is she chopping so many?
That’s when I remember the one good bit of last night. “Oh, Ma, the lollipop.”
She keeps chopping. “It’s in the trash.”
Why he left it there? I run over, I step on the pedal and the lid goes
Ma takes me by the shoulders. “Leave it.”
“It’s my candy for Sunday treat,” I tell her.
“It’s garbage.”
“No it’s not.”
“It cost him maybe fifty cents. He’s laughing at you.”
“I never had a lollipop.” I pull out of her hands.
Nothing can hot on Stove because the power’s cut. So lunch is slippery freezy green beans which are even nastier than green beans cooked. We have to eat them up because otherwise they’ll melt and rot. I wouldn’t mind that but it’s waste.
“Would you like
I shake my head. “When the power’s getting uncut?”
“I don’t know, I’m sorry.”
We get into Bed to warm up. Ma pulls up all her clothes and I have lots, the left then the right.
“What if Room gets colder and colderer?”
“Oh, it won’t. It’s April in three days,” she says, spooning me. “It can’t be that cold out.”
We snooze, but me only a bit. I wait till Ma’s all heavy, then I wriggle out and go look in Trash again.
I find the lollipop nearly in the bottom, it’s a red ball shape. I wash my arms and my lollipop too because there’s yucky stew on it. I get the plastic right off and I suck it and suck it, it’s the sweetest thing I ever had. I wonder if this is what Outside tastes like.
If I ran away I’d become a chair and Ma wouldn’t know which one. Or I’d make myself invisible and stick to Skylight and she’d look right through me. Or a tiny speck of dust and go up her nose and she’d sneeze me right out.
Her eyes are open.
I put the lollipop behind my back.
She shuts them again.
I keep sucking for hours even though I feel a bit sick. Then it’s only a stick and I put it in Trash.
When Ma gets up she doesn’t say about the lollipop, maybe she was still asleep with her eyes open. She tries Lamp again but he stays off. She says she’ll leave him switched on so we’ll know the minute the power cut is over.
“What if he comes on in the middle of the night and wakes us up?”
“I don’t think it’ll be the middle of the night.”
We do Bowling with Bouncy Ball and Wordy Ball, and knock down vitamin bottles that we put different heads on when I was four, like Dragon and Alien and Princess and Crocodile, I win the most. I practice my adding and subtracting and sequences and multiplying and dividing and writing down the biggest numbers there are. Ma sews me two new puppets out of little socks from when I was a baby, they’ve got smiles of stitches and all different button eyes. I know to sew but it’s not much fun. I wish I could remember my baby me, what I was like.
I write a letter to SpongeBob with a picture of me and Ma on the back dancing to keep warm. We play Snap and Memory and Go Fish, Ma wants Chess but it makes my brain floppy so she says OK to Checkers instead.
My fingers get so stiff I put them in my mouth. Ma says that spreads germs, she makes me go wash them again in the freezy water.
We do lots of beads of flour dough for a necklace but we can’t string it till they’re all dry and hard. We make a spaceship out of boxes and tubs, the tape’s nearly gone but Ma says “Oh why not” and uses the last bit.
Skylight’s going dark.
Dinner is cheese that’s all sweaty and melting broccoli. Ma says I have to eat or I’ll feel even colder.
She takes two killers and a big gulp to make them go down.
“Why you’re still hurting even though Bad Tooth’s out?”
“I guess I’m noticing the others more now.”
We get in our sleep Tshirts but put more clothes back on top. Ma starts a song. “ ‘The other side of the mountain—’ ” “ ‘The other side of the mountain—,’ ” I sing.
“ ‘The other side of the mountain—’ ”
“ ‘Was all that he could see.’ ”
I do “Ninety-nine Bottles of Beer on the Wall” all the way down to seventy.
Ma puts her hands over her ears and says please can we do the rest tomorrow. “The power will probably be back then.”
“Good-o,” I say.
“And even if it isn’t, he can’t stop the sun coming up.”
Old Nick? “Why would he stop the sun?”
“He can’t, I said.” Ma gives me a hug hard and says, “I’m sorry.”
“Why are you sorry?”
She puffs her breath. “It’s my fault, I made him mad.”
I stare at her face but I can hardly see it.
“He can’t stand it when I start screaming, I haven’t done it in years. He wants to punish us.”
My chest is thumping really loud. “How he’s going to punish us?”
“No, he is already, I mean. By cutting the power.”
“Oh, that’s all right.”
Ma laughs. “What do you mean? We’re freezing, we’re eating slimy vegetables. .”
“Yeah, but I thought he was going to punish us too.” I try to imagine. “Like if there were two Rooms, if he put me in one and you in the other one.” “Jack, you’re wonderful.”
“Why I’m wonderful?”
“I don’t know,” says Ma, “that’s just the way you popped out.”
We spoon even tighter in Bed. “I don’t like it dark,” I tell her.
“Well, it’s time to sleep now, so it would be dark anyway.”
“I guess.”
“We know each other without looking, don’t we?”
“Yeah.”
“Night-night, sleep tight, don’t let the bugs bite.”
“Don’t I have to go in Wardrobe?”
“Not tonight,” says Ma.
• • •
We wake up and the air’s shiverier. Watch says 07:09, he has a battery, that’s his own little power hidden inside.
Ma keeps yawning because she was awake in the night.
I’ve got a tummy ache, she says maybe it was all the raw vegetables. I want a killer from the bottle, she gives me just a half. I wait and wait but my tummy doesn’t feel different.
Skylight’s getting brighter.
“I’m glad he didn’t come last night,” I tell Ma. “I bet he never comes back, that would be super cool.”
“Jack.” She kind of frowns. “Think about it.”
“I am.”
“I mean, what would happen. Where does our food come from?”
I know this one. “From Baby Jesus in the fields in Outside.”
“No, but — who’s the bringer?”
Oh.
Ma gets up, she says it’s a good sign the faucets are still working. “He could have turned the water off too,
