it feels to have your wife beaten to death in the bed of another man? Perhaps if you could, you would be less judgmental.”
I bristle. I’m not sure if he called up the image of my wife and child murdered as a taunt or a threat. Alcohol knocked my headache back to a dull roar, but now it thrums, almost seems to sing to me, Kill this bastard.
“I like you, Inspector,” he says. “Do you know why?”
“Please enlighten.”
“I sense something about you. There’s a Russian saying. Comrade Wolf knows who to eat and isn’t about to listen to anyone. In this world, there are sheep and wolves. Only a very few people are wolves. Wolves are predators and don’t bow to pressure. They see situations through to the end of the line, no matter the cost. You and I are wolves, and so you remind me of me. Because of it, I have no choice but to like you.”
I get the impression that, with his flagrant disregard for his dead wife and cryptic talk, he’s sending me a message, but I have no idea what it is or why he’s doing it. He goes back to his table.
The tension between us was evident. The others look at me, waiting for an explanation. “Just some police business,” I say.
Filippov makes a pretense of amends, sends a round of four vodkas to our table. I won’t drink that bastard’s booze and dump them in the champagne bucket. John’s expression of longing says he mourns their loss. Our appetizers arrive. I eat oysters and listen as Kate, John and Mary retell family anecdotes, relive some humorous childhood memories. The mood lightens. They decide they’re hungry enough for entrees, and we look at the menus again.
“Why does this first-class restaurant sell liver and onions?” John asks. “It strikes me as a bit low-rent.”
“Because it’s a Finnish classic,” I say. “It’s also one of my favorite foods.”
His tone patronizes. “Oh.”
We order dinner. Entrecote for me. Duck confit for Kate. Seasalted whitefish with leaf spinach and beurre blanc sauce for Mary. For John, roasted fillet of roe deer, of course the most expensive main course on the menu. And to go with it, a Chateau Gruaud-Larose 1966, Saint-Julien 2eme Grand Cru, Bordeaux, France. Price tag: three hundred and thirty euros.
I see Kate grimace. She’s angry now and starts to object. I don’t want her evening ruined. To exclude the others, I tell her in Finnish that I’ll pay for it myself, and ask John if I can share it, so he won’t drink the whole thing by himself. Kate accepts my gesture and lets it go. I see Filippov and Linda walk out, arm in arm.
Dinner arrives. We dig in.
Mary says, “Kari, since you’re married to Kate, why do you want to live in Finland?”
“What do you mean?”
“America is the greatest country on earth. I can’t imagine why anyone would want to live anywhere else.”
The woman mystifies me. “By what standard do you measure countries to determine which is the greatest on earth?”
“In America, you can be anything you want. Have anything you want. Why live under socialism?”
I can’t bring myself to engage in such an uninformed conversation. I turn to Kate. The look on my face says, Help me. She grins and shrugs.
“Finland isn’t a socialist country,” I say. “It’s a social democracy, like most European countries.”
“Wouldn’t you like to live in a capitalist country, where you can become wealthy?”
“Are you wealthy?” I ask.
“Moderately. My husband’s medical practice is quite successful.”
The migraine hums. My patience with Mary is wearing thin. “In this regard, a vast cultural gulf separates us. Your capitalist country exists in a constant state of flux, and throughout its history has been in an almost constant state of war. We in Europe have learned over the centuries that change and transformation bring war, hardship and chaos. We fear it. By and large, we prefer a middle-class existence-with the knowledge that when we’re sick, we can go to the doctor, that we won’t go hungry or be homeless, that we can receive educations-to the excitement of the remote possibility that we might make a billion dollars, which we don’t need anyway. So no, I feel no need to emigrate to your land of opportunity.”
John snickers, then laughs. “Damn,” he says, “that was great. You should be a politician. Or a television preacher.”
Mary’s young eyes age twenty years in an instant, and they aren’t dancing anymore. She folds her hands in front of her face and looks at Kate over her fingertips. “And how do you feel about the way your husband just denigrated our homeland?”
Kate takes a second before answering. “Mary, it wasn’t a denigration, it was an explanation of differing political philosophies. Kari has spent time in the States, but you haven’t been to Finland before, so if either of you has more right to an opinion, it’s him. I’ve lived in both places, and Kari’s viewpoint has some justification.” She looks at me. “But that was a little harsh,” she says.
“Well, Kari,” Mary says. “I must say, you’re quite well-spoken in English, considering that it’s not your language.”
“Thanks,” I say. “Your English is good, too.”
Under the table, Kate kicks my shin to get my attention. Her look asks me to stop.
My earlier feelings of goodwill toward John and Mary are gone. My fears about John and Mary being here for so long, during such a special time for Kate and me, are renewed. It’s too late now, though, and I resolve to try and make the best of it.
“Anybody up for dessert, coffee and cognac?” John asks.
We manage to make it through the rest of the evening without further incident.
12
The four of us go home. Both John and Mary remove their shoes in the foyer without being asked. That they know we don’t wear shoes in our houses speaks well of them. They made it a point to learn something about Finnish culture before coming here.
We make up the spare bed for Mary and the couch for John. His pick-me-up has worn off, and he and Mary are both exhausted from the long journey across the Atlantic. I’m dead in my tracks, too. I brush my teeth. John is waiting for me outside the bathroom.
“Hey, Kari,” he says. “Got a joint?”
“Excuse me?”
“A little pot would help me sleep.”
John just doesn’t know when to quit. “No, I don’t have a joint.”
“Oh, come on, everybody knows cops have the best dope.”
“Good night, John,” I say, and push past him.
Kate is waiting for me in bed. I turn out the lights. She lays her head on my shoulder. “I don’t know what to think about John and Mary,” she says.
I stroke her round belly. “Me, neither. I guess so much time has passed that all three of you have changed. Maybe you have to get to know them again.”
“You don’t like them, do you?” she asks.
There’s no point in lying. “I’m trying to like them, for your sake.”
“Mary never laughs,” she says. “And for John, everything is one big joke. When we were kids, it was the opposite. I don’t know what happened.”
She doesn’t mention how much John drank. I don’t mention his drug use.
“You were a little tough on them,” she says.
“I had a hard day.”
I tell Kate about Vesa Legion Korhonen, that I was a jerk to Torsten, that Filippov seems thrilled his wife was murdered. “My tolerance level for people is zero right now,” I say, “and I’m overreacting to things.”
She snuggles her face deeper into the crook of my neck. “I’m worried about you. Being short-tempered with
