Satan never quit campaigning! Zane knew himself to be no angel, but this open mockery of Heavenly things disturbed him. Could it really lure wavering souls to Hell? Surely he himself, in life, had been considered a candidate for such infernal blandishments. Even if his soul had not proved to be entirely balanced between good and evil, he would have known he was of questionable virtue. There were blots on his conscience that could never be erased. He was, in secret fact, a murderer — now he had to admit it to himself! — and he had believed for some time that he was destined for Hell, though he had not quite allowed himself to believe Hell existed. Who was he to judge the souls of others? So the schoolboy had the sins of drug addiction on his soul; was Zane himself any better?
Yet what choice did he have now? It always came back to that. If he didn't do his job, how would that improve anyone's situation? Someone else would replace him in the office of Death, and the grim game would continue.
'It might as well be me,' Zane said, pressing the button to resume the countdown. But he remained unsatisfied. He had not really answered his question. He was doing this job because he didn't know what else to do and wasn't ready to quit what form of life remained to him. His own suicide attempt had been a passing thing, a wild impulse of the moment; he really did want to live. Since he had to perform or face some sort of Divine accounting, he performed. That really was not much credit to him.
In fact, Zane realized, he was not much of a person. If he had never lived, the world would not have been a worse place. He was just one of the blah mediocrities that cluttered the cosmos. It was ironic that he should have backed into the significant office he now held.
He had started and oriented the car. He was zooming across the surface of the world, hardly paying attention. This was, if he remembered correctly, his sixth case coming up; he was getting the hang of it. Of course there was still much to learn — assuming he really wanted to learn it.
Ocean gave way to land. There was a fleeting beach, and a green shore region; then they plowed through mountains and across a desert whose sands were wrinkled into dunes like the waves of the sea, frozen in place. On south, still in hyper drive; this was a huge island — in fact, a continent!
The Death mobile stopped at last at the dead end of a dirt road in mountainous country. Four minutes remained on the timer. Where was the client?
The arrow stone for once seemed uncertain. He turned it about, and the arrow was inconsistent. In any event, there was no human habitation in sight in this wild land.
A blinking light on the dash caught his attention. It was the one with the horse head silhouette. Zane pushed it.
He was astride the great stallion, his cloak swirling in the breeze. 'What next, friend steed?' he inquired.
The Death horse moved forward, galloping up the steep slope to the side. No ordinary horse could have moved this way — but of course this was a unique animal. Mortis leaped to the top of the mountain ridge, where a primitive cottage perched.
This was the place. The arrow stone had not guided him before, because he had been holding it level instead of angled. It had not been able to point upward to the cottage. The car had not driven here because no ordinary car could, and the approach of Death was always circumspect. As they traversed the somewhat harrowing slope of the mountain, Zane thought again about himself and his office. There was something about the appearance of danger, such as a possible fall, that caused him to review his most morbid thoughts. If he felt unfit for the office of Death and did not want to judge others when he knew he was no better than they were, why should he do it? If his abdication meant he would die the death he had aborted before, maybe that was proper. If he went to Hell, maybe that, too, was proper. After all, he had killed his mother; he could hardly go to join her in Heaven! The fact that he now clung to a kind of life had no relevance; it was fitting that he pay his penalty.
Yes — that was what he had to do! 'I resign the office!' he cried impulsively. 'Take me directly to Hell!'
Nothing happened. The horse trotted toward the cottage, ignoring Zane's outburst.
Of course. He could not blithely resign. He had to be killed by his successor, who would probably be a client like himself and who would turn on him.
Very well — he had a client coming up. He would pass the office on to that person and be done with it.
Two minutes remained as he rode up to the cottage. A woman came out to meet him. 'I am ready, Death,' she said. 'Lift me to your fine horse and bear me to Heaven.'
A woman! He had thought it would be a man, maybe with a gun. Would a woman as readily turn on him? She might need some convincing.
'I can not promise you Heaven,' he said. 'Your soul is in virtual balance; it could go either way.'
'But I took poison so I could go at a time of my choosing!' she protested. 'I've got to go to Heaven!'
'Take an antidote or an emetic quickly,' Zane urged, wondering whether this was feasible. Would he have been summoned, had demise not been certain? And how could she turn the poison she had already taken against him? This was not working out at all! 'Extend your life, and we shall talk.'
The woman hesitated. 'I don't know — '
'Hurry!' Zane cried, seeing his chance slip away. If she had to die, he would not leave his office this time, and might not have the courage to make the next client turn against him.
'I do have a healing potion that should neutralize it, but — '
'Take it!' he pleaded.
Dominated by his urgency, she complied, drinking the potion.
'Now find a gun or a knife,' he told her.
'What? Why should I neutralize the poison, only to use something much more messy?'
'Not for you. For me. I want you to kill me.'
She gaped at him. 'I'll do no such thing! What do you think I am?'
Zane saw that this wasn't remotely feasible. Of course she was not a murderess! He dismounted, took her hand, and led her to a patio where there were chairs and a table. 'Why did you want to die?' he asked.
'What do you care, Death?' she asked, wary of him but curious, too. She spoke with the strong Down under accent of this region.
'Not long ago, I sought to die,' he said. 'I changed my mind when — well, that's hard to explain. Now I want to die again.'
'How can Death die even once?'
'Believe me, Death can die. It is only an office I hold, and that office can be yours if — 'This is completely appalling!' she cried. 'I'll not listen to this!'
Zane sighed. 'Tell me your problem.' He knew himself to be no psychologist, but he needed to extricate himself from this awkwardness he had put himself into.
'My husband left me,' she said grimly. 'After fifteen years — a younger woman — I'll show him!'
'Isn't it a sin to commit suicide, according to your religion?' he asked.
She paused, frowning. 'I suppose it is, but — '
'I am a woman,' she said with a wry smile. 'I owe more to emotion than to logic.'
Zane returned her smile, showing that he appreciated her humor. No woman really thought herself illogical, however strongly she might feel, but it was fashionable to seem otherwise. 'But your soul is so close to balance, the evil matching the good, that these wrongs could tip you into Hell. Do what you know is right, and your balance should favor Heaven.'
'Oh, I hadn't thought of that! I don't want to go to Hell!'
'Believe me, you stand at the very brink of it now. You have done evil before, and this — She sighed. 'It is true. I have much evil to account for. I drove him away. I suppose you know how bitchy a woman can be when she tries.'
'Not really. I always thought of women as pristine and pure,' Zane admitted. 'Most of the evil resides in men. Women should go to Heaven when they die.'
