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watch me as we ate. I wasn't a big part of the conversations that went on, and Teresa just nodded when I said that I'd be downstairs, after we finished.

It was later than I would have liked when I finally got things settled in my mind, and figured out what I was going to do… not just about Donna, but Karen, and even Wendy — and Teresa.

It was a couple of days before I got the opportunity to be alone with Donna long enough to tell her 'If you want to know about that stuff that you asked me to help you with, I can do that. But I think there are some things that we need to talk about, so that we ALL understand what's going on with all of us. I'm not going to embarrass anyone by doing anything like calling some kind of family meeting, or sitting all of you down and lecturing at you, or anything like that. You're the oldest, and you're the one that has been asking me to do new stuff with you more than the others, so you and I are going to talk — and when we're done, I know that I can trust you to let your sisters know what's going on, too, when they have a problem or question. Okay?'

Donna solemnly nodded her head, and I started out by saying 'You said that you and Karen know that you haven't done anything with me, and there are a couple of reasons for that. One of them is the big one that was most of it, and the other is something else that I had to worry about, but not as much.'

Donna asked me what they were, and I explained 'The second thing, the little one, is that I could get into a lot of trouble if anyone ever found out that I've been touching you and your sisters, and doing the things we have with you and Karen; and I mean trouble like police and maybe going to jail or prison and things like that.'

In response to the horrified expression on her face, I quickly told her 'I know that you and your sisters would never say anything to anyone about it, and your mom has already told me that if it's one of you that comes to me, she doesn't mind. That's part of why I wasn't AS worried about the second thing — because I know that I can trust you as much as you trust me. But I think I had to tell you what might happen so that you would know how much trouble I could be in if anyone ever did find out what we've been doing. I'm not trying to scare you, or make you feel guilty, or anything like that; I just need to make sure that you understand that what happens with me and any one of you three is something that could mean that I'd never get to see any of you ever again if anyone found out. You're fifteen, now, and I know that you want to be grown up; well, this is something that being grown up means you have to know about. I think you know that I couldn't explain this to Karen and Wendy without scaring them, or making them feel bad; and I think you know that you could tell them so that they don't feel the same way you do right now.'

It took only a moment for Donna to consider the matter before seriously telling me 'Yeah, I could. And I know that's why you're telling me, instead of them — so that I can do it, and you won't scare them.' She was silent for a few seconds, then said 'Being grown up isn't as nice or easy as I thought it would be; you have to think and worry about more stuff, and do a lot more things that you don't want to, than I thought.'

'That's the other reason that you weren't doing things with me.', I told her. 'As long as it was you girls coming to me and asking me to do things with you, then I could tell myself that I was just 'helping' you; but if you had done anything with me, then I would have had to think that there was something like sex happening between us — even if it was only a little bit. Except that I finally had to admit to myself that even the other stuff we were doing was still 'sex', even if you weren't doing anything with me. Sweetheart, you and your sisters are more important to me than anything else in the world — I couldn't love any of you any more than if you were my own daughters; and that was something I had to think about, too. It wasn't easy, and I had to think about it really hard and for a long time before I had an answer to all the questions and things that were on my mind. I know you're fifteen, and you feel like you're all grown up and everything; but I was still worried that I might do something to you, or with you, that you weren't actually ready for. I was also worried that if you did anything with ME, that what happened might hurt you or scare you in a way that might even last your whole life. So I had to really think about all of you, and me, and what we were doing, and what might or could happen if we did even more things together — like what you asked me to help you with.'

She remembered that I'd already told her that I'd do what she wanted, so she was simply looking at me with considerable interest as I continued 'Like I said, it wasn't easy for me — particularly when I had to admit that what we'd already been doing was sexual. But I remembered some things that your mom has said, and thought about those, too; and I finally decided that if the three of you really want to know about stuff like that, then after all the other things we've done together, the best thing I could do to make sure you weren't hurt or scared by learning that stuff was if you learned it with me — because I know that if it's with me, then I can make sure that each of you understands that we're doing something special… not because it's us doing it, but because of why. When I touch you and help you have an orgasm, the most important part of it is that we love and trust each other, not that it's you and me, or that I am touching you. You understand what I'm saying?'

The expression of love on her face told me that she did, but I was still glad to hear her say 'Yeah, I do, Uncle Ted. That's why I do come to you — because I do love you, and know that you love me. I don't think it would even feel as good as it does, if I didn't know you love me a much as you do.'

I gave her a quick kiss on the forehead, then went on to say 'That's what I figured, about the things I've done with you and your sisters, so far. But you remember that you told me that you knew us using our mouths on each other was something where I wouldn't be able to give you an answer right away, so I know you understood that it was important. Now, I said that I can help you learn about that. Telling you how much I had to think about it, and all that… that was so you would know why I can help you; if I hadn't thought about all the different things like I did, and for as long, I would have told you 'no'. Now I have to tell you what has to happen before I will do anything like that with you.'

I could see the surprise on her face, as well as her concern, when I continued 'If I'm going to do anything with you or your sisters from now on, it's going to be up to all of you to make sure it's okay with your mom for you to be with me longer, so that we don't feel like we have to hurry or anything.' She said that sounded okay, and I told her 'For that to really work, I think that it has to be okay for whichever one of you that wants to be with me to come down here any time, too…

even in the evening, or for the whole night. So you have to make sure your mom doesn't have any problem with that, too. I'm not going to ask her if it is, because I'm not the one asking for us to be together — you girls are. And I don't think she would tell me she doesn't mind, for the same reason. Now, any of you could just do it, but I think that you know that even if your mom thought it was okay the first couple of times, she'd be be mad if it kept happening without you saying something first. If she got mad at me, then I'd probably have to move out — which means that we wouldn't be able to do stuff together at all any more, and I probably wouldn't be able to see all of you as often. So even if it's hard to do, I think you see that it's still best if you check with her first, right?'

Donna assured me she did, and that she and her sisters would do as I said. Next, I told her 'I know I've been a stinker about doing stuff with you girls before — and now you know some of why that was. But you also heard me tell you that I've decided it's okay for me to do things with you; and that means that if one of you wants me to do something with you, you aren't going to have to try to talk me into it. If I think you understand what you're asking, then I'll probably agree — so it's going to be up to each of you to think about what you want, and make sure of it, before you come to me. I'm still not going to do anything to actually hurt any of you, ever — but I'm not going to try to stop you from doing something dumb, or embarrassing, either. So if you're going to be 'grown up' enough to want me to do sex stuff with you, it's up to you to make sure you act grown up enough to think it through beforehand.'

I watched as she mulled that one over for a bit before realizing that the freedom to do what she wanted came with the responsibility for the consequences of those actions. There was no mistaking how serious she was when she nodded, letting me know that I could continue 'It doesn't have to be just one of you at a time. If there's something two, or even all three, of you want to know about, then it's okay with me. You don't have to do the same things, or be together the whole time, either. I'm not saying anything like that should happen, or that I want it to… just that it's okay with me. Whether it does, or when, or how, is up to you three.'

'I understand, Uncle Ted.', she assured me.

'The last thing', I told her, 'is that you and your sisters know your mom better than I do — at least about stuff like this. So it's going to be up to each of you to be SURE that you don't do anything with me that your mom wouldn't like. If you're wrong, then there's the same problem as about how much time you spend with me, only worse — your mom might decide that she IS mad or upset enough to make trouble for me with the police. You've