Huge as it was, the thing went in-up me, till I felt the two big testicles pressed against my bottom. My stallion was at work upon me. The lewd fellow lolled back his head. He rolled his eyes in his luxury. His hands clutched nervously at my haunches as he pulled me toward him. Then he thrust slowly in and out-up and down in my little belly where he had said he longed to be.
I love to look on a man in this condition, filled with a bestial sense of desire unappeased, struggling in his libidinous embrace, his eyes turned up and vacuous, or burning with fierce lust at the contemplation of the object of his passion extended and at his mercy beneath him. The picture is a delicately delicious one to my luxurious temperament-it enhances enormously my own enjoyment. It is the sacrifice of modesty upon the altar of lust-it is the reversal of all that is reserved, becoming, and dignified. It is its enormity which is its charm. It is its utter abnegation of personal respect, the prostitution of virtue to vulgar passion which is its fascination.
The enjoyment of my poor John, alas, came to its end as all things must. It grew too poignant to last and it burst. I was the recipient of his exhaustive efforts. He left me bathed in his erotic efforts to my intense enjoyment, and to his loss.
'A telegram for you, Miss Eveline. I would not disturb you sooner. Fanny told me you had given orders not to be awakened.'
'Oh, thank you, Mrs. Lockett; but I have been awake already a couple of hours. I have even had my tub, as you see.'
I tore open the telegram. It was from Eastbourne-from Percy.
'Mother has suffered a fresh attack, is extremely unwell. Lord L- desires you to remain. Await further news.'
The 'further news' arrived an hour later. I had anticipated. It was from the local medical practitioner.
'Lord L desires me to inform you that Lady L succumbed at three o'clock this morning. He is much distressed but is writing particulars. He begs you to be calm.'
I passed over those particulars. They have no place here. Enough that Lady L had paid the inevitable penalty of her folly and that poor papa was free. Sippett lost a profitable employment. I was told that her luggage was heavy and voluminous when she went away.
'A gentleman to see you, miss. He says he has come on business. I told him you could see no one but he insisted-here is his card.'
'Mr. William Dragon, Bow Street. Quite right, John. I will see this gentleman. Show him into Lord L 's study. I will come up directly.'
The blinds were down. The house had already assumed the usual hypocritical, dolorous, and lackadaisical appearance of society grief. At such times one receives odd visitors-always on business, of course. It was not yet ten o'clock. The situation was already quite conventional. Everyone went about their duties as usual, only they spoke lower and whispered, and looked solemn instead of simpering.
'I should not have called, but that I thought I could do so without fear under present circumstances. I was already in the street and on my errand when the boy left the first telegram. We had the news at six this morning direct to Bow Street.'
'I am sure you are very good and you would not have come unless for some useful object. I feel bewildered.'
'I know-I know. Do not trouble to explain. I only want to caution you. Of course, I know your position is a little-just a little-difficult. Take my advice-will you? That's right. I knew you would-for it is honest. Do not delay your marriage. Listen to me: I told you-little Beauty-once, not long ago, your fortune lay at your feet. You had only to stoop and win it. It lies so still. But you must act.'
'How do you mean? What must I do?'
Dragon looked cautiously round. He even closed the slide over the keyhole. He waited a moment and listened acutely.
'I know much more than you think. Your groom is not to be trusted. Young men are vain and they boast. He is steady, but he is no better than his fellows. You have elected to pick up what lay at your feet. Another trouble may arise. Women are plotting. They are devils when they are jealous. Do not delay on account of what has happened. Try to shorten the time. Lord Endover is surrounded by interested toadies. Women are there in his councils also. You are safe yet. Strike the iron while it is hot; you know what I mean. Do not give him time to let them get at him. They will ruin you if they can.'
He looked at me appealingly. His manner was most respectful.
'I really hardly see-and yet I know you are good and honest in what you say. Frankly, I will take your advice. You frighten me. I thought I was so safe-so guarded.'
'So you are as yet. That is why I have come to reassure you and to caution you. I know all that passes about Endover. Take my advice. And now goodbye. Look all the facts in the face and-marry him quick!'
Dragon rose. He bowed with an almost mock solemnity which had its significance. In another moment he was gone.
The day passed wearily enough. In the afternoon, Lord Endover called. He was all sympathy and condolence. His passion was obviously at its zenith. He regarded me evidently as the object of his most cherished desires. The position was difficult. I told him I had not yet seen my papa. I would consult him. My fiance was evidently alarmed lest a long delay should be added to his probation. I did my best to reassure him. He quitted me in better spirits. He had my permission to return the day following. I told him he was welcome. I said I desired his companionship and his advice. He left me much pleased and flattered.
I passed the evening with Mrs. Lockett. She brought her needlework to my sitting room. At an early hour I returned to rest. She supplied the place of my maid. I had never known the tender offices of a mother. I was grateful for her sympathy. I cried myself to sleep.
When I rose next morning, I had resolved all my difficulties. I had made my plans. I prepared to put them into execution.
For malignity there is no expression to equal the intensity of the simple pronoun 'she,' hissed through the lips in an undertone when a woman speaks of another member of her sex behind her back. It seems to convey not only the absence of all respect, but the full measure of contempt which the utterer can ring to bear on an absent, and possibly an innocent acquaintance.
I felt I was being discussed, and probably in quarters where I desired to appear at my best. I felt quite equal to the emergency, but there was no time to be lost. I resolved to act at once. Thanks to Dragon, I was warned and therefore armed.
'Ah! What a pleasure, I never expected to see you, my lovely one, this morning-and so early too! Why, business has been so dull lately that I have closed quite early. The season is a lot too good for us doctors; no cold, no bronchitis! What is London coming to? But you look anxious and not quite so well as usual.'
'Well, I am very glad to see you; all the same, I am not quite so well perhaps as usual. I have had bad news. No, do not ask me about it. You remember our compact. It is because I rely on your word of honor that I am here. I want your advice. I have lost a relative, but that is not the immediate cause of my visit. It has raised complications. I am uncertain what to do for the best.'
My tall, fair, young disciple of Aesculapius consigned the care of the establishment to his lad. He ushered me into his back parlor with a look of radiant delight on his handsome face.
'Now, my beautiful! Tell me how I can be of use. I am entirely at your service. I hope the matter is not very grave. You look weary.'
'You remember the conclusions you arrived at with regard to the difficult in the way of-of-well, I need not be reserved with you, my friend-I mean in the way of conception?'
'Certainly I do, and I am still of that opinion. I am absolutely certain that every physician who took the same pains in the examination and who was proficient in his practice would confirm them.'
'Then you are still sure that I could not bear a child to my husband if I married?'
'Quite sure-nor, for the matter of that, to anyone else.'
'But that if I submitted myself to an operation-a slight operation, in that case-I should have the same chance as other healthy young women?'
'Exactly so. I believe more than an even chance, because you are so beautifully-so perfectly formed. Without
