Babel
Barry Maitland
Prologue
I entered the camp on the Saturday morning with the French medical team. The situation was overwhelming, devastating. Survivors were still being discovered beneath the ruins of demolished shelters, and all of the effort was going into finding them. That and putting out the fires whose oily smoke hung heavy in the air, blotting out the sun. The dead could wait. They lay everywhere, abandoned to the flies, sickeningly mutilated, dismembered, burned, hacked and shot. Nurses and paramedics accustomed to treating war victims were traumatised. They broke down in tears or stumbled from scene to scene in a state of shock. Some heroic figures with stronger nerves took charge of the situation and organised work groups and allocated tasks. I joined a stretcher party ferrying those survivors that we could find out to the gates of the camp where a queue of improvised ambulances waited, but each time we returned my feelings of fear and revulsion increased. Finally I felt so contaminated by the horror that I became convinced that the insanity of what had been done there would infect my own reason. Deep in the camp I abandoned the team and attempted to find my way out. But I became lost and disoriented in the winding alleyways, and staggered from one part of hell to another. I came to a place where limbs, torsos, heads lay scattered in my path and panic engulfed me. Then I heard a voice, the voice of a child, though I could see no one. It seemed to be reciting something rhythmical, a nursery rhyme perhaps, or a prayer. I was transfixed.
Its source lay in the dark shadow beneath a black awning collapsed close to the ground. I knelt before it and looked into a small space and made out the figure of a woman, her head cradled in the arms of a small boy. I discovered that my feelings of terror and disgust had left me. I crawled into the space. The woman was quite dead, her stomach bearing terrible wounds, but her son, a child of eight years as I later established, was unhurt. I sat with him for some time, and told him that his mother was past help. He had fallen silent when I appeared, and I never heard him utter another sound. I promised to take care of him and finally persuaded him to leave his mother’s body and come with me. He was very thin and seemed to weigh almost nothing as I lifted him into my arms. I carried him out of the camp, holding his face close against my cheek so that he would not see the sights that we passed.
1
D etective Sergeant Kathy Kolla felt a great weariness overwhelm her. She didn’t want to appear obstructive, but the room was warm and she hadn’t slept for so long.
‘It’s all in my report. You’ve read that? I really can’t add.. .’
‘I’ve read it, yes,’ the other woman said gently. ‘It’s very objective. It must have been extremely difficult to write. But it doesn’t tell me how you felt, how you feel now.’
I feel now that my body is made of lead, she thought, heavy, dumb, grey. But she said, ‘I felt mainly helpless.’
‘Was that the most terrible thing about it? That you felt helpless?’
‘Yes.’
‘Abandoned?’
‘Maybe. Towards the end.’
‘That would be the time of the rape, would it?’ Such a gentle, supportive voice.
‘He didn’t rape me.’
‘No, you said that. You said he was stopped. You’re quite sure about that?’
‘Christ, I should know.’ A little buzz of shock made Kathy sit up straight. Did they not believe her?
‘Yes, of course. So the worst thing was the feeling of helplessness.’
A silence. The woman was good at silences, Kathy thought, but she had sat through enough interviews at the side of Brock, the master of the unbearable silence, to know how they worked.
Eventually the woman broke it herself. ‘And feeling abandoned?’ she prompted. ‘Did you feel let down by your colleagues for not getting you out of there?’
‘No, I’d got myself into the situation. It was my mistake.’
‘All the same… You didn’t feel the least bit angry? With DCI Brock, perhaps?’
‘No.’
‘You’ve been in a number of difficult situations before, as a member of his team, haven’t you?’
‘Yes.’
‘But this one was different?’
‘Yes.’
‘Because…?’
‘Because… this time I really believed I was going to die.’
The woman seemed about to pursue this, then studied Kathy for a moment and appeared to change her mind. ‘Yes, it must have been awful,’ she murmured. ‘We might come back to that later, if you like. Tell me a little more about yourself, will you? You’ve lost both your parents, I understand. Do you have any other close family?’
‘I have an uncle and aunt in Sheffield, and a cousin and her family in Canada. They’re the closest.’
‘No brothers or sisters?’
‘No.’
‘Close friends?’
‘The people I work with.’
‘I mean, anyone special, a partner?’
‘Not at the moment.’ Kathy was aware that she was making the woman work, but she couldn’t help herself.
‘Recently?’
Kathy didn’t answer, staring at the carpet, a neutral soft grey. But this time the woman wasn’t going to give up. Finally Kathy said. ‘I was living with a man in the latter part of last year. We split up just before Christmas.’
The woman gave her a careful look. ‘Immediately before this happened?’
Kathy nodded.
‘Do you want to talk about that?’
‘No. It’s got nothing to do with it.’
‘You’re quite sure?’
Another little buzz of shock. She hadn’t even considered that possibility, blanking it out. ‘Quite sure.’
The woman could barely disguise her disappointment. ‘Well… Is he a policeman?’
‘Yes.’
Another extended silence.
‘What about girlfriends? Do you have a close friend you can confide in?’
‘I have a few friends, but no one particularly close.’
‘Outside of the force?’
‘Not really.’
The woman checked her watch. ‘Our hour is up, Kathy,’ she said, with a little frown of concern. ‘The next time we meet I’d like to explore a bit more thoroughly your feelings in that room, if you’re up to it. Between now and then, you might like to think about how those feelings relate to the rest of your life.’
‘I don’t understand.’
