The Fat Years

“Master Chen…” Fang Caodi started as he drove off.

“Stop calling me Master Chen!” Lao Chen interrupted, irritated. “The Bible says that when the world is full of masters, then the end of our days is in sight.”

“That’s not a laughing matter,” said Fang seriously. “If I can’t call you Master Chen, then I’ll just call you Lao Chen, okay?”

“What did you want to talk about, anyway?” Lao Chen said, exasperated. “Come on, out with it!”

“A whole month is missing, Lao Chen,” said Fang, “and what are we going to do about it? We have to get it back.”

“If it’s missing, it’s missing.” Lao Chen was getting really annoyed with this theme. “What’s it to you anyway? Surely nobody gives a damn about one month.”

But as Fang Caodi went on talking, a few bells rang in Lao Chen’s mind and he began to pay closer attention.

“It’s very strange for a month to go missing, Lao Chen. Haven’t you noticed that everybody around you has changed in the last couple of years?”

This sounded just like what Little Xi and Little Dong had told him.

“Before and after that month, all China changed and so did the Chinese people,” Fang said.

Lao Chen always believed that Fang Caodi greatly exaggerated things.

“China is now divided into two types of people,” Fang continued. “One type forms the great majority, and the other type is a very small minority.”

“How many people are in this very small minority?” asked Lao Chen.

“I only know about two people up to now,” answered Fang. “Myself and Zhang Dou, my sworn brother-but we’re confident there are others. We’re hoping that you’re one of us, too.”

“Why do you think I’m one of your minority group?”

“Because you’re not happy, you look terrible, wet, and bedraggled like a drowned cat.”

“Just because I’m not feeling good-does that make me a member of your minority?”

“That’s only an outward indication,” Fang said. “The key element is whether or not you remember the events of that missing month.”

Lao Chen decided to sound Fang Caodi out. “Old Fang, have you been using some kind of drug for a long time, like maybe-”

“So you are one of us!” exclaimed Fang in surprise.

“Don’t get so excited. Answer my question first,” said Lao Chen.

“Zhang Dou and I both have chronic asthma, and we’ve been taking corticosteroids for many years.”

“Aha!” exclaimed Lao Chen.

“Don’t say ‘aha’ yet,” said Fang. “I did a survey and found that the great majority of people who take corticosteroids for their asthma don’t fit in our small minority. To this day, I only know of myself and Zhang Dou.”

“Perhaps taking some other kind of drug might yield the same result?” Lao Chen suggested.

“What do you mean, Lao Chen?”

“Corticosteroids, antidepressants, painkillers, other analgesics,” Lao Chen went on speculating. “Taking illegal drugs or some other type of medicine… maybe they all have this same effect. But not everyone who takes drugs or medicine for a long time will turn out this way. It’s just that taking drugs or pills may increase the probability. And then we have to look at other variables-for example, what drug someone takes, or what someone’s normal diet is, or personality, or just luck. All these things could influence whether or not a person turns out that way. And so what if you do? If you are that way, firstly, you’ll feel everyone around you has changed; secondly, that so-called change will be that everyone around you has become happy and may even experience a constant small-small high; and, thirdly, at least one part of the condition is that you will remember things that everyone else seems to have forgotten.” Lao Chen was thinking about how Little Dong remembered so much, while Little Xi did not.

“That’s it exactly,” agreed Fang Caodi. “We really are just like that. We can actually remember many things that other people have forgotten, especially the events of that lost month.”

“That lost month?” Lao Chen finally got it. “So what you’ve been saying is that a whole month has disappeared and been completely forgotten?”

“Exactly. It’s a case of collective amnesia.”

“Which month, exactly?” asked Lao Chen, narrowing his eyes.

“It’s precisely the month when the world economy went into crisis and China’s Golden Age of Ascendancy officially began,” said Fang. “Strictly speaking, it was in fact twenty-eight days.”

Lao Chen’s mind wandered a bit as he recalled the detective novel Thirteen Months that he had written at that time. Then, regaining his composure, he asked, “But didn’t those two events occur at the same time, not one after the other, with no gap in between?”

“Lao Chen, you’re really funny,” said Fang, laughing.

Lao Chen fell silent while he racked his brains trying to remember that period, but his memory was a complete blur. This whole thing might just be the result of Fang Caodi’s overactive imagination-there might never have been any such lost twenty-eight days.

It seemed Fang Caodi had finally realized that Lao Chen was not joking. “Lao Chen, you mean you really don’t remember? But just now I actually thought you really were one of us.”

Fang Caodi, Zhang Dou, Little Xi, and Little Dong-they are probably all members of that club, thought Lao Chen.

“Well then, I’m sorry to have bothered you,” said Fang disappointedly.

“No, no, no,” Lao Chen countered, “I’m definitely not one of you, but listen… It’s like this: you’re aliens from outer space who have accidentally landed on earth and can’t go home, and I’m an earthling who’s able to communicate with you. I’m your friend on this earth. Do you understand what I’m getting at?”

“I get it,” Fang said. “You’re a traitor among earth people.”

Lao Chen didn’t feel like arguing any further. “I know some people, more than one, who might be members of your club.”

“That’s terrific,” said Fang. “Where are they?”

“I don’t know where they are. I’m looking for one of them right now.”

“Really? I’ll help you. We can search together.”

Lao Chen looked at Fang Caodi, trying to decide whether to let him tag along, and whether if he did it would cause him any trouble.

“I’m a specialist,” Fang said. “For the past couple of years I’ve been working on this, looking for that lost month, looking for people like me, for evidence. Let me help you, Lao Chen.”

“I’ll think about it, Old Fang.”

Fang Caodi fell silent for a while, but just as they were reaching the Sanlian Bookstore he said, “Lao Chen, there’s nothing worth reading in the bookstores these days. I’ve been all over the country, and it’s the same everywhere; all they have are officially doctored books. Don’t imagine you are going to find anything about the true state of things. If you don’t believe me, take a look yourself. Not only are there no books that mention that lost month, there are definitely no books about the 1989 Tiananmen Massacre. There aren’t even any decent books about the Anti-Rightist Campaign or the Cultural Revolution. They’re all a pack of lies.”

Lao Chen didn’t respond. Fang Caodi was beginning to irritate the hell out of him. Do I need him to give me directions on how to browse in a bookstore? he thought. The Sanlian has thousands of books. Has Fang Caodi read them all? Even the memoirs of famous living people would fill up several rows of shelves. I used to come here every week, and have come here every couple of months for the past two years. Am I not a lot better than him at finding books? I’m the expert here. Old Fang has always been such a pain in the ass.

When Lao Chen leapt out of the car as if to make his escape, Fang Caodi immediately dialed his number. Lao Chen answered his ringing phone.

“Now you’ve got my cell number. Ring me anytime, twenty-four seven. I’ll be expecting your call.” And just before driving off, Fang leaned his head out the window. “Lao Chen, I’ll bet you they don’t even sell books by someone as famous as Yang Jiang in there, and especially not her Cultural Revolution memoir.”

With that he drove off. Lao Chen carried on ruminating. Besides those banned books published only in Hong Kong and Taiwan, and books printed illegally on the mainland by underground presses, many controversial books