'No, she didn't tell me. She didn't have to. That's one-well, let's say wistful girlfriend you've got there, kid.'
'I'm not… a kid.'
'You're twenty by one day. I'm twenty-seven. And you're a virgin, which I sure the hell am not.'
'Well, so what?'
She spoke softly. 'So you're probably scared- take it easy, Doc. And I'm a horny old lady who can't hold on to a guy with handcuffs.'
He flinched.
She didn't seem to notice. 'So, how'd you like to lose it to No-Tell Daisy, up here where nobody's gonna notice? It'll make you feel good. It'll sure make me feel good. And in the not-so-long run, it'll make her feel good too.'
'That doesn't make any sense.'
'Sure it does. Watch.' She wrapped her arms around him and kissed him hard on the mouth, shoving her tongue between his lips. He sucked in a breath, pulled away. 'See?' she said. 'Everything south of your eyeballs knows it makes sense.'
He stared at the floor.
'I'm sorry,' she said, and the hurt in her voice made him look at her again. 'What you do is, you say yes, or you say no. That's all.'
'Yes,' he said, though he wasn't sure the voice was his.
'Okay.'
He stood up, dizzy. 'Do you want me to wear a… the…'
'A condom?' she said, very gently.
'Yeah.'
'Up to you. I've been tied.'
'Wha… at?'
She looked straight at him. 'Tubes. You know.' She made a knotting gesture. 'When I was sixteen, I figured I might not know what I wanted to do with my life, but I sure knew what I wanted to do with my personal equipment.'
Danny nodded. He knew, in a book-learned way, what a tubal ligation was. He'd never heard of anyone at home with one, or for that matter a doctor who would admit to doing them. Here, apparently, the patient didn't even have to be twenty-one. He supposed it would be stupid to ask about parental consent…
He thought about some other things he knew only in the abstract. Like how to put a rubber on. Nothing he'd heard had been particularly precise.
He sat down next to her, put a hand on her hands, reached experimentally around her shoulders, feeling softness, the smooth movement of the shoulder blades. There was hardk any fabric between. The lamp flickered highlights in her hair.
She said, 'I'm glad you asked, though. Guys don't, usually. Truebloods never do. And afterward they think there's something dirty about halfies.'
'I can still get a-'
'Uh-huh. You know how? Don't fib.'
'Well, I-'
'Right. Go get it. It'll take five minutes to demonstrate, and make your whole life better.' She kissed him, on the mouth. It was just as startling the second time. He pulled her closer. Her tongue wet his lips. His hand slipped to her thigh, through the slit in her dress, closed involuntarily on something hard. It was a garter strap.
'Good place to start,' she said in a thick voice.
He tried. It wouldn't give. Her hand closed on his, and she led him to the chair across from the bed. 'Sit there, and watch.'
Danny felt himself flush.
'No, really. Just watch. It'll be fun.' She pressed down on both his wrists. 'And you can't get up until I say so, all right?'
'All right.'
She slipped off her shoes, tossed them aside. She stretched, then flicked open a garter strap with two fingers, reached around her thigh and did it again, and again. She sat back on the bed and began rolling down her stocking. Slowly.
Was the game that he was supposed to sit still? Soon enough he knew it was, and why it was a game, and that he was losing it fast. What was the elf word?
The Wild Hunt. Right. He tried not to think about that.
Now she was wearing some underthing of gold lace, no shoulder straps, barely over her hips. It had white pearl buttons down the side; it might as well have had printed instructions.
He started to get up, but suddenly she knelt in front of him, leaned on his lap. He gasped.
'Did I say you could get up?' She unfastened the first of his fly buttons.
He said, 'Don't.'
'One of us has to.' Another button. 'Jesus, Doc, you've gotta be hurting.'
He was. 'I'll do it.'
Her fingers moved again, and one of Danny's braces flew free. 'If you really want me to stop,' she whispered, 'make me stop.'
He grasped both her wrists. Her eyes closed. 'Now you got it, Doctor.'
The Wild Hunt howled in the thickets.
She opened her eyes, all black. 'You don't want to just hold mo, like that all night.'
'I don't want-' He stopped. He was going to lie. He was scared to death and had the heartbeat to prove it. '- to hurt you,' he said, which was the truth, or at least he hoped it still was.
'I didn't think you did. That I can get anywhere.' She pulled easily out of his grip, picked up the long, thin black scarf with the starpoints in the silk. She draped it across her wrists, dropped to her knees again.
'There aren't a lot of girls who'll tell you what they really want. Doc. And damn few who'll trust you this far.' With an improbable kindness she said, 'Are you gonna abuse a girl's trust?'
He felt the silk. 'I'll ruin this.'
'That's Nancy silk. If you can tear that, I'd better send for the Kryptonite.' She laughed. 'You can't even take it… and I haven't got anything else you can take.' She lowered her left wrist. 'Meet me halfway. One hand, to the bedpost.'
When he hesitated again, she reached out, put a finger on his hand. 'Listen. My safeword's 'tortilla.' Sounds dumb, right, but I'm not gonna yell it by mistake. You hear that, you stop. No guilt, no hard feelings, we just stop. Is that good enough?'
'I guess so.'
'W 7 hat's the word again?'
'Tortilla.'
'Good man.' She leaned back, held very still as he tied her right wrist. He tried to hide the sudden heaviness of his breathing. He started to unfasten his shirt.
'Move back a little,' she said softly, 'let me see you.'
He got undressed. He wasn't sure how; there was no sensation in his fingers, and she was watching the whole time. Then he crawled onto the bed and started on the pearl buttons. She moaned, and he was sure he must be crushing her. He shifted at once, but she just smiled, eyes closed.
He unfolded the gilt lace; she arched her back and he slipped it free, let it fall to the floor. There wasn't anything else in the way. In the lamplight she was all gold and darkness.
She tugged hard with her bound wrist. It was quite secure.
'See, Doc? You can't tear it, or stretch it. It's hard. It's got no mercy.'
You re not at home anymore, he thought, what little of him could still think, nobody here cares. And he had to know. Maybe even for Ginny's sake. At least next time, he'd have some idea of how.
He moved, and groaned. Her left hand brushed him-he nearly screamed-and then practically pulled him in; after that, it actually started to seem easy, something you could do again, almost without effort.
