“Yes,” Mimi continued. “Everybody has time for Tom. We don’t see a great deal of him, but now and then we do. He’s quite a shy man, really. His confidence was pretty dented by his condition. Do you know about Bell’s palsy?”
They were sitting together in the drawing room at the time.
Isabel had given Mimi a glass of New Zealand white wine, and she was holding her own glass, half full. She put it down on the table beside her. In her mind she saw the man in the gallery. She saw the face wrenched up at one side in that disfiguring grimace. That was Tom. That was who he was.
“I knew I was going to see him again,” she muttered. “I knew it.”
“Knew what?” asked Mimi, taking a sip of her wine.
“I think I’ve met them,” said Isabel. “Just pure coincidence.
I saw them in a gallery. They were buying a painting, I think.”
“That’s them,” said Mimi. “She’s on a spending spree, I gather. Paintings. Rugs. Even a racehorse, somebody said.”
“But I had the impression that he was the one who was—”
“He’ll do anything to please her,” said Mimi. “Poor Tom.”
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came to an end and Cat could leave Eddie at the counter while she took a break with Isabel at one of the tables. She had made Isabel a special Greek salad, which is what she knew she liked: salty cheese crumbled over olives and sliced boiled egg. Cat herself liked tomatoes and mozzarella.
“I haven’t thanked you for the other night,” said Cat. “We both enjoyed it. I love seeing Mimi and Joe, although they always make me feel a bit stick-in-the-mud. All the travelling they do.”
“I don’t know,” said Isabel. “You went to Italy not all that long ago. And you had those six months in Australia.”
Cat looked wistful. She had spent six months in Australia after university, working in a series of casual jobs, travelling and seeing the country. It had been the most perfect time of her life, and she could not think of it without a feeling of nostalgia. “Yes.
There was that. But that was then. Now is different. Now is here. And tomorrow will be here.”
Isabel speared an olive with her fork. “Not necessarily,” she said. “All sorts of things can happen. You might . . .”
Cat looked at her. “Yes? I might what?”
Isabel had been thinking of marriage. That was the obvious thing that could change Cat’s life and get her out of her rut, if that’s what she thought she was in. Marriage had changed Isabel’s own life—for the worse, but not every marriage did that.
One would have to be massively cynical to see marriage in that light. Were most marriages happy? Somewhere she had read that with increased participation by women in economic life—
as more women began to have their own careers—so the levels of happiness in marriage went down. Women in Sweden and countries like that, where women were free and independent, were apparently less happy in their marriages than women in 7 6
A l e x a n d e r M c C a l l S m i t h those countries where they had less power and participated less in the working world. Well, if that were the case, she thought, then that meant that there was something wrong with conventional marriage, rather than something wrong with freedom.
She could not tell Cat that she had been thinking of marriage, because she was not at all sure whether Cat wanted to get married. So many people no longer bothered, but just lived together, or left it for years and years before doing anything about formalities. But was that what Cat really wanted? Or did she want somebody to come along and make a public commitment to her, as people used to do with marriage, as she had done with John Liamor?
“I might what?” repeated Cat.
“You might meet somebody,” said Isabel.
Cat looked down at her plate, and Isabel knew that they were in awkward territory. She had learned her lesson, and was determined not to repeat the mistake she had made over Cat’s involvement with Toby. But there was no reason for Cat to take offence over a very ordinary reference to the possibility of meeting somebody, and so Isabel said, “You could find yourself in a relationship with somebody who worked somewhere else, for example. That happens, you know. What if you met an Australian you liked and you thought you might go off together to Melbourne or Perth or somewhere? That happens, a lot. And the other way round too. Somebody from Australia meets somebody from London and goes to live there.”
It did. There were love stories happening all the time in circumstances just like that; stories unsung, but as heroic and moving in their way as those that had been sung; we could not all be Tristan and Isolde, even if we were separated from one another by oceans and circumstance, but the whole point about T H E R I G H T AT T I T U D E T O R A I N
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the great myths was that they were about exactly the things that we all experienced and recognised.
“You could meet somebody too,” said Cat. “An Australian philosopher. How about that? And then you’d be living in Melbourne.”
“I’d like that,” said Isabel.
