young males have sexual pleasure for the first time? Eventually some other woman would have them. They might, in their young passions, impregnate girls. I felt that every teenage boy should be introduced to sex by an older woman. Sex, like everything else, was a learning process.
“The following morning I felt eyes on me. My breasts were above the blanket and I opened my eyelids just enough to see Tracy standing near the door. He was wearing a robe but I could see that he was naked under it because he had his penis in his hand. He was playing with himself as he stared.
“'Come in, Tracy,' I said softly…
“It was just after dawn and the house was very quiet. Scott was still asleep in the other room. My husband, as usual, was across the country getting ready to announce a ballgame.
“The sixteen year old boy covered his sex with the robe and walked into my room. I sat up in bed and didn't bother to cover my breasts. Tracy gazed at them and swallowed. 'Isn't this better than looking at magazines?' I smiled.
“He nodded and seemed to be in a daze.
“'Let's play nudist camp,' I said and threw back the covers.
“Tracy stared hard at my blonde pubic patch. I stretched out over the bed and spread my legs. There is nothing shameful about the naked body,' I told him. 'Let me see yours.'
“'I… I have a hard-on,' he apologized.
“'That only proves you're healthy,' I said.
“The boy took off his robe. He had a slim yet athletic body. His upright tool was as large as his father's. 'Janet… I want to… I want to…,' the lad said tightly not being able to get all the words out.
“'You want to have intercourse with me?' I injected. “That's only natural but, Tracy, I'm married to your father and that would mean I would be committing adultery with his own son.'
“The boy grabbed his stiff cock and began to pull on it. 'I know,' he said. 'I just have to do something…'
“I sat up with my feet on the floor. Tracy's upright sex organ was only inches from my face. I had enjoyed a complete sex life with Edward, my first husband, and was enjoying one with Danny, my second. I accepted oral sex as foreplay and afterplay to fornication. It was just a pleasant way for couples to pass time in bed. When I kissed my stepson's penis, then, it was more out of this play than anything else. Although I could not bring myself to engage in fornication with him I saw nothing too wrong about fellatio. 'Don't throw all that good stuff away, Tracy,' I said.
“I licked his stiff penis and taut testicles. His flesh was warm and good. I opened my mouth and took his rod orally. The boy was so near the peak of his desires that he spewed semen into me the moment I ran my mouth down the length of his male member. I sucked out his come and swallowed. I continued to fellate the lad until his rod became soft and limp again.
“'There!' I said. 'Do you feel better now, Tracy?'
“'Janet… oh, Janet…' the lad sighed and went to his knees. Now that I had shown him that oral sex wasn't really adultery he wanted to perform cunnilingus on me.
“Tracy licked my blonde pubic area and chewed on my sex. I brought his young head closer to me with my hands. He was so terribly sex-hungry that I could not deny him. The sixteen year old lapped inside my vagina and his mouth worked rapidly. I was so engrossed in the oral sex act that I did not hear Scott enter the room.
“'Hey-' the seventeen year old exclaimed in a quiet tone and walked over to the bed. All he was wearing were his undershorts. He stripped them off and sat next to me. His penis was slightly larger than his brother's and he had a heavier, more muscular body with hair on his legs and chest. He took it for granted that I was willing to fornicate and he pushed me against the bed ignoring his brother's mouthings. I had to explain to him that I drew the line at genital intercourse while allowing oral sex acts.
“'I need a fuck!' the seventeen year old begged desperately.
“'You just need to get your rocks off,' I told him.
“I started to French Scott and Tracy returned to performing cunnilingus upon me at the same time. I mouthed the big, handsome lad as he lay against the mattress. His penis felt massive and powerful and when he shot his juice I almost drowned in the warm semen. Once I had drained the lad he was less anxious to screw me. Males are quick to be aroused they can be calmed down just as quickly.
“Now that the boys realized I was willing to have all but straight sex they were all over me with their mouths and hands. They sucked on my nipples, licked my breasts and ran their tongues all over my thighs and buttocks. Yes, it was sexy but it still wasn't adultery… in the real sense of the word.
“After the oral orgy the boys seemed very happy. They had had sex relations with a woman. They had seen me in the complete nude. For once they didn't have to look at pictures of nude girls and masturbate.
“I implored the boys not to brag about their experiences with me because I knew how the male ego demanded an audience. I especially didn't want them to tell their father.
“'Don't worry about that, Janet,' Scott assured me. 'Hell, we're not children. We knew what we were doing.'
“I took comfort in the fact that they, after all, did press the situation. If it hadn't been for their Peeping-Tom antics and their aggressive interest in sex I would not have had any kind of eroticism with them.
“When Danny came home I all but smothered him with my attentions. In a way I was trying to make up for the fact that I had orally seduced his sons… our sons. As long as he was in the house the boys didn't try to make any advances on me but, once he left, they made a habit of coming into my room. The boys wanted to sleep with me but I didn't let them. Somehow sleeping with a person seemed even more intimate to me than having oral sex. This didn't stop the lads from coming into my room in the morning. Oral sex soon became as much a part of our lives as breakfast. They were both so very virile that they had orgasms every day.
“You don't have to tell me that my affairs with my stepsons is wrong. I had only wanted to give them some lessons in sex at first but now it is getting out of hand. I can't wait until Scott goes off to college so I will only have one boy to deal with.
“I doubt if I'll ever have the respect of these boys. How can they respect a woman who has oral orgies with them? But, in a few years, Scott and Tracy will be out in the world with girls of their own so it doesn't really matter what they think about me. I can't stand the guilt that mounts each time I have the boys. I've tried to make t hem stop coming into my room but I just don't have the strength. I've come here to you, doctor, seeking this strength, the will to end the sexual affairs I'm having with my stepsons.
“I've even reached a point where I've allowed girls with bad reputations into the house after Danny is gone to get the lads to switch their attentions to them. I'd rather see the boys screw these girls on the living room floor than to have them come into my room every morning. But they both have such giant-sized crushes on me they can't get interested in girls their age. How can I end their passion for me? How can I make them stop chasing me?”
DIAGNOSIS:
The reason that Tracy and Scott keep coming into Janet's room every morning is that she doesn't lock the door. When I asked her why she didn't take this very obvious precaution she became evasive. This indicated to me that she wants to have sex with the teenaged lads despite her claims that she is trying to end the oral affairs. The woman started the incestuous relations by exposing her body in the morning when she knew the boys would be watching. Under the guise of teaching them about sex, she tempted the virile males into erotic wanting. Once she got the boys active, she pretended to take the passive role in order to claim that the boys chased her instead of the other way around.
The reason Janet desired teenaged boys so was because she always felt she had been cheated out of a youth. In her thirties the woman decided to create this lost youth by throwing the kind of parties she had always wanted. By indulging the boys, she indulged herself. In her girlhood, boys were never allowed to enter her house and now she could have all the boys she wanted.
Judd Marmor, in his book, “Sexual Inversion,” claims that adults who look upon children and teenagers as sex objects are trying to recapture their pasts where they had not received love. By loving the very young they are able to love themselves. Pedophilia, or the adult's unnatural desire for sex with children, is usually a male ailment but there are women like Janet who are sexually driven toward minor boys.
Janet also likes to kid herself into thinking that oral sex acts do not constitute adultery. When I explained that oralism was just as serious as fornication she argued with me in a vain attempt to convince herself she had only
