moment when he put her away?
I didn’t dream you, Dolores. I know that. But, at this moment, it feels like I did.
And it should, Teddy. It should. Let me go.
Yeah?
Yeah, baby.
I’ll try. Okay?
Okay.
Teddy could see the orange light flickering above him. He could feel the heat, just barely, but unmistakably. He placed his hand on the ledge above him, and saw the orange reflect off his wrist and he pulled himself up and onto the ledge and pulled himself forward on his elbows and saw the light reflecting off the craggy walls. He stood. The roof of the cave was just an inch above his head and he saw that the opening curved to the right and he followed it around and saw that the light came from a pile of wood in a small hole dug into the cave floor and a woman stood on the other side of the fire with her hands behind her back and said, “Who are you?”
“Teddy Daniels.”
The woman had long hair and wore a patient’s light pink shirt and drawstring pants and slippers.
“That’s your name,” she said. “But what do you do?”
“I’m a cop.”
She tilted her head, her hair just beginning to streak with gray. “You’re the marshal.”
Teddy nodded. “Could you take your hands from behind your back?”
“Why?” she said.
“Because I’d like to know what you’re holding.”
“Why?”
“Because I’d like to know if it could hurt me.”
She gave that a small smile. “I suppose that’s fair.”
“I’m glad you do.”
She removed her hands from behind her back, and she was holding a long, thin surgical scalpel. “I’ll hold on to it, if you don’t mind.”
Teddy held up his hands. “Fine with me.”
“Do you know who I am?”
Teddy said, “A patient from Ashecliffe.”
She gave him another head tilt and touched her smock. “My. What gave me away?”
“Okay, okay. Good point.”
“Are all U.S. marshals so astute?”
Teddy said, “I haven’t eaten in a while. I’m a little slower than usual.”
“Slept much?”
“What’s that?”
“Since you’ve been on-island. Have you slept much?”
“Not well if that means anything.”
“Oh, it does.” She hiked up her pants at the knees and sat on the floor, beckoned him to do the same.
Teddy sat and stared at her over the fire.
“You’re Rachel Solando,” he said. “The real one.”
She shrugged.
“You kill your children?” he said.
She poked a log with the scalpel. “I never had children.”
“No?”
“No. I was never married. I was, you’ll be surprised to realize, more than just a patient here.”
“How can you be more than just a patient?”
She poked another log and it settled with a crunch, and sparks rose above the fire and died before hitting the roof.
“I was staff,” she said. “Since just after the war.”
“You were a nurse?”
She looked over the fire at him. “I was a doctor, Marshal. The first female doctor on staff at Drummond Hospital in Delaware. The first on staff here at Ashecliffe. You, sir, are looking at a genuine pioneer.”
Or a delusional mental patient, Teddy thought.
He looked up and found her eyes on him, and hers were kind and wary and knowing. She said, “You think I’m crazy.”
“No.”
“What else would you think, a woman who hides in a cave?”
“I’ve considered that there might be a reason.”
She smiled darkly and shook her head. “I’m not crazy. I’m not. Of course what else would a crazy person claim? That’s the Kafkaesque genius of it all. If you’re not crazy but people have told the world you are, then all your protests to the contrary just underscore their point. Do you see what I’m saying?”
“Sort of,” Teddy said.
“Look at it as a syllogism. Let’s say the syllogism begins with this principle: ‘Insane men deny that they are insane.’ You follow?”
“Sure,” Teddy said.
“Okay, part two: ‘Bob denies he is insane.’ Part three, the ‘ergo’ part. ‘Ergo—Bob is insane.’” She placed the scalpel on the ground by her knee and stoked the fire with a stick. “If you are deemed insane, then all actions that would otherwise prove you are not do, in actuality, fall into the framework of an insane person’s actions. Your sound protests constitute
She’d grown more and more agitated as she spoke, stabbing the fire with her stick, talking more to her knees than to Teddy.
“You really were a doctor?” Teddy said.
“Oh, yes. I was a doctor.” She looked up from her knees and her stick. “I still am, actually. But, yes, I was on staff here. I began to ask about large shipments of Sodium Amytal and opium-based hallucinogens. I began to wonder—aloud unfortunately—about surgical procedures that seemed highly experimental, to put it mildly.”
“What are they up to here?” Teddy said.
She gave him a grin that was both pursed and lopsided. “You have no idea?”
“I know they’re flouting the Nuremberg Code.”
“Flouting it? They’ve obliterated it.”
“I know they’re performing radical treatments.”
“Radical, yes. Treatments, no. There is no treating going on here, Marshal. You know where the funding for this hospital comes from?”
Teddy nodded. “HUAC.”
“Not to mention slush funds,” she said. “Money flows into here. Now ask yourself, how does pain enter the body?”
“Depends upon where you’re hurt.”
“No.” She shook her head emphatically. “It has nothing to do with the flesh. The brain sends neural transmitters down through the nervous system. The brain controls pain,” she said. “It controls fear. Sleep. Empathy. Hunger. Everything we associate with the heart or the soul or the nervous system is actually controlled by the brain. Everything.”
“Okay…”
