puncture in my left side. How I’d got these I couldn’t imagine. I’d felt nothing at the time, nor afterwards. Now, I sat beside the stream feeling suddenly weak and cold as the blood poured down my arm in a crimson stream. I could see the parted skin hanging loose in flaps.
Lucius washed and dressed the wounds.
‘I don’t think this will turn bad,’ he said grimly. ‘But I guarantee it will hurt by nightfall like nothing you’ve ever felt.’
‘Thank you for coming back, Lucius,’ I said feebly.
Lucius stood over me, looking down. ‘How could you possibly think I would ever have gone off without you?’ he asked. ‘You are my beautiful young Alaric. You are the sun that illuminates my soul. So long as I live, I will never leave you, my golden love, my everything. We go together through life, or not at all.
‘Fuck the letters in my bag,’ he added, more lightly. ‘I couldn’t go off without you.’
‘We made a proper mess back there,’ I said. Well, Lucius had made a proper mess. All I’d done was blunder about like a drunk in a tavern. I took another gulp of the wine he held out, and looked at the notches cut here and there in my now blunted sword.
‘You fought well,’ said Lucius firmly. ‘You have strength and speed. You have the courage of your noble fathers. All you need more is the practice that brings them together. We’ll see to that in Ravenna, when everything else is over.
‘And you’ll soon enough have a lovely scar to show off in the baths.’ Lucius grinned as he helped me back onto my horse.
I could have managed a longer rest. But Lucius was right. How the dispensator had got an interception party ahead of us was beyond our imagining. But if he could get one, there might easily be others. We needed to get out of the papal zone as quickly as we could.
46
I felt a decided chill as the evening came on. At first, I thought it was the change of temperature. Then I began to sweat. A concern on his face that worried me, Lucius kept looking at me in the failing light. I felt nothing in my side. But, as he’d promised, the wound on my arm had begun to throb, sending spasms of pain up into my neck.
We came to another post inn. Lucius dithered a while over the keeper’s offer of a bed for the night. In the end, he showed the exarch’s letter to get us fresh horses, and bought some food and some drugs.
I don’t know if it was the drugs or the rising fever, but I rode on through the night feeling increasingly detached from my body. I began to sing snatches of ballads in English, alternating these with long passages of the Lucretius I’d read in the library of Anicius. They made an incongruous match – the unreflecting joys of battle and the hunt, and that sombre meditation on the futility of life.
Lucius tried to quieten me several times. But I was hardly aware of his company. I raved on in a feeble croak until my throat was dry as dust and I called for wine. Lucius gave me sips of water. Several times, I thought he was Maximin, and questioned him about the finer points of the Monophysite controversy. I shouted impatiently at him as he failed to answer my queries about the perfect union of God and Man in a single substance.
I then thought Lucius was one of my fellows in that raiding party I’d briefly joined on the Wessex border. I jabbered on and on in English about nothing in particular.
Then everything seemed to clear, and I was sitting on horseback beside that broken sewer in Rome. It was night again, and I could see without any moon above. Lucius sat beside me on the left. Again, there was the heavy crunch of footsteps on the steps. It was coming closer, and I could hear the rough, laboured breathing of something unaccustomed to movement, but still immensely powerful.
This time, we didn’t turn and run. We continued to sit, looking down from horseback at the awful blackness of the sewer.
‘There’s nothing to fear, do be assured,’ Lucius said. His voice shook, giving the lie to his words.
‘We must see what it is,’ I agreed. My teeth began to chatter.
Suddenly, Maximin – or was it the diplomat? – stood beside me to my right. Sometimes it was one, sometimes the other, sometimes both at once. I looked at the shouting face and felt the gentle breeze fanned up by the frantic gestures. But I heard nothing.
I turned back to the sewer opening. Something was coming out. It was big. It was dark. It was And now I was back on the road with Lucius. The moon was bright overhead, and I could hear the sound of eight hooves on the road. My teeth were chattering in reality, I was very cold, and Lucius was leaning over to support me.
I know that, after a while, I couldn’t sit up on the horse. I felt as tired and as weak as a kitten. Lucius stopped and laid me across the horse. We rode on through the night at a very slow pace. We compensated as best we could by not stopping.
By the morning, I felt some return to coherence. Still very weak, I wasn’t up to any galloping. But I could at least now sit on the horse and ride slowly beside Lucius.
At a watering place for the horses, we came upon an armed carriage. Its main passenger was a Greek official on his way to Rimini to hand in some cadastral reports his subordinates had made up for him. Lucius showed his magic letter from the exarch, and I was soon wrapped up in the back seat of the carriage. A slave woman dabbed at my fevered brow, and poured some poppy juice down my throat.
This was one of those carriages that you still saw in those days – partly closed, partly open. The main bumping of the road was kept away with leather straps that secured the seating to the main body. I was soon deliciously comfortable.
The Greek travelled on my horse to reduce the load and allow us to keep up a decent speed.
Lucius rode beside the carriage. As I drifted off into a drug-induced sleep, I asked him where he’d got his knowledge of the Lombard language. I thought he knew only Latin. He explained that he’d been taught to ride and fight by a Lombard captive when he was about my age. He didn’t know enough to hold a proper conversation. Besides, everyone in the Lombard nobility had now learnt Latin rather well. And even the humbler Lombards could speak it after a fashion. But he’d picked up most of the riper expressions from his teacher, and these came out as if naturally in moments of great danger.
‘Did you never think of a military career?’ I asked him.
‘No,’ he said shortly. ‘The days when people like me got given armies to command were over long ago. The Christian emperors made sure to downgrade our place in the world to serving in the civil administration, or to whatever scholarly or other leisure we could organise for ourselves. We were too unreliable for the new order that Diocletian created and Constantine perfected.
‘The armies are for Greek professionals or barbarian mercenaries. My father was prefect once, and had regular meetings with Narses, the first exarch. He was a fine general, but he started out as a eunuch in the Imperial Household. Until Phocas popped up, it made for stability – even if, the occasional Narses aside, it didn’t bring inspired leadership.’
I felt the longing and regret that Lucius hid behind his increasingly smooth flow of explanation. I know he’d have made a brilliant general of the old style. He’d have kept the Lombard out of Italy. Even now, he could have cleared them out. Was this why he’d been so visibly upset by the settlement proposed by the Church?
I slept. I was distantly aware of when we were passing over the compacted gravel that gave us a smoother but slower ride, and then over the great paving slabs that had us swinging and jerking about on our leather suspension.
We rode on. The road stretched on, seemingly forever. We came to a tunnel cut through the rock. We stopped awhile in its shade, and Lucius supervised a change of dressings to my wounds. There was no visible suppuration, I was conscious enough to notice, and the wound in my side was beginning to heal. But, even through the weak opium I’d been given, I could feel my arm stiff and burning. Lucius washed it himself with cold water and rubbed some ointment he’d bought at another of the inns from a travelling apothecary. He accompanied this with some muttered incantations. Either the little Greek on my horse didn’t notice, or he didn’t care.
In the evening, the fever returned with similar force, and we had to go very slowly. The Greek was in a hurry,
