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tight and wait for her to address it with you.'

'What if she doesn't?' I ask, thinking of Courtney Finnamore, one of Margot's closest friends from college whom she excommunicated when Courtney got wasted at a sorority formal and puked all over Margot's brand-new Saab. Although Courtney seemed appropriately contrite, she never offered to clean the car or pay for any damage. It wasn't the cost, Margot insisted, which I believed; it was the incredible thoughtlessness and boorishness of it all, as well as the assumption that because Margot has money, she wouldn't mind footing the cleaning bill. Margot just couldn't get past the incident, noticing more and more how cheap and selfish Courtney was. Yet, despite her strong feelings, she never confronted Courtney. Instead, she just quietly withdrew from the friendship-so quietly, in fact, that I don't think Courtney really noticed Margot's change of heart until Courtney got engaged and asked Margot to be a bridesmaid. After very brief consideration, Margot decided she just couldn't be that two-faced, so she politely declined the 'honor,' offering no explanation, no excuse, and no apology. Margot still attended the wedding, but obviously their friendship rapidly deteriorated after that, and today, the two don't talk at all-not even when they ran into each other at a sorority tailgate during homecoming weekend last fall.

Although I can't fathom such an estrangement ever happening between Margot and me, I still feel a surge of angst as I say to Suzanne, 'It's not really Margot's style to confront people.'

'You're not 'people.' You're her so-called best friend. You're telling me that she won't address something like this with you?' Suzanne whistles for dramatic effect.

'I don't know. Maybe she will,' I say, bristling at her use of so-called as I try to backtrack with an example of Margot being direct with me. Ironically, my only example is Leo-related. 'She confronted me when Leo and I broke up and I turned into a sappy loser-'

Suzanne adamantly interrupts, 'You weren't a sappy loser. You were heartbroken. There's a difference.'

This sentiment of course, disarms me, as no one wants to believe they were ever sappy-or a loser-and certainly not a sappy loser, but at this point, I really am out of time as Andy is headed my way with our lattes. 'Here he comes,' I say. 'Give me the bottom line.'

'The bottom line is that this is between you and Andy… not you and your sister-in-law, BFFs or otherwise,' she says, spitting out BFFs sarcastically. 'But if you feel you must clear the air, then do so…'

'Okay,' I say.

'Whatever you do, though, don't be a scared rabbit. And do not grovel or cower… Got it?'

'Got it,' I say as I take my coffee from Andy and flash him a grateful smile. I don't remember ever needing caffeine this urgently.

''Cause Ellie?' Suzanne says fervently.

'Yeah?'

'If you grovel and cower… you're setting a mighty bad precedent for yourself down in Dixie.'

Suzanne's advice rings in my ears as Andy and I buy the snow globe on a final, sentimental whim, and round the corner toward our gate.

Don't grovel and cower, I think, wondering if that's the sort of demeanor I adopted last night. I know I didn't grovel as there was no verbal exchange, but did I cower? Was I avoiding Margot as much, or perhaps more, than she was avoiding me? If so, maybe I made things worse, elevating her minor worry into full- blown suspicion. And, although I'm certain she saw Leo's name, maybe I also exaggerated her reaction in my head, allowing my own plagued conscience, the intense emotions of our move, and at least one drink too many to distort reality. Maybe everything will look and feel different this morning. It was something that my mother used to say all the time, and as we approach Margot and Webb already settled in at the gate, I cross my fingers that today is no exception to her rule.

I take a deep breath and belt out a preemptive, enthusiastic hello, hoping that I don't sound as stilted as I feel.

As always, Webb stands and kisses my cheek, 'Mornin', darlin'!'

Margot, who is impeccably dressed in a navy sweater set, crisp white pants, and cherry red flats that match her lipstick, looks up from a Nicholas Sparks novel and smiles. 'Hey! Good morning! How was the rest of your night?'

Her blue eyes move from me to Andy, then back to me, as I detect nothing in her face or tone or demeanor to suggest that she is angry or upset. On the contrary, she seems like her usual warm, chummy self.

I feel myself relax ever so slightly as I take the seat next to her and offer up a safe answer. 'It was fun,' I say breezily.

'A little too much fun,' Andy says, flanking me on the other side and tossing our carry-on bags at his feet. 'I probably shouldn't have done that last shot at two in the morning.'

Margot creases a tiny dog ear in a page of her book, closes it, and slides it into her large black bag. 'What time did you get back to your hotel?' she asks us.

Andy and I look at each other and shrug.

'Three, maybe?' I say, almost completely at ease now.

'Something like that,' Andy says, rubbing his temples.

Margot grimaces empathetically. 'I have to say… that's one of the best parts about being pregnant. Hangover free for nine months.'

'Baby, you've been hangover free for nine years,' Webb says.

I laugh, thinking that he's probably right about that. In fact, I can count on one hand the number of times Margot lost control in college or in our twenties. And by 'lost control' I don't mean dancing topless at a party-I mean, taking out a pair of perfectly good contact lenses and flicking them into a bush on the way home from a party, or polishing off a whole bag of barbecue potato chips.

A few moments of casual, idle chatter later, Webb says he's going to go pick up a paper before we board. Andy offers to go with him, and Margot and I are suddenly alone, in what feels to be some kind of moment of truth.

Sure enough, it is.

'Okay, Ellie,' she says urgently. 'I've been dying to talk to you.'

You could have fooled me, I think, as I give her a sideways glance and decide that her expression is more curious than accusatory.

'I know,' I say hesitantly.

'Leo?' she says, her eyes wide, unblinking.

My stomach jumps a little hearing his name aloud, and I suddenly wish he had a more common name, like Scott or Mark. A name diluted by other casual acquaintances and associations. But in my life, there is only one Leo.

'I know,' I say again, stalling as I take a long sip of coffee. 'I should have mentioned it sooner… I was going to… but the move… your baby… There've been so many distractions…'

I realize that I'm stammering, and that Suzanne likely would categorize my end of the conversation as something approaching scared-rabbit groveling, so I gather myself and try another angle. 'But it's really not the way it seems… I… I just ran into him on the street one day, and we caught up very quickly… Then, a short time later, he called my agent and gave me the Drake lead. And that was it, really…'

It is enough of the truth that I don't feel altogether bad by editing the story-omitting that I saw him in L.A.- and afterward on our flight home.

Margot looks visibly relieved. 'I knew it had to be something like that,' she says. 'I just… I guess I thought you would have told me about it?' She adds the last part gingerly, conveying disappointment more than judgment.

'I really meant to… and I was going to before the magazine came out,' I say, unsure of whether this is the truth, but giving myself a generous benefit of the doubt. 'I'm sorry.'

I think of Suzanne again, but tell myself that a simple I'm sorry is a far cry from groveling.

'You don't have to be sorry,' Margot says quickly. 'It's okay.'

A few seconds of easy silence pass between us, and just as I think I might be off the hook completely, she twists her diamond stud a full turn in her ear and asks point-blank, 'Does Andy know?'