was a woman of real standards.
“Hah, not. Michelle says ‘ you can marry more in a minute than you can make in a lifetime. ’ She taught me that. So I don ’ t think Tad really qualified, if you know what I mean.”
“Right,” Behr said as the bartender arrived with a tiny split of Spanish champagne. He set down a fake crystal flute in front of the dancer and went about opening the bottle.
“This ’ ll be sixty,” he said. “You want to open a tab?”
Behr reached out and stopped the man ’ s hand on the cork. “Better not pop that, son.”
The bartender scowled, shook his head at the dancer, and walked off.
“Hey,” the dancer said, indignant.
“Where can I find Michelle?” Behr demanded. The dancer scoffed, trying to come off hard and unhelpful, but she just didn ’ t have the experience for it.
“Tell me,” he barked.
She looked like a startled kid for a second, and then she came back to herself. “She ’ s got a condo off County Line. That ’ s all I know.” She wanted the chat to be over.
Behr moved to go, then stopped. “You talked to me. How come you ’ re not afraid of Rudy?” he wondered.
“Why would I be afraid of Rudy?” She opened her hands in a gesture that presented all six feet and nineteen years of her barely clad self. Why, indeed?
Behr crooked a wave at Paul and went for the door.
Back in the car and heading for County Line, Behr dialed his cell phone.
“Hey, Bobby,” Behr began. “Can you get me a home add on a Michelle Ginelle? Vicinity of County Line, I believe.”
Behr waited and glanced at Paul. “Guy in my line of work. He ’ s home on his computer most nights. We help each other.
“Hey. Great. Thanks, Bobby,” Behr spoke into the phone, then changed course slightly and drove for a while. Paul rode wordlessly. Though it seemed he wanted to ask questions, he resisted the urge. Behr appreciated that. He wanted to remain rapt in his own thoughts but decided to give a few words by way of reward.
“We ’ re gonna go talk to a girl, a dancer from that club. She knew this guy who used to be a bouncer there. He might ’ ve been involved.”
“ Used to be a bouncer?”
“Yeah.” Behr didn ’ t elaborate.
I ’ m getting a pooch already. Oh, Michelle, she said to herself and turned away from the mirror. After looking at her body, she had glanced at her eyes as well. Bad news there. She wasn ’ t looking particularly fresh-faced. Twenty-four just wasn ’ t twenty-one and she saw where it was going from here. She ’ d been sick all day, all week really. Tired and pukey. She knew what it meant. That goddamned Rudy. He said he ’ d pulled out in plenty of time. It was her own damn fault, anyway. Rudy had a nice body and a nice car but was not a man of means. He was not a gentleman. That ’ s what happens when you break your own rules: Don ’ t fuck for fun. Play for play, but draw the line if they ’ re in the industry.
She sat down at her kitchen table and played around with a pack of Merits. She wanted one badly. Along with one of the three silver cans of Coors Light in her refrigerator to go with it. But she stopped herself. She was going to go ahead and take the day after pill that would get rid of her problem. It seemed less invasive than a procedure. The decision occupied her room that morning like a dark, threatening figure standing in the corner. It was hours before she could get out of bed and face it. She ’ d finally decided, though, and knew it was the right choice. The only choice. All the same, she just didn ’ t feel right about drinking or smoking until next week when it was done. Whatever level of being, formed to whatever degree, just didn ’ t deserve to suffer the smoke in her lungs or the alcohol in her blood. Let it spend its time in peace, she thought.
