house and I caught a cab home.
I checked the desk for messages, and when there weren't any I went around the corner to Armstrong's, and that's where it got to be a long night.
But it wasn't a bad one. I drank my bourbon in coffee, sipping it, making it last, and my mood didn't turn black or ugly. I talked to people intermittently but spent a lot of time replaying the day, listening to Havermeyer's explanation. Somewhere in the course of things I gave Jan a call to tell her how things had turned out. Her line was busy. Either she was talking to someone or she had the phone off the hook, and this time I didn't get the operator to find out which.
I had just the right amount to drink, for a change. Not so much that I blacked out and lost my memory.
But enough to bring sleep without dreams.
BY the time I got down to Pine Street the next day, Charles London knew what to expect. The morning papers had the story. The line they carried was pretty much what I'd expected from what Fitzroy had said. I was mentioned by name as the fellow ex-cop who'd heard Havermeyer's confession and escorted him in so he could give himself up for the murder of Barbara Ettinger.
Even so, he didn't look thrilled to see me.
'I owe you an apology,' he said. 'I managed to become convinced that your investigations would only have a damaging effect upon a variety of people. I thought-'
'I know what you thought.'
'It turned out that I was wrong. I'm still concerned about what might come out in a trial, but it doesn't look as though there will be a trial.'
'You don't have to worry about what comes out anyway,' I said.
'Your daughter wasn't carrying a black baby.' He looked as though he'd been slapped. 'She was carrying her husband's baby. She may very well have been having an affair, probably in retaliation for her husband's behavior, but there's no evidence that it had an interracial element. That was an invention of your former son-in-law's.'
'I see.' He took his little walk to the window and made sure that the harbor was still out there. He turned to me and said, 'At least this has turned out well, Mr. Scudder.'
'Oh?'
'Barbara's killer has been brought to justice. I no longer have to worry who might have killed her, or why. Yes, I think we can say it's turned out well.'
He could say it if he wanted. I wasn't sure that justice was what Burton Havermeyer had been brought to, or where his life would go from here. I wasn't sure where justice figured in the ordeal that was just beginning for Havermeyer's son and his blind ex-wife. And if London didn't have to worry that Douglas Ettinger had killed his daughter, what he'd learned about Ettinger's character couldn't have been monumentally reassuring.
I thought, too, of the fault lines I'd already detected in Ettinger's second marriage. I wondered how long the blonde with the sunny suburban face would hold her space in his desk-top photo cube. If they split, would he be able to go on working for his second father-in-law?
Finally, I thought how people could adjust to one reality after another if they put their minds to it.
London had begun by believing that his daughter had been killed for no reason at all, and he'd adjusted to that. Then he came to believe that she had indeed been killed for a reason, and by someone who knew her well. And he'd set about adjusting to that. Now he knew that she'd been killed by a near-stranger for a reason that had nothing much to do with her. Her death had come in a dress rehearsal for murder, and in dying she'd preserved the life of the intended victim. You could see all that as part of some great design or you could see it as further proof that the world was mad, but either way it was a new reality to which he would surely adjust.
Before I left he gave me a check for a thousand dollars. A bonus, he said, and he assured me he wanted me to have it. I gave him no argument. When money comes with no strings on it, take it and put it in your pocket. I was still enough of a cop at heart to remember that much.
I tried Jan around lunchtime and there was no answer. I tried her again later in the afternoon and the line was busy three times running. It was around six when I finally reached her.
'You're hard to get hold of,' I said.
'I was out some. And then I was on the phone.'
'I was out some myself.' I told her a lot of what had happened since I'd left her loft the previous afternoon, armed with the knowledge that Havermeyer's boy Danny had attended the Happy Hours Child Care Center. I told her why Barbara Ettinger had been killed, and I told her that Havermeyer's wife was blind.
'Jesus,' she said.
We talked a little more, and I asked her what she was doing about dinner. 'My client gave me a thousand dollars that I didn't do a thing to earn,' I said, 'and I feel a need to spend some of it frivolously before I piss the rest of it away on necessities.'
'I'm afraid tonight's out,' she said. 'I was just making myself a salad.'
'Well, do you want to hit a couple of high spots after you finish your salad? Any place but Blanche's Tavern is fine with me.'
There was a pause. Then she said, 'The thing is, Matthew, I have something on tonight.'
'Oh.'
'And it's not another date. I'm going to a meeting.'
'A meeting?'
'An A.A. meeting.'
'I see.'
