelled louder still, crying like a baby, and promising not to be bad anymore. He started to grab the doorjamb, but instantly had to return his hands to Ricky’s wrist. “Ricky, you’re hurting me!”
“No shit, jerkoff. If you yell one more time, you’ll find out what hurt really means.”
Once they were through the door, they were in an area of the JDC where Nathan had never been. The hallway was narrow, barely enough room for the door to swing open. Ricky changed his grip to Nathan’s bicep and shoved the boy against the opposite wall, holding him in place with a stiff arm while he once again locked the door to the rec hall. Down to the left, maybe eight feet, the hallway opened up again slightly. Around an angled corner was the door marked with the dreaded words, “CRISIS UNIT.”
Nathan renewed his struggle, pulling his arm from Ricky’s grasp, only to be taken to the floor by his hair. Ricky followed him down to the ground and placed his mouth an inch from Nathan’s ear. “Listen to me, jerkoff,” he growled, droplets of spittle splashing against Nathan’s cheek. “You’re going in that room over there, one way or another, if I have to break bones to make it happen. Do you understand me?”
Nathan nodded, his face pressed against the tile floor. He tried to look at Ricky, but couldn’t focus through the tears in his eyes.
“And stop crying, you fucking cunt.” He stood once again, keeping a tight hold on a fistful of Nathan’s hair and dragging him down the short hallway. He one-handed the lock again, and half-shoved, half-tossed Nathan into the tiny cell.
The Crisis Unit was surprisingly like Nathan’s own quarters, though about half the size, with a metal cot and thin mattress on one side of the room, and a combination toilet and sink on the other. There was no source of outside light, the only illumination coming from a glaring bank of fluorescent lights set above the ceiling behind reinforced glass. The floor was bare concrete, without the tile he had in his own cell. And it was cold, much colder than the always-chilly residential wing.
“Take off your shoes and hand them to me,” Ricky commanded.
“why?”
“Do what I tell you, boy.”
Nathan knew better than to argue. He did as he was told, kicking off the standard-issue black sneakers without untying them. He handed the shoes over to Ricky with one hand while rubbing his sore ear with the other.
“And the socks.”
“But it’s cold in here.”
Ricky just glared, and held out his hand expectantly. Nathan slumped to the edge of the cot and started to cry again. He hated himself for giving in to the tears. No matter how hard he tried, he always ended up crying in
