that sometimes I was just overcome by the physical problems that plagued me. And the job itself drained me, though I loved it.
What Tolliver got out of accompanying me, I wasn't able to figure. But he did seem to want to do it, and he accused me of self-pity when I tried to get him to do something he might find more fulfilling.
In the meantime, we shared everything: the money was our money, and the car was our car, and the planning and execution of the itinerary was ours.
'Come on,' Tolliver said, putting an arm around me helping me to my room. 'Hold up your arms.' Like a child, I held my arms up and he pulled off my sweater. 'Sit on the bed.' I did, and he pulled off my shoes and socks. I stood, and he unzipped my jeans.
'I'm good,' I said. 'I got it from here.'
'Sure? Need candy? Need a drink?'
'No, just a shower and bed. I'll be okay after some sleep.'
Tolliver said, 'Call if you need me,' and went back out to the living room. I heard him turn on the television. I couldn't even remember what night it was, so I didn't know if one of his shows was on. We could never count on being able to keep up with episodes, and we'd discussed learning more about TiVo for the set in our apartment. I thought I heard Tolliver's cell phone ring while I was in the tub, but I simply didn't care who was calling. I soaked in hot, scented water, then scrubbed myself bright pink. After I dried off and put on my pajamas, I was disgusted to find out I still hadn't unwound enough to sleep. I turned on my own television to have background noise while I painted my nails. I decided on a nice dark red, which looked autumnal, and I had a lovely peaceful half hour to myself. You can't be said to have any worries if your fingernails are the center of your universe, and it gave me time to decompress.
I couldn't settle down to read when that was done, though Tolliver had brought a box of paperbacks up with us. We pick them up here and there, and leave them for other people when we're done. We love secondhand bookstores, and we'll go a mile or two out of our way if we've heard of a good one in the area. I'd been reading a biography of Catherine the Great, who may have become an empress but also managed to have a messy life. Maybe all empresses did. I just couldn't get into her tonight, and I was still jangling too much inside to get in the bed. I wandered into the common living room to see what Tolliver was up to.
He was fuming; there was no other word for it.
'The TV screen is going to break if you keep glaring at it like that,' I said. 'What's up?' Tolliver didn't do a lot of brooding and mulling, so I never thought twice about asking.
'Personal,' snapped Tolliver.
I was shocked for a minute, and then gave myself a piece of good advice. Treat this casually, and don't get all tearful and hurt.
'Okay,' I said calmly. 'What's the score in the game?' Tolliver was watching football, which I couldn't care less about, but the question did knock him out of his funk and redirect his irritation. He was off and running on the failure of his favorite team, the Miami Dolphins, to get a first down. Since I know about as much about football as I do about quantum physics, I tried to look sympathetic while keeping my mouth shut. Sleep was out of the question until this was resolved, one way or another.
'We could use some food,' I said, and called room service. I got a hamburger for Tolliver, and a grilled chicken sandwich for me.
By the time I'd done that, Tolliver had calmed down and was wearing his usual expression of good humor. 'That phone call was from Felicia Hart,' he said.
I tried to keep my face still and receptive. I tried very hard not to twitch.
'I've told you I'm sorry for being… for starting something with her,' he said. 'I'm not going to say it again.'
'I didn't ask you to,' I pointed out.
'Right.' He shook his head. 'Residual guilt,' he said, by way of explanation. 'She wants to see me again. I said it wasn't a good time.'
'She saw you today, and she was reminded of how fine you are,' I said, careful to be smiling when I said that. 'I bet she wants to start up again.'
He shook his head. 'That seems really unlikely.'
'I wonder if she'll be at the lunch tomorrow,' I said, trying to sound innocent. 'I'll run interference for you if you need me to. She'll probably try to get you by yourself.'
'I don't think so,' he said, refusing to be drawn.
'She's very protective of Victor,' he said after a long pause. I wondered if he'd seen any of the action on the television screen. 'Do you remember what Victor's alibi was when Tabitha was abducted?'
'Well, it was spring break, so he wouldn't have been at school,' I said. 'Nope, I don't recall. Why don't we look it up?'
Tolliver set up his laptop and hooked up to the hotel's Internet service. We began to do a little research into the crime that had led to us being in this room at this moment.
I sat by Tolliver, my arm around his shoulders, as he brought up the familiar story and the images from eighteen months ago. I had forgotten some of the details, and now that I knew all of the people involved, the pictures had much more impact.
What I noticed, first of all, was how many pictures included Agent Seth Koenig. He was in the background of most of the pictures that had appeared in relation to the disappearance. In all of the pictures, whether he was in the foreground or talking to someone in the background, his face was absolutely serious. He was a man absorbed in his mission.
It was shocking to see how much the Morgensterns had aged since Tabitha's abduction. Even Victor looked more adult now—though at his age, that was maybe only to be expected. In the pictures, Diane looked more like five years younger, and Joel looked… lighter. He was still charismatic and handsome now, but he walked more
