strained upward on tiptoe, glanced left and right, the length of the carriage. Then he made the survey again.
Greta Oppenheimer was not there.
She had gone to work early that morning, but the call she expected never came.
Greta fixed her eyes on a slight defect in the weave of the industrial carpeting — a pull in the nylon that tufted up like a human eyelash — and knew that the door to the office would not open that day. She would sit in her chair while the clock hand moved with the invisible sun. Other people, their concerns far different, might gather in corridors above and below her; they might stand clustered at their coffee stations or lavatory mirrors, chatting aimlessly.
Greta would be paralyzed with duty. Waiting for the call that meant He needed her.
Even to herself, she could not pronounce His name. It was too powerful and immense, like the Old Testament God. He knew nothing of the way he affected her, how she hoarded the few words He spoke, turning them over in the dusk of her apartment later like scavenged treasure. He did not know that she had kept a scrap of paper merely because it bore His handwriting, that she could close her eyes and bury her face in the desk chair because He had sat in it once. He did not know that she would die for Him.
He did not know she was alive.
A crackle of static from the speakerphone on the desk, and Greta jerked in her chair, the blood throbbing painfully in her temples.
What to do? What was required of her? There was no one else to answer. She must not fail. Another burst of static. Someone was buzzing for access at the street. This was unusual and thus frightening. She reached a trembling finger to the phone's bank of buttons.
“Ja?”
“I have business with VaccuGen,” said a woman's voice in German.
Greta glanced upward at the small television screen that hung in one corner. The woman turned her head. She wore a nondescript coat that looked dark gray and might, in fact, have been any color. Her black hair was shoulder length. Heavy glasses masked her features.
“The offices are closed,” Greta said firmly, and clicked the button off.
More static, insistent, blaring and Greta wished, suddenly, that she had never come into work at all, that she had stayed at home like so many good Berliners, terrified of the Turks.
“What?” she snapped.
“My business is with the lab.”
“Your name?”
“I'm from the Health Ministry. It's about the mumps vaccines. The humanitarian relief.”
Gretas brow cleared. Of course she had known of the vaccine consignment for Pristina; it was the one matter of legitimate business she could expect all week. It was a large shipment ten thousand ampules at least, the first of several scheduled for the refugee population.
“You are familiar with the loading dock?” she asked.
“No”
“Where is your truck?”
“I was told nothing about a truck,” the woman outside retorted.
“I have come for the health minister's personal supply. The minister is to carry it to Kosovo himself tomorrow as a goodwill gesture.” Greta hesitated.
“I was not told,” she said.
“Is there anyone with more authority in the office?” The woman was fumbling in her handbag, searching for her official identification; through the surveillance monitor Greta could sense her impatience. “Anyone who might be able to help me? Greta Oppenheimer, for instance?”
“I am Greta Oppenheimer.” Surprise brought her upright.
“Mian told me to ask for you,” the woman said, and stared directly into the surveillance camera's lens.
Greta's breath snagged in her throat. How could this creature utter the word with such a casual air? As though it were a name like any other? A name you might toss over a dinner table:
“I am Greta,” she repeated.
“Then open the door, you crucifier of Jesus, before I freeze my tits off,” the woman spat out contemptuously.
And Greta obeyed.
“I haven't got much time,” she said briskly, and tugged at the fingertips of her gloves.
Her voice, freed of the speakerphone's distortion, was heavy and coarse. German was not, Greta thought, her first language; but what was? She might be Russian or some other type of Slav. A woman from the East. From His homeland.
“The minister has requested twelve dozen ampules.”
“That's our normal crating quantity.. ..”
“Good. Fetch it.”
Greta glanced over her shoulder. She swallowed nervously.
“I have no access to that vaccine.”
“What?”
The sunglasses were swept off, and a pair of black eyes, heavily rimmed in kohl, stared at her implacably.
“The laboratory is closed,” Greta said. Such a vague word for the battery of electronics that encircled His kingdom, that ensured the unworthy were barred. “I have no access to the storerooms.”
The 'woman's brows came sharply together.
“But this is nonsense! It was expressly approved by Mian himself! What am I to tell the minister?”
Greta stared at her helplessly.
The woman fished a second time in her capacious handbag. Like her clothes, it was black. She might have been dressed for mourning, Greta thought, or an avant-garde play. The only spot of color was at her throat, a white scarf wound tight as a tourniquet.
She held up a piece of paper and began to read from it. “
“Vaccine No. 413. A box of twelve dozen ampules. To be personally called for on November tenth.” I am at VaccuGen, yes? And you are Greta Oppenheimer?”
“Yes.” Who never called Him by His name.
The woman slapped her gloves on the reception desk.
“Then what am I to do? Tell the minister that Mian failed him again? Is the entire shipment locked away somewhere? Because if it is, young woman, I can assure you that the minister will have Krucevic's balls for breakfast. The minister is expected in Pristina tomorrow, and Ernst Schuler is not a man to look ridiculous. Do I make myself clear?”
“The shipment is in the loading bay.”
“And do you have access to that?”
Greta nodded.
“Then for the love of the Savior, take me to it,” the woman snapped, “before I call Mian myself. No one will notice a carton more or less, and it's as much as my life is worth to return to the ministry empty-handed.”
When the woman had scrawled some initials on a notepad and left with the box under her arm, Greta went slowly back to her desk. It was a brief excitement; it had afforded her the sound of a human voice. She was not likely to hear one again that day.
But in this she was wrong. She had not been reseated in the reception area twenty minutes when the static burst out again. She glanced up at the street monitor and saw the figure of a balding, middle-aged man, the collar of his good cloth coat turned up against the cold November day.
“May I speak with Greta Oppenheimer?” he asked.
“I am Greta,” she replied. And was suddenly filled with foreboding. Never had she been requested by name. And now twice in one day “I have come for the mumps vaccine,” the man said.
