dangers. The wives and girlfriends often take turns sitting in the hospital with the families of people who are injured. Inevitably, they realize they could be sitting there for their own husband or boyfriend.
I remained torn up about Marcus for the rest of the night, in my own private black hole. I stayed there for a few days.
Work, of course, continued. One day, my chief popped his head into the room and signaled me to join him outside.
“Hey, they found Marcus,” he said as soon as we were alone.
“Great.”
“He’s fucked up.”
“So what? He’s going to make it.” Anyone who knew Marcus knew that was true. The man cannot be kept down.
“Yeah, you’re right,” said my chief. “But he’s pretty tore up, beat up. It’ll be hard.”
It was hard, but Marcus was up to it. In fact, despite health issues that continue to dog him, he would deploy again not long after leaving the hospital.
Expert, So-Called
Because of what I’d done in Fallujah, I was pulled out a few times to talk to head shed types about how I thought snipers should be deployed. I was now a Subject Matter Expert—an SME in militarese
I hated it.
Some people might find it flattering to be talking to a bunch of high-ranking officers, but I just wanted to do my job. It was torture sitting in the room, trying to explain what the war was like.
They’d ask me questions like, “What kind of gear should we have?” Not unreasonable, I guess, but all I could think of was:
I would tell them what I thought, how we should train up snipers, how we should use them. I suggested more training about urban overwatches and creating hides in buildings, things I’d learned more or less as I went. I gave them ideas about sending snipers into an area before the assault, so they could provide intel to the assault teams before they arrived. I made suggestions on how to make snipers more active and aggressive. I suggested that snipers take shots over the heads of an assault team during training, so the teams could get used to working with them.
I told the brass about gear issues—the dust cover of the M-11, for example, and suppressors that jiggled at the end of the barrel, hurting the accuracy of the rifle.
It was all extremely obvious to me, but not to them.
Asked for my opinion, I’d give it. But most times they didn’t
Taya:
New Guys
While we were training up for our next deployment, the platoon got a group of new guys. A few of them stood out—Dauber and Tommy, for example, who were both snipers and corpsmen. But I think the new guy who made the biggest impression was Ryan Job. And the reason was that he did not look like a SEAL; on the contrary, Ryan looked like a big lump.
I was floored that they let this guy come to the Team. Here we all were, buff, in great shape. And here was a round, soft-looking guy.
I went up to Ryan and got in his face. “What’s your problem, fat fuck? You think you’re a
We all gave him shit. One of my officers—we’ll call him LT—knew him from BUD/S and stuck up for him, but LT was a new guy himself, so that didn’t carry too much weight. Being a new guy, we would have beat Ryan’s ass anyway, but his weight made things a lot worse for him. We actively tried to make him quit.
But Ryan (whose last name was pronounced “jobe,” rhyming with “ear lobe”) wasn’t a quitter. You couldn’t compare his determination with anyone else’s. That kid started working out like a maniac. He lost weight and got into better shape.
More importantly, anything we told him to do, he did. He was such a hard worker, so sincere, and so damn funny, that at some point we just went,
We tested him, believe me. We’d find the biggest man in the platoon and make him carry him. He did it. We’d have him take the hardest jobs in training; he did them without complaint. And he’d crack us up in the process. He had these great facial expressions. He could point his upper lip, screw his eyes around and then twist in a certain way, and you’d lose it.
Naturally, this ability led to a certain amount of fun. For us, at least.
One time we told him to go do the face to our chief.
“B-but…” he stammered.
“Do it,” I told him. “Go get in his face. You’re the new guy. Do it.”
He did. Thinking Ryan was trying to be a jerk, the chief grabbed him by the throat and tossed him to the ground.
That only encouraged us. Ryan had to show the face a lot. Every time, he’d go and get his ass beat. Finally, we had him do it to one of our officers—a huge guy, definitely not someone to be messed with, even by another SEAL.
“Go do it to him,” one of us said.
“Oh God, no,” he protested.
“If you don’t do it right now, we’re going to choke you out,” I warned.