quite something, believe me. But that could vanish at any moment. I already told you, Justus is a senior assistant. In other words, he's a painter of some importance here in the Foundation. You have to be aware of that. I'm not telling you this to scare you, but so that you understand… and do whatever is necessary, OK?' 'But I don't understand a thing.' He puffed, and sat back in his seat.
'Then you really must be dumb. I'm warning you: Justus could throw you out on the spot if he wanted to.' 'And what am I supposed to do to prevent that?'
'You know perfectly well. Don't pretend to be stupid. He likes you a lot. You'll see.' This fascinating exchange did not make sense to her. She guessed this might be due to Gerardo's clumsiness, his rough, unconvincing way of doing things, the way he tried too hard to control his voice, his timid approach as if he were a kid playing at being the tough guy. For Clara, the most exciting thing was that Gerardo could be telling the truth. There was no way to be certain that all this was the farce it seemed on the surface.
'Are you threatening me?' Clara asked. Gerardo raised an eyebrow.
'I'm simply trying to tell you that Justus is the boss, after him comes me, and that you are at our complete and absolute disposition. And that if you want to be painted by a maestro from the Foundation, the best thing is for you not to upset the assistants, got it?'
A vibration, a shudder of pure art ran through her body. For the first time she felt a certain apprehension at Gerardo's words, and she liked the feeling. She had been painted with another fine brushstroke, and the fact that she was completely naked added the appropriate dark tone. She crossed her ankles, stirred in her seat, and muttered as she looked away from him:
'All right.' 'I hope you'll be more friendly to Justus from now on, OK?' She nodded. 'I didn't hear your reply,' he said.
This new pressure from the brush pleased her as well. She hastened to respond. 'Yes, all right.'
Gerardo rolled his eyes back and stared at her in a very odd way. Neither of them said anything more.
She tried 'being more friendly' during the afternoon session. They had posed her on tiptoe, like a ballet dancer. Time went by. As she was standing up, she could see herself in the mirrors. One of them only reflected half her anatomy, a split silhouette, a chaos of lines and volume. They left her like that for quite a while until Uhl suddenly came up behind her.
Right from the start, she returned his kiss, more ardently than he had begun it with. Her tongue darted in Uhl's dark mouth, she clasped him in her arms and pressed her naked body against his clothes.
It was like being stung by a bee. The painter tore himself from her and left the room. He did not approach her again all afternoon.
So, if I yield, everything stops, she reasoned. And if I don't yield?'
This second option scared her a lot. She decided she would try it.
She was excited, but that night she collapsed into bed like a dead weight. She suspected it was because of all the pills she was taking. When she awoke, she presumed it was Thursday 29 June. She felt ready for a fresh assault. She could not remember anything that had happened during the night: it was as though she had passed out. She had gone to sleep with the blinds drawn again, and if any security guard had come near to the house, she had not been aware of it. And besides, she was beginning to forget her nocturnal fears, because the daytime ones were taking all her attention.
That morning they sketched her standing up, bending over backwards. They were difficult poses, and the timer settings seemed to her eternal. It was midday before she managed to really control her trembling limbs, and the pain in her vertebrae became nothing more than the passage of time. To her surprise, Uhl had not bothered her again. She wondered if the way she had given in to him the previous afternoon had brought things to a complete stop.
After lunch, Gerardo invited her for a walk. This surprised her a little, but she decided to accept because she wanted to get some fresh air. She put on a robe and a pair of padded plastic sandals, and the two of them walked down the gravel path to the front hedge. Then they went out on to the road.
As she had thought, the scenery was very pretty by daylight. To the right and left there were more gardens, hedges and red-roofed houses. In the distance there was a small wood, and before it the main road their van had travelled along. Clara was delighted to see the unmistakable outline of several windmills on the horizon. The scene was like a typical postcard from Holland.
'All these houses belong to the Foundation,' explained Gerardo. 'It's here we make sketches of most of our models. We prefer these surroundings because we can be on our own. Before all the sketches were done in the Old Atelier, in the Plantage district of Amsterdam. Now though we make the sketches here, and if necessary we do the shading in the Atelier.'
Gerardo was behaving as though he felt liberated. He rested his hand gently on her shoulder whenever he wanted to point something out, and smiled wonderfully. It was as if the work atmosphere inside the house was even more exhausting for him than for her. They walked along the roadside listening to the soundtrack of a civilised countryside: birdsong mixed with the distant rumble of machinery. Every so often, a plane ploughed the sky with its brief roar. The muscles of Clara's back ached a little. She thought it was probably due to the difficult poses she had been put in that morning. She was worried, because she did not want anything to go wrong at the sketching stage. She was thinking all this when Gerardo spoke again.
'This is a rest period. An official rest, I mean. Do you understand?'
'Aha.' 'You can talk freely.' 'Fine.'
She understood perfectly. Some painters she had worked with used phrases like this to emphasise that the hyperdramatic work had been interrupted. Sometimes with human canvases it was necessary to make a clear distinction between reality and the blurred outlines of art. Gerardo was trying to tell her that from this moment on, he was he, and she was she. He was saying that he had left his brushwork behind and that he wanted to go for a walk and chat for a while. After that, everything would begin again.
But Clara was confused by the decision. Breaks were common practice in every HD painting session, but it was important to determine exactly when they were taking place, because otherwise the entire painterly construction could be destroyed in an instant. And this moment did not seem very suitable. The previous day, the same young man she was now out strolling with had told her threateningly that she should accept the sexual harassment of his colleague. That had been an especially intense piece of brushwork, but it was also extremely fragile, a subtle outline that could be ruined if it were not allowed to dry. She wanted to believe Gerardo knew what he was doing. And this rest period might well be make-believe, too.
After a short silence, Gerardo looked at her intently. They both smiled.
'You're a very good canvas, sweetheart. I'm talking from experience. First-class material!'
'Thanks, but I see myself as fairly ordinary,' lied Clara. 'No, no; you're very good. Justus thinks the same.' 'You two aren't so bad either.'
She was feeling increasingly uneasy. She would have preferred to go back to the house at once and resume the hyperdramatic tension. This idle conversation with one of the technical assistants frightened her. She refused to believe that Gerardo wanted to have the kind of boring exchange such as: What do you like doing, and what do you enjoy? She could only put up with Jorge talking that way, but Jorge was her everyday life, not art.
Stay cool, she told herself. Let him take the reins. He's a Foundation painter, a professional. He's not going to make any false moves with a canvas.
'Justus is better than me,' Gerardo went on. 'Seriously, sweetheart: he's an extraordinary painter. I've been an assistant for two years now. Before I was training to be a craftsman. Justus had just been made a senior. We became friends, and it was he who recommended me for this job. I've been very lucky, they don't take on just anybody. And I never liked painting ornaments. What I'm into are works of art.' Aha.'
'But what I'd like most of all is to become an independent professional painter. To have my own studio and canvases. Canvases like you: good, expensive ones.' Clara laughed out loud. I have lots of ideas, especially for outdoor works. I'd love to be able to devote myself to making outdoor works for collectors in hot countries.' 'So why don't you? It's a good market.'
'You need money to set up a studio like that, sweetheart. But one day I'll do it, believe me. For the moment, I'm happy. I'm earning lots of money. Not everyone gets to be a technical assistant in the Van Tysch Foundation.'
Clara was no longer irritated by Gerardo's smug tone. She saw it as part of his overall commonness. What she did find increasingly hard to take was this conversation. All she wanted to do was to get back to the house and
