McGonagall was purring like a turbo jet engine, as Ace stroked its blond tummy. Lucky, lucky kitten, I thought involuntarily.
‘Will Granada offer you a job?’
‘Probably. But still don’t know if I want to settle in this country.’
He put the kitten down, and got up and felt my hair.
‘You’re dry,’ he said and, taking my hands, pulled me to my feet. I had an insane feeling he was going to kiss me, but he just said, ‘Into bed with you.’
‘Can I read?’ I said, as I snuggled down under the sheets.
‘I suppose so. Not for long.’
‘Are you going to bed?’ I said.
‘I thought I’d go downstairs and try and find out what makes Professor Copeland tick. Monumental egotism, I should think.’
‘You’re going to bury the hatchet?’ I said. ‘That’s nice.’
‘Bury it in his cranium more likely.’
For a minute he looked at me, frowning thoughtfully.
‘Funny, I missed you today.’
I felt myself going scarlet.
‘Goodness, that’s the first nice thing you’ve ever said to me.’
‘You haven’t given me much chance,’ he said, and was gone.
A fat lot of reading I did after that. He missed me, he actually said he’d missed me. OK. It was a millionth of what he’d ever felt for Elizabeth, but it was a start.
Next day, after a sleepless night, as I was getting ready to go out, Maggie wandered into my room.
‘God, I feel depressed,’ she said.
‘Why don’t you come out with us?’ I said, praying she wouldn’t accept.
She shook her head. ‘I thought I’d go into Manchester and buy a dress. Can you lend me a tenner?’
The next visitor was Lucasta, driving me spare while I was trying to do my face. Could I do her hair in a pony tail? Could she try on my ‘lip stick’? Could I do up the sleeve buttons on her shirt?
In a pathetic attempt to appear healthier, I slapped on suntan make-up, and a bright coral lipstick, but it made me look like an old tart, so I washed it off and settled for looking pale and interesting. With my wildly dishevelled curls which were quite out of control as a result of Ace’s drying methods, I looked a bit like Swinburne. Certainly I was raring to swop the lilies and languors of virtue for the roses and raptures of vice.
‘Why aren’t you wearing a bra?’ said Lucasta, as I pulled on a dark sweater and jeans.
‘Because the only bra I brought needs washing,’ I said untruthfully.
‘Can I come with you? I promise I won’t talk all the time.’
‘No you can’t,’ said Ace from the doorway. ‘Pru had to put up with quite enough of you yesterday.’
‘Pru’s not wearing a bra,’ announced Lucasta.
Rose lent me a pale suede coat with a fur lining and hood. ‘The forecast says the temperature’s going to drop and I don’t want you catching cold,’ she said, adding out of the corner of her mouth, ‘and do keep Ace away as long as possible.’
‘I’m sure Professor Copeland is already mewing outside Rose’s bedroom waiting to be let in,’ said Ace as we drove down the drive.
It was one of those days that seemed to have lingered over from summer. The air was gentle as silk, and everything was suffused in a golden glow.
We had lunch at a little seaside pub and ate shellfish and drank buckets of white wine.
Suddenly I found I was terribly shy with Ace. My conversation kept sticking, then coming out in great dollops like tomato ketchup.
‘This is what I call hard core prawn,’ I said, spiking a large piece of shell fish. ‘I must say it is heavenly to have a day out. Not that I don’t love all your family,’ I said hastily.
‘They drive me demented,’ said Ace.
‘You shouldn’t worry about them so much.’
‘I know, and I must stop telling them what to do. If they want to drink and fornicate themselves stupid, it’s no concern of mine.’
I giggled. ‘Let them fight their own battles. How did you get on with the Professor last night?’
‘Awful. He tried to relate to me.’
‘You’ve got enough relations round here as it is.’
Ace grinned. ‘He said he wanted to have an in-depth discussion on my piece on Venezuela, because he found so many parallels with his book on Africa.’
‘And he was off?’
‘Exactly. Three-quarters of an hour of absolute tripe on Botswana. I’m supposed to be trained to cut people off when they started waffling, but Jesus, Copeland had me beat. I don’t believe he’s written a word of that book either; it’s all talk.’
‘Poor Rose,’ I said, gouging bread along the grooves of my cocquille shell, soaking up the last traces of sauce, ‘she needs a nice millionaire in shining armour.’
‘She needs a kick up the arse,’ said Ace. ‘Any millionaire would be bled white in a matter of months. Solvency’s a question of attitude not income. She’s having a terrible effect on Maggie too. In a way they compete. Maggie sees Rose getting off with half Westmorland, and can’t see why she shouldn’t do the same. The sooner Jack gets her into that house the better.’
‘She ought to have a baby.’
‘Of course she should. Give her something to do.’
‘Have they been trying?’
‘They’re being extremely trying at the moment,’ said Ace. ‘I want to knock their heads together. D’you want some pudding?’
‘No thanks. Just coffee. If she had her own baby,’ I said, ‘she’d be less jealous of Lucasta.’
Ace filled up my glass.
‘You get on all right with Lucasta, don’t you?’
‘Yes,’ I said, ‘but I’m not her step-mother. She’s sweet, Lucasta, but she’s learnt to be diplomatic. She can beam at Jack with one eye, and freeze Maggie with the other — all at the same time. And although I think Jack’s lovely. .’
‘I gathered that, several times,’ said Ace.
‘Oh shut up,’ I said. ‘Not in that way. I know he’s your brother and all that, but he’s terribly insensitive towards Maggie. Always putting her down. I couldn’t cope with it.’
‘I hope to Christ they don’t break up,’ said Ace.
‘To lose one wife looks like misfortune,’ I said, ‘but to lose two looks like carelessness. It’s difficult to get anyone to take you seriously if you’ve got two marriages under your belt.’
‘You’re a perceptive child sometimes, aren’t you?’
‘Not about myself,’ I said, gouging crosses in the brown sugar.
There was a pause.
Ace shot me a speculative glance. ‘Pendle’s the one who worries me really. He’s heading for a crackup if he’s not careful.’
‘Ah Pendle,’ I said, tearing out the soft inside of my roll and kneading it into pellets. ‘He only went after me because I looked like Maggie, and he was trying to kick the habit.’
‘You don’t have to talk about it, if you don’t want to.’
Suddenly I found I did.
‘He took me back to his flat, and tried to pull me the first night we met. We’d been to a party. I was a bit tight, but when the crunch came he stopped in the middle. He simply couldn’t bring himself to.’
I felt my face going very hot, and took another slug at my wine.
‘It was awful, as though he really hated touching me, like a person making himself pick up toads. I think I knew it was no good for ages. But I’ve always been one to go on watering plants long after they’re dead. I knew I was living in a fool’s paradise.’
