Unwind

The federal agents who come visit him are only interested in what he can tell them. They've given him a lawyer who talks about insanity like it's a good thing.

Lev keeps telling him that he isn't insane, although he's not even sure himself anymore.

The door to his cell opens. He expects another interrogation, but his visitor is someone new. It takes a moment for Lev to recognize him—mainly because he's not wearing his modest pastor's vestments. He wears jeans and a striped button-down shirt.

'Good morning, Lev.'

'Pastor Dan?'

The door slams closed behind him, but it doesn't echo. The soft walls absorb the sound. Pastor Dan rubs his arms against the cold. They should have told him to bring a jacket.

'Are they treating you okay?' he asks.

'Yeah,' says Lev. 'The good thing about being explosive is that no one can beat you.'

Pastor Dan gives an obligatory chuckle, then awkwardness takes over. He forces himself to meet Lev's eyes. 'I understand they'll only keep you wrapped up like this for a few weeks, until you're out of the woods.'

Lev wonders which particular woods he means. Certainly his life will now be one dark forest within another, within another. Lev doesn't even know why the pastor is here, or what he hopes to prove. Should Lev be happy to see him, or should he be mad? This is the man who always told him that tithing was a holy thing from the time he was a small boy—and then told him to run from it. Is Pastor Dan here to reprimand him? To congratulate him? Did Lev's parents send him because he's so untouchable now, they won't come themselves? Or maybe Lev's about to be executed and he's here to give last rites.

'Why don't you just get it over with?' Lev says.

'Get what over with?'

'Whatever you're here to do. Do it, and go.'

There are no chairs in the room, so Pastor Dan leans back against the padded wall. 'How much have they told you about what's going on out there?'

'All I know is what goes on in here. Which isn't much.'

Pastor Dan sighs, rubs his eyes, and takes his time to consider where to begin. 'First of all, do you know a boy by the name of Cyrus Finch?'

The mention of his name makes Lev begin to panic. Lev knew his background would be checked and rechecked. That's what happens to clappers—their whole life becomes pages pasted on a wall to be examined, and the people in their lives become suspects. Of course, that usually happens after the clapper has applauded his way into the next world.

'CyFi had nothing to do with this!' says Lev. 'Nothing at all. They can't pull him into this!'

'Calm down. He's fine. It just so happens that he's come forward and is making a big stink—and since he knew you, people are listening.'

'A stink about me?'

'About unwinding,' says Pastor Dan, for the first time moving closer to Lev.

'What happened at Happy Jack Harvest Camp—it got a whole lot of people talking, people who had just been burying their heads in the sand. There have been protests in Washington against unwinding—Cyrus even testified before Congress.'

Lev tries to imagine CyFi in front of a congressional committee, trash-talking them in prewar sitcom Umber. The thought of it makes Lev smile. It's the first time he's smiled in a long time.

'There's talk that they might even lower the legal age of adulthood from eighteen to seventeen. That'll save a full fifth of all the kids marked for unwinding.'

'That's good,' says Lev.

Pastor Dan reaches into his pocket and pulls out a folded piece of paper. 'I wasn't going to show you this, but I think you need to see it. I think you need to understand where things have gone.'

It's the cover of a magazine.

Lev's on it.

Not just on it, Lev is the cover. It's his seventh-grade baseball picture—mitt in hand, smiling at the camera. The headline reads, WHY, LEV, WHY? In all the time he's had here alone to think and rethink his actions, it never occurred to him that the outside world had been doing the same thing. He doesn't want this attention, but now he's apparently on a first-name basis with the world.

'You've been on the cover of just about every magazine.'

He didn't need to know that. He hopes that Pastor Dan doesn't have a whole collection of them in his pocket. 'So what,' Lev says, trying to act as if it doesn't matter. 'Clappers always make the news.'

'Their actions make the news—the destruction they've caused—but nobody ever cares who a clapper is. To the public all clappers are the same. But you're different from those others, Lev. You're a clapper who didn't clap.'

'I wanted to.'

'If you wanted to, you would have. But instead you ran into the wreckage and pulled out four people.'

'Three.'

'Three—but you probably would have gone in for more if you could have. The other tithes, they all stayed back. They protected their own precious parts. But you basically led that rescue effort, because there were 'terribles' who followed you in to bring out survivors.'

Lev remembers that. Even as the mob was crashing down the gate, there were dozens of Unwinds going back into the wreckage with him. And Pastor Dan is right—Lev would have kept going back in, but then it occurred to him that one false move would have set him off and brought the rest of the Chop Shop down around them. So he went back out to the red carpet and sat with Risa and Connor until ambulances took them away. Then he stood in the midst of the chaos and confessed to being a clapper. He confessed over and over again to anyone willing to listen, until finally a police officer kindly offered to arrest him. The officer was afraid to even handcuff Lev for fear of detonating him, but that was all right—he had no intention of resisting arrest.

'What you did, Lev—it confused people. No one knows whether you're a monster or a hero.'

Lev thinks about that. 'Is there a third choice?'

Pastor Dan doesn't answer him. Maybe he doesn't know the answer. 'I have to believe that things happen for a reason. Your kidnapping, your becoming a clapper, your refusing to clap'—he glances at the magazine cover in his hand

—'it's all led to this. For years, Unwinds were just faceless kids that no one wanted—but now you've put a face on unwinding.'

'Can they put my face on someone else?'

Pastor Dan chuckles again, and this time it's not as forced as before. He looks at Lev like he's just a kid, and not something inhuman. It makes him feel, if only for a moment, like a normal thirteen-year-old. It's a strange feeling, because even in his old life he never really was a normal kid. Tithes never are.

'So, what happens now?' Lev asks.

'The way I understand it, they'll clear the worst of the explosive out of your bloodstream in a few weeks. You'll still be volatile, but not as bad as before. You can clap all you want and you won't explode—but I wouldn't play any contact sports for a while.'

'And then they'll unwind me?'

Pastor Dan shakes his head. 'They won't unwind a clapper—that stuff never entirely gets out of your system. I've been talking to your lawyer. He has a feeling they're going to offer you a deal—after all, you did help them catch that group who gave you the transfusion to begin with. Those people who used you, they'll get what they deserve. But the courts are likely to see you as a victim.'

'I knew what I was doing,' Lev tells him.

'Then tell me why you did it.'

Lev opens his mouth to speak but he can't put it into words. Anger. Betrayal. Fury at a universe pretending to be fair and just. But was that really a reason? Was that justification?

'You may be responsible for your actions,' Pastor Dan says, 'but it's not your fault you weren't emotionally prepared for life out there in the real world. That was my fault—and the fault of everyone who raised you to be a tithe. We're as guilty as the people who pumped that poison into your blood.' He looks away