smothered his girlfriend's infant daughter because he was sick of paying for a baby-sitter everytime the two of them went to the movies. I mentioned the woman in Gravesend, dead of a shotgun blast while she hung clothes in her closet. There was an air of Can You Top This? to our dialogue.
He said, 'The mayor thinks he's got the answer. The death penalty.
Bring back the big black chair.'
'Think it'll happen?'
'No question the public wants it. And there's one way it works and you can't tell me it doesn't. You fry one of these bastards and at least you know he's not gonna do it again. The hell, I'd vote for it. Bring back the chair and televise the fucking executions, run commercials, make a few dollars and hire a few more cops. You want to know something?'
'What?'
'We got the death penalty. Not for murderers. For ordinary citizens. Everybody out there runs a better chance of getting killed than a killer does of getting the chair. We get the death penalty five, six, seven times a day.'
He had raised his voice and the bartender was auditing our conversation now. We'd lured him away from his program.
Durkin said, 'I like the one about the exploding television set. I don't know how I missed that one. You think you heard 'em all but there's always something new, isn't there?'
'I guess.'
'There are eight million stories in the naked city,' he intoned.
'You remember that program? Used to be on television some years back.'
'I remember.'
'They had that line at the end of every show. 'There are eight million stories in the naked city. This has been one of them.' '
'I remember it.'
'Eight million stories,' he said. 'You know what you got in this city, this fucked-up toilet of a naked fucking city? You know what you got? You got eight million ways to die.'
I got him out of there. Outside in the cool night air he fell silent.
We circled a couple of blocks, wound up down the street from the station house. His car was a Mercury a few years old. It had been beaten up a little around the corners. The license plate had a prefix which would indicate to other cops that this was a vehicle used for police business and not to be ticketed. Some of the more knowledgeable crooks could also recognize it as a cop's car.
I asked if he was okay to drive. He didn't much care for the question. He said, 'What are you, a cop?'
and then the absurdity of the remark struck him and he started to laugh. He clung to the car's open door for support, helpless with laughter, and swung back and forth on the car door. 'What are you, a cop?' he said, giggling. 'What are you, a cop?'
That mood passed like a fast cut in a film. In an instant he was serious and apparently sober, eyes narrowed, jaw thrust forward like a bulldog's. 'Listen,' he said, voice low and hard. 'Don't be so goddamn superior, you understand?'
I didn't know what he was talking about.
'You sanctimonious bastard. You're no better than I am, you son of a bitch.'
He pulled out and drove off. He seemed to be driving all right for as far as I was able to track him. I hoped he didn't have too far to go.
Chapter 15
I walked straight back to my hotel. The liquor stores were closed but the bars were still open. I passed them without much effort, resisted too the call of street whores on Fifty-seventh Street on either side of the Holiday Inn. I gave Jacob a nod, confirmed that I'd had no calls, and went upstairs.
Sanctimonious bastard. No better than I am. He'd been ugly drunk, with that defensive belligerence of the drinker who had exposed too much of himself. His words didn't mean anything. He'd have addressed them to any companion, or to the night itself.
Still, they echoed in my head.
I got into bed but couldn't sleep, got up and put the light on and sat on the edge of the bed with my notebook. I looked over some of the notes I made, then jotted down a point or two from our conversation in the bar on Tenth Avenue. I made a few further notes to myself, playing with ideas like a kitten with a yarn ball. I put the notebook down when the process reached a point of diminishing returns, with the same thoughts turning over and over upon themselves. I picked up a paperback I'd bought earlier but couldn't get into it. I kept reading the same paragraph without getting the sense of it.
For the first time in hours I really wanted a drink. I was anxious and edgy and wanted to change it.
There was a deli with a cooler full of beer just three doors from the hotel, and when had beer ever led me into a blackout?
I stayed where I was.
Chance hadn't asked my reason for working for him. Durkin had accepted money as a valid motive.
Elaine was willing to believe I was doing it because it was what I did, even as she turned tricks and God pardoned sinners. And it was all true, I could indeed use the money and detecting was what I did insofar as I did
