Caim fought with all his remaining strength. Torment scalded his nerves as tissue stretched and separated, but he refused to give up. Then the last line was set in place, and the pattern blazed like a star with a thousand points. The gateway seethed, its ripples becoming choppy waves, but they remained confined by the matrix of lines.
Caim retreated until the cool rim of the urn dug into his back. The air of the cavern had turned dry and fetid. He found his weapons on the dusty floor. The gateway, churning and wriggling only moments ago, had become flat and docile. Its black edges were turning gray, the same color as the cavern walls, and he knew with certainty that his mother was gone. He had come all this way to find out what happened to her, and now he knew. She had sacrificed herself for him once. And now she'd done it again.
The crash of shattering stone jarred Caim from his grief. The ceiling creaked as more rocks showered the cavern floor. He didn't know if he had enough strength to form a portal as he reached for his powers. The air rushed from his lungs as he found not a spark, but a gushing wellspring of energy. It wasn't exactly bright, but it wasn't completely of the Shadow either. It felt like a combination of both.
When the portal snapped open beside him, he thought of Kit and stumbled into the void.
CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
Vibrations ran through the ground as Caim stepped onto the plateau outside the citadel. Over the great walls, the black pyramid trembled, and then disappeared in a thunderous collapse that shook the hills.
Caim turned with the black sword raised as a big shape shifted behind him, but he relaxed when he saw it was Malig, bloodied and bandaged, sitting on a low boulder. Kit lay at his feet, wrapped in a dingy fur cloak. Caim looked around as he went to her. There was a texture to the air, both familiar and elusive at the same time.
“Took your time,” Malig said.
Caim grunted. “You look like I feel.”
“Yeah, I ran into some trouble. Not even sure how I got here, to tell you the truth. Thought I'd lost your girlfriend, too, but I see she made it out all right.”
Caim nodded. Were any of them going to be all right, ever again?
“Anyways,” Malig said. “I figured you be along sooner or later. No sense in starting back home alone.”
Caim brushed a strand of silver hair out of Kit's eyes. She looked better, just tired. The bruising around her eyes had subsided. To have her, alive and human…it was more than he'd ever dreamt could be true. Yet something remained between them, and he had to deal with it if their relationship was going any further.
“I need a favor,” he said.
“Not another fucking quest, I hope.”
“Just keep watch over her until I get back.”
Malig shrugged. “Fine. Just don't take too long. I still don't like this place.”
Caim walked away before he changed his mind. He'd put this off long enough. He navigated a path down through the foothills. Once he was well away from Kit and Malig, he slipped into a gap between two tall boulders. Not sure how to bend his powers to what he wanted to do, he closed his eyes and listened to his breathing. It was steady, but his heartbeat thumped loud in his eardrums. He set the sword against a rock and he reached under his shirt. The golden pendant was warm as he slipped his fingers around it and jerked, snapping the cord. He held it up. The key turned slowly on its tether. The power coursed through him, strong and intoxicating. There was no pain as the portal opened before him. At least, not physical pain.
Caim stepped out onto soft carpet. The night wind whispered against heavy fabric. Outside, a horse whickered.
Instead of a grand hall lit with candles and oil lamps, he was inside a dark pavilion held up by two stout poles jammed in the ground. It was cold, too, despite the miniature cast-iron stove resting beside a large table.
Caim was beginning to think he'd come to the wrong place when he noticed the cot on the other side of the tent. The long, black hair on the pillow gave her away. Watching Josey, Caim realized he'd missed her. It seemed like he hadn't seen her in years. So much had happened since Othir.
He peered out the tent flap. Soldiers lounged around campfires in the field outside. Four men in heavy plate armor stood at attention just a few steps from the tent. Caim let the flap fall back and turned to the table, which was covered in maps and sheaves of papers. He scanned a report from Hubert about Mecantia. Something about succession. The tent, the maps, the army.
Wood creaked as she sat up. For a moment she couldn't see him through the jumble of her hair, and Caim took that time to study the girl he'd rescued from a High Town mansion. She looked a little older, more mature, but that could have been the silk nightgown with pearls sewn into the collar. “Iola?”
Caim stepped into the firelight. “It's me.”
He wasn't sure what he had expected. Recriminations? Kisses? Hurling teacups? But there was only silence. Then she asked, “What are you doing here?”
“I, uh…” He sighed, not sure how to boil down the last few months into a simple explanation. “I wanted to see you.”
“You don't look so good,” she said.
“It must be true. Everybody says so.”
“Did you just arrive? I was about to ask how you got inside here without being announced.” She smiled. “But I remember how good you are at breaking into guarded places.”
“Where are we?”
“How couldn't you know wh-?”
“Never mind. Have you crossed into Eregoth yet?”
“No. Have you seen Keegan?”
“You've met Keegan? Hagan's son Keegan?”
She stood up, holding a blanket over her body. “Of course. He's the reason we won.”
“Won what?”
By the time she'd finished her tale of assassination attempts, battles, and the new alliance between Nimea and the “high captain” of Eregoth, Caim was speechless. He never would have suspected it.
She walked around the stove. “What of your quest? Did you find…?”
“My mother?” Caim paused as the pain of losing her, still fresh, ripped through him. “Yes, I found her. But she's gone.”
“I'm sorry.”
He nodded.
“And what about you?” Josey asked. “Are you back now? To stay, I mean?”
Caim held out the key pendant. “No. I came back to give you this.”
Josey took it from his hand. For a moment their fingers touched. Then she threw herself into his arms. She was warm and soft, not the scrawny girl he'd left behind, but even as he held her Caim didn't feel the same ardor that had swept over him before. He loved her, and would always love her, but she wasn't the one he wanted.
“I'm sorry.” It sounded pathetic, but he didn't know what else to say. He could hardly tell her about Kit. “I can't imagine what you've been through, but I know I'm not the one to share it with.”
Caim started to reach for her shoulders to push her back, but Josey broke the embrace first. “Caim, there's something you should-” She shook her head. “Just know that I'm fine. I always knew I couldn't hold you, but I'll