sight. The ambulance accelerated away from the curb and rushed across town, its siren heehawing at the traffic.
In the back of the ambulance, the vital signs were being relayed, by radio, to New York County Hospital, where the neurosurgeon was getting the operating theater ready. Kaz was concerned about the decreasing blood pressure and the irregular heartbeat.
The ambulance slowed down in traffic as critical minutes ticked by. The increasing pressure on Brenton Spencer's brain began to shut down precious nerve centers, obliterating memory, personality, and thought.
They screeched to a stop at the back door of the emergency room, the siren still wailing. Two attendants ran with the gurney, pushing it ahead of them into the waiting elevator.
'This is that news guy,' one said as the elevator door closed, cutting them from view.
Kaz looked at his watch and pulled the phony criminal statute out of his pocket, ripped it up and sprinkled the shreds into the wastebasket.
He felt tired and angry. But the job was like that, he thought. Sometimes you were just too late with too little.
Ryan heard about Brenton on a news brief on TV and guessed it must have happened before Kaz got to him. He had been trying all afternoon to get in touch with Lucinda. He waited to call until Kaz left because he knew how the man felt about Mickey's sister.
He had tried the Alo house three times, but an unfamiliar male voice answered, so he'd hung up without saying anything. Then, on a hunch, he called his own answering machine in Malibu. After a few routine messages he heard her voice.
'Ryan, it's Lucinda. I need to talk to you. I borrowed my mother's cell phone, the number is: 609-555-9056. 'Bye.' Her voice had sounded fragile, hesitant.
With nervous fingers, he dialed the number.
'Hi, I got your message,' he said, his heart in his throat when she answered.
'I need to see you, Ryan.'
'I'm at a hotel in Trenton called the Blue Rainbow. It's a little do e, so don't be surprised. Room five- ohsix.'
'Can't we meet someplace else?'
'No. You'll see why when you get here.'
'I miss you,' she said, tentatively. The sentence hovered somewhere between a statement and a question. -
'I miss you, too. And, Lucinda, don't let anybody follow you.'
There was a long pause on the other end of the line before she said, 'Okay.'
He lay in the small room, unarmed, and hoped he hadn't just invited his own death. He knew Lucinda wouldn't betray him, but Mickey could have someone following her. An hour later, he heard a light rap on the door. He pulled himself up and, using the desk chair as a walker, moved slowly across the room.
'Yes?' he asked through the paint-peeled door. 'Ryan, open up, it's me,' she said.
He fumbled for the lock and swung the door open, throwing caution aside. She rushed into his arms, bumping into the chair, almost tipping him over.
She kissed him on the face, on the mouth. She was crying, tears streaming down her cheeks.
He held her tightly. It was the first time since Matt died that he could feel pieces of himself start to come back together.
She closed the door and looked down at his leg, wrapped in gauze, colored by seeping blood.
'What happened?'
'It's a long story.'
She helped him to the bed and sat beside him. 'Was it Mickey?' knowing already that it was.
Ryan nodded. 'He sent Tony after me and, if I hadn't run into this ex-FBI agent, I'd be dead.'
She turned and faced him, her expression grave. 'I've done the same thing you did with that little boy, Terry. I've pushed ugly thoughts about Mickey away. I've refused to deal with what I always knew was in him. And now I've looked into his eyes and seen things that scare me.
'I know.'
'I want to be with you, Ryan,' she said, charging ahead, thinking if she didn't say these words now, she might never find the chance. 'I know this is right.'
He reached over and held her hand. She paused for a moment before adding, softly, 'I'm afraid now that I've found you, you'll be taken from me before I get the chance to make love to you.'
He kissed her on the mouth and drew her to him. He had never felt such longing. She sat up, unbuttoned her shirt and removed it. Reaching behind her, she unsnapped her bra and let it fall. Her breasts were full and round and her nipples were thrusting out. She stood to unhook her skirt and stepped out of it. Then she turned to him, wearing only her panties. She unbuttoned his one-legged jeans and eased them carefully down over his bandaged leg. Then she moved into his arms, holding him tightly.
Ryan had been aching inside for so long, he couldn't believe the feeling of comfort, the loss of pain, just holding her gave him. She told him she would never leave him, that she was his for the rest of her life. He started to taste the salt from the tears that were running down her cheeks.
The lovemaking was slow and more consuming than he had ever believed possible. She moaned with pleasure as they exploded together in climax, reaching secret places he had never explored before. And then they held each other in silence, listening to their hearts beating in combined rhythms. No words could describe their feelings, but in that moment, without needing words, they pledged themselves to one another.
Chapter 35
Kaz came back to the room at the Blue Rainbow Hotel to check on Ryan. He'd been told by the intern on the fourth floor of County Hospital that the results of Brenton's surgery were problematic. The anchor had a dime — size aneurysm that had ruptured and knocked him flat.
They'd opened Brenton's skull and tied off the bleeding vein, but until he woke up, or didn't, they would have no way of knowing how much damage had been done. Ka z h ad tried to press the intern for a prognosis, but the youn g d octor had refused.
'Each one of these is a whole new deal,' he'd fudged. 'We can't tell how much damage was done before we released the cranial pressure.'
Kaz had learned that the practitioners of the fine art of sawboning hated to be wrong, more than they hated socialized medicine. They also panicked over the possibility of a malpractice suit. Therefore, they rarely gave prognoses. So Kaz had learned to ask medical questions differently.
'If you saw ten cases with about the same degree of cranial hemorrhaging, how many of those ten would ever regain any reasonable sense of normalcy?'
By asking the question that way, Kaz was allowing the doctor to avoid comment on a specific case and, at the same time, allowing him to exhibit his vast knowledge of cerebral hemorrhages without running the risk of being wrong.
'I'd say about two or three in ten would get back to something resembling a normal life,' the intern said, giving Kaz the answer to the question he'd asked in the first place.
Brenton Spencer had less than a 30-percent chance to wake up and start talking not very good odds.
The lobby was filling up with the press, so Kaz had gone back to the hotel to wait for news.
When he arrived, he found Ryan sitting up in bed, dressed in new clothes. Seated next to him, smiling, was Lucinda Alo. Kaz looked at them with disgust.
'Lucinda's going to help us,' Ryan said, as Kaz scowled.
'I'm fucking delirious about that.' Kaz moved to the window and, pulling the curtains aside, looked out into the alley, half expecting to see a dark sedan with two goombah hitters oiling silenced Sig-Sauers. The alley was
