progressed to be reversed. People really needed to reorder their lives from the start — and he knew that very few would do that voluntarily. They were aware that their lifestyles were at best silly and at worst suicidal, yet they continued unchanged. Exactly as he himself had continued, until he actually saw the face of Death.
If this was a contest between God and Satan, it was evident that Satan was winning. Of course, Satan was constantly campaigning, with periodic Hellethons on television urging people to GET FIRED' and making the ludicrous promise that HELL BUILDS MEN! and offering group plans for families. According to the Covenant, neither Eternal was supposed to interfere in the affairs of living people, but God was the only party to honor it. What good was a pact of noninterference that one party violated freely? Yet if God were to act like Satan, He would be no better than Satan..!
Zane didn't know the answer, but still he felt the need. Perhaps, he chided himself, if a more competent man had assumed the office, he would have been able to do something really positive. But as long as the office of Death was passed along almost randomly, the officeholders would be mediocre, like himself. What could be expected of someone who had to murder his predecessor to obtain the position? He, Zane, was probably typical of the breed. He could not expect his successor to be much better. If any good were to be done, he would have to do it himself, inadequate though he might be.
Oddly, that realization gave him a new kind of strength. Probably he would fail, but at least he would try. He didn't know what he would do or could do or should do, but hoped he would acquit himself appropriately when the chance came.
He glanced up. He happened to have parked in a northern latitude, during a break between cases, where snow lay on the ground. There was yet another of Satan's ubiquitous billboards: HELLO! IT'S WARM BELOW! SIGN UP EARLY FOR PREFERENTIAL TREATMENT. The picture showed a luscious female demon in a half-open bed, beckoning with her middle finger. In the corner, the miniature female Dee was restraining the male Dee from leaping into the bed.
Zane was tempted to knock down the billboard by driving the Death mobile through it, but checked himself. This was a free cosmos; Satan had a right to advertise. Decent folk had to let the indecent folk do their thing; that was the paradox of decency. Was it worth it?
He continued his routine. Several more cases turned out to be optional, so that he was able to arrange to spare them. He still didn't know whether this was proper, according to the rules of the job, but the Purgatory television reporting did not take more than routine gossipy notice of them, with a 'Look at what the bad boy's done this time!' attitude, so he assumed that, while it might be considered bad form, it was in fact one of his prerogatives: to take or not to take, at a given time. It was possible that a soul that might have squeezed through to Heaven if taken on schedule would later degenerate and go to Hell, but he thought it more likely to be the other way around. What person, confronted with the specter of Death, would not hasten to reform his ways to some extent? Whoever was fool enough to ignore that type of warning and descended to Hell probably deserved his fate.
Still, Zane's underlying misgiving was sharpened by what started out as a routine case. It was a boy of perhaps fifteen, victim of a rare form of cancer. He was resting comfortably at home, thanks in large part to potent medication and an optimism-spell. He looked up in surprise when Zane entered.
'I haven't seen you before, though you seem somehow familiar,' the boy said. 'Are you a doctor?'
'Not exactly,' Zane said, realizing that the boy did not recognize his nature. He was uncertain whether to inform him.
'A psychologist, then, come to try to cheer me up?'
'No, just a person come to take you on a journey.'
'Oh, a chauffeur! But I don't feel like riding around the park again.'
'It's a longer trip than that.'
'Can't you just sit down and talk a while? I get lonely,' The boy ran his fingers through his tousled yellow hair, as if to clear his head of loneliness.
Zane sat on the edge of the bed. His watch showed fifteen seconds on the countdown; he froze it there. This boy was dying — and would no one keep him company? Probably because his family and friends knew what the victim didn't. That was one of the ironic cruelties of the situation. 'I will talk with you.'
The boy smiled quickly, gratefully. 'Oh, I'm so glad! You will be my friend, I know.' He put forth his hand with some difficulty, for he was weak and it took muscle to hold the hand horizontally from the body. 'How do you do. I'm Tad.'
Zane took the boy's hand carefully. 'Pleased to meet you. Tad. I am — ' Here he stopped. The boy did not know he was going to die. What kindness would it be to tell him now? Yet to conceal the information was to lie. A lie by default was still a lie. What should he do?
Tad smiled. 'You've forgotten? Or you're here to give me a shot and you're afraid I'll scream?'
'No shot!' Zane said quickly.
'Let me guess, then. You're a bill collector? My dad handles that department. I guess these happiness-spells are costing him a bundle, but I don't think they're worth it, because I still get depressed some. I think he should use those spells on himself, because he's looking pretty peaked these days. Must be due to the cost of all my medication and stuff. I feel guilty because of that, and sometimes I wish it could just end, right now, and stop costing him so much.'
It was going to — but Zane knew that would not make the boy's father happy. 'I'm not a bill collector,' Zane said. 'Though I suppose my job is related.'
'Maybe you're a salesman, then. You've got a product I can use. A new home-computer program that will keep me riveted for forty-eight hours straight.'
'Longer than that,' Zane muttered uncomfortably.
'Aw, I don't care. I've played those games till I can't stand any of them any more. And the magic games, too; I've conjured more harmless mythological animals than I ever knew existed. There's a pink elephant under my bed right now. See?' He pulled up the trailing coverlet, and Zane saw the pink trunk of an elephant. 'What I really want is to go out in the sun and wind and just run, and feel the dry leaves under my feet, crackling. I've been in this bed so long!'
Of course the boy was too weak to run. Even if Zane took him alive out of the building, it wouldn't work. How much did Tad actually know or suspect of his condition? 'What's the matter with you?' Zane asked.
'Oh, it's something to do with my spine. It hurts, so they invoke a local antipain spell and give me a spinal shot, but then my legs get numb and I can't walk. I wish they'd get it fixed; I'm missing a lot of school, and I don't want to repeat a grade. I had a B average. All my friends will be moving on up, you know, and I'd look pretty silly.'
So they had actually told him he would get better. Zane found himself turning angry. What right did they have to deceive him so?
'What's the matter?' Tad asked.
Now Zane had to make a decision. Should he tell the truth — or continue the lie? If he avoided the issue, he would in fact be lying by inaction. 'I am on the horns of a dilemma,' he admitted.
'Watch how you sit on them,' the boy advised.
Zane smiled. Trust a youth to make a pun of the horns! 'I'd rather be astride my good horse.'
'You have a horse? I always wanted one! What breed?'
'I don't know his breed: I'm not expert on that sort of thing. I inherited him. He's a big, pale stall ion, very powerful, and he can fly.'
'What's his name?'
'Mortis.'
'A Morgan? That's a good breed.'
'Mortis.'
'Moms?'
'Mortis, with a T. He's a — '
Tad was not stupid. 'Mortis means death,' he said. 'I made a B plus in Latin.'
Zane felt a sinking sensation. He had given away more than intended, not being a student of Latin. 'He is a Death horse.'
'But no living man can ride a Death horse!'
