of his broken leg, Fat Boy roaring in pain. For a moment of excited triumph we were all united again, one for all and all for one, plucky and indomitable: in other words, so thoroughly deluded that I could have written the overblown feature story about our insane little victory all by myself.
Except we were squeezed onto a ledge that was like an overloaded, open-walled elevator going nowhere, cliffs below and cliffs above, and the clouds were blotting out the surrounding peaks. It was getting colder.
Kressler and Fleming were hearty as hell, of course. Everyone was doing great, way to go, jolly good, pip pip, and any other kind of bullshit nonsense that popped into their heads. Me myself and I, however, happened to take a tiny peek over the edge of our view terrace and didn't see Kressler's easy way down at all. There was, in fact, a several-hundred-yard drop down a soft-rock cliff before another ledge led sideways to a point where we might sidehill on snow again- assuming we didn't trigger an avalanche. How we were going to get two hundred and twenty pounds of blubber boy and fourteen other amateur climbers down this way, however, was not at all clear to me and, it turned out, not at all clear to our would-be department chairman.
Kressler, we now learned, had never been here at all. He'd just read that it was climbable.
Jesus. Oh, what a pack of veritable Einsteins we were.
Let me tell you something about Cascade volcanoes. You go up the right way, at the right time and season, and most of the way it's a steady snow slog to the top, exhausting but not terribly technical. Really dumb people have done it, and have the snapshots to prove it. Get fancy about it, however, and you can face some of the most treacherous climbing in the world. The mountains are hot inside, active and full of steam, and the steam leaches out through the lava rock of their cones and turns their geology into a kind of Swiss cheese, crumbling and unreliable. The mountains are weak and have an alarming tendency to break, slump, or slide with no warning. The rock is about as firm as hardened snot, in other words, breaking off with pops and bangs with each rise of the spring sun, spitting out pitons and breaking loose hand-holds for anyone optimistic enough to try it. Skill can very quickly be trumped by bad luck. It was dawning on me that all our luck this day seemed exceedingly bad indeed.
I suggested we go back up and regain the normal route.
The kids wouldn't hear of it. Kressler had scared the shit out of them getting them down this far, and the idea of going back up the mountain when a storm was swirling in struck everybody but me as absolutely insane. I started arguing, me against the other two, and a debate in front of weeping Fat Boy and tired, shivering sophomores was probably not the brightest thing we could have done. Kressler was furious I'd even raised the question. He needed confidence and the group was losing it.
My two esteemed colleagues finally announced that they would show us the way while I babysat the classroom. Climb down to that beckoning snowfield and scramble back up, setting ropes, driving belay points, and generally building a super freeway for the rest of us doubters so we could get the hell out of here before we found ourselves in whiteout conditions.
There was long, doubting silence. They were all waiting for me to speak. Well, go for it, I finally told them. Oh Pioneers! Yep, you fellows go right ahead. I'll just bundle up with the coeds here and you all call when you're ready. Oh, and hurry it up, will you?
Didn't say that, of course. Just gave my in-the-face-of-adversity nod and said I'd try to fashion some kind of sling to lower Fat Boy. What choice did I have, as the lone voice of reason? I was being dragged down with them, doomed by the Original Sin of Fat Boy's unroping, and if we by some chance actually survived I'd sure as hell demand my share of glory for trailing along.
Idiots.
The doughty pair started down off the ledge. It was rock climbing, for which we were neither equipped nor prepared. We had stiff boots for crampons, not rock shoes, and the two instructors were weighted with too many ropes and carabiners and pitons because they wanted to fashion a near-ladder for the class. Even in the best of conditions it would have been difficult to descend that route. Now the sky was spitting snow. Fat Boy was groaning in discomfort, many of the others were snuffling, and when Fleming's head disappeared below the edge I have to confess that even I felt terribly alone.
If they'd made it, of course, everything would have been very different.
I crawled over to watch their progress. The wind was rising and nothing was audible, but I could see them slowly picking their way down. The more they descended the more they hesitated, and I could tell the descent was looking more and more impossible. Once Kressler stopped and looked back up at me for the longest time, as if realizing he was in over his head.
Come back up, you moron, I thought to him as hard as I could. I really did.
But he didn't hear my mental message, or chose to ignore it. A few hundred more yards and his mistakes could be transformed to rescue, the second-guessing transformed to a good war story. His chairmanship might be secure. Can you imagine any goal more pathetic? So they kept going, fixing a line, and for one brief minute I began to concede they just might show me up. Get down, get the kids down, even get Fat Boy down. And they would have, too, if they were descending a wall with any kind of structural integrity.
But Wallace Wall is as unreliable as a lover's promise. One minute they were bolted to it, making our route, and the next moment a foothold gave way and Fleming, who was highest, slipped, fell, and bounced, hanging on his rope from a piton, suspended in terror, his ice ax sparkling as it whirled away downward. There was an awful pause, Kressler roaring instructions, and then the pitons popped off the steam-riddled rock like buttons in a Fat Boy squat. Ping, ping, ping! The rope curled out in space in a lazy arc, bright red against the foggy depths beyond, and then Fleming fell past Kressler and plucked him off his perch as neatly as you'd pick a grape.
They went screaming.
The students shrieked, too, an anguished wail that signaled their own sudden realization of mortality and doom. The instructors tumbled in a gray dawn light, orbiting each other in an embrace of line, and then hit rocks, ice, glacier, snow, setting off a small avalanche to accompany themselves and sliding down in their very own slurry of debris, the rope snapping. They settled out individually finally to lie still some infinity of distance below us, their broken profiles looking like discarded dolls.
They were dead.
The keening from my little mob of survivors was as mournful as the bitter wind. Snow was spitting at us, visibility failing, and we were trapped on a shelf of rock with about as much square footage as a king-sized bed. The easy route down had been exposed for the fraud it was, and our leaders for fools.
So now they clutched, pleaded, wept.
And turned to me.
CHAPTER TWELVE
The funeral of Michael Mortimer 'Mickey' Moss, astrophysicist and Old Antarctic Explorer, took place the following morning at the stake that marked the South Pole. Or at least the clocks said morning. Lewis, still tired and sore from recovering the body, felt a groggy, growing disorientation from time. The sun ran around the base like a coin on a track, refusing to go up or down or acknowledge the normal succession of days. Geller had made a joke about it: 'A cowboy riding into the sunset would get mighty dizzy here.'
Under the dome, in contrast, was perpetual shadow. Brain chemicals that were normally triggered by the rhythm of darkness and dawn were beginning to misfire.
'It gets worse,' Nancy Hodge had told him when he first complained about the problem. 'They've found the Pole can mess up your thyroid and a bunch of other stuff. T3 Syndrome. Reports of depression date back a hundred years to the first explorers. A study a decade ago found two-thirds of winter-overs had trouble sleeping and half were depressed. It saps your energy, slows your mind. The best thing you can do is be conscious of it and stay focused. Scheduled.'
'If I feel this toasty now, I'm going to be a charcoal briquet by October.'
'Find a hobby. Gina is teaching Italian. Hiro is trying to learn the harmonica. Bob is building a telescope. Even Tyson is doing something.'
'Right. Manufacturing knives.'
But Lewis hadn't found a hobby yet and was feeling increasingly alone and misplaced. It had taken him two