She ran her fingers through her hair, appreciating the softness, then her phone rang. She had the momentary instinct to answer it, but she checked that urge. It was the club or her mother, and she didn ’ t want to talk to either. She hadn ’ t had a decent conversation with her mother in a year, since she ’ d slipped and admitted she was a dancer and not just a waitress at the club. Her mother was a moralist, though it didn ’ t seem to come from any pure place. Michelle believed her mother was afraid of life and embraced what you shouldn ’ t do rather than what you could do, and she just didn ’ t need that negative energy right now. Nor did she want to talk to Rudy or any of the girls from the club. She was in no mood to work, in no state to decide on when her next shift would be. After hearing about Tad, she wondered if she should try to find a new club. There was just a bad vibe around the Golden Lady now. She shuddered and felt like she had a cold, wet bath towel wrapped around her bare shoulders, such was the clammy weight that pressed down on her.
The phone stopped ringing and she had a moment ’ s solitude, then there was a rapping at the front door. Two big dudes were standing there. The bigger of the two asked if she was Michelle Ginelle. Cops, she thought. A pair of them had been by around midday asking a few questions: Had Tad fought with anyone at the club? Did he have any enemies? She opened the door farther. “We want to talk to you about Tad Ford for a minute,” he said.
The dancer let them in, and he and Behr followed her down a short hallway to her living room. It was impossible to ignore the grace with which she walked. The town house was cool, the thermostat set low to save money, and she wore loose sweat pants and a tattered T-shirt that was punctured by her nipples. Her hair was pulled back in a ponytail and despite her lack of makeup and the start of faint dark circles under her eyes, she was stunning. She had full lips and soulful eyes, and a tight curvaceous form beneath her clothes. She had a certain energy that he ’ d noticed before in very beautiful women — as if she were a perfectly fresh sliced orange extended on the palm of the world. Carol used to have that quality. Before. The girl pointed to the couch for them and pulled her stocking feet up under her on a leather recliner. A huge television across the room silently played an infomercial and cast a flickering light along the side of her face. She had the largest CD collection Paul had ever seen, and they were stacked next to the television. He looked around the place. He ’ d never been inside one like it. The town house was in an eye-numbing development that seemed to stretch for miles. The outsides of the units were dun- colored vertical planks with black slanted roofs, and without the well-lit streets and heavily organized numbering system it would have taken them hours to find her door. Paul had wondered what kind of people settled in places like this. White-collar government workers, computer programmers, and corporate managers, he would have thought. Exotic dancers as well, he knew now. The units were spacious, with two and three bedrooms, but appeared to be inhabited by single people only. There were no bikes outside on the patches of lawn, no toys, no basketball hoops, no multiple cars, nothing to indicate that families lived in the development. Maybe he ’ d end up in a place like this in the future, he considered, a broken-down, divorced insurance salesman.
The girl was young, in her early twenties. She sat across from them and played with a pack of cigarettes.
“I ’ m trying not to smoke,” she said when she saw them notice. Her voice was low and purring, as if she had glycerin in the back of her throat. She wasn ’ t trying to be seductive, but she was having an effect on him. He was glad Behr was there, because if it was him alone, he would stutter and stumble. “So you want to hear about Tad? I don ’ t know who killed him.” Paul shifted as the news of a murder hit him, but he kept himself together.
“That ’ s fine,” Behr said. “What did you think when you heard?”
“It freaked me. Totally. I never knew anyone who died like that. But what can you do? It ’ s not something I can think about much. I ’ ve got my own issues I ’ m dealing with right now.”
“I understand.” Behr nodded. Maybe he did understand. Paul had no idea how to tell how much Behr could read off of people. “He had a thing for you, though.”
She took a cigarette out, habitually, then realized and slid it back into the pack. “Yeah, a one-way thing.”
“Not your type?”
“Yeah, right,” she started with a laugh, then caught herself. “Look, I don ’ t want to talk bad about those who ’ ve passed. You know?” Behr nodded like he did know. Paul followed suit. “But you learn pretty quick when you ’ re a dancer not to date inside the industry.” She said the last part with considerable bitterness. “His, uh, attention…it just got kind of uncomfortable after a while. Anyway, that ’ s about all I ’ ve got to say. That ’ s what I said to the other cops who were here, too.”
“We ’ re not cops,” Behr said, and Paul saw her eyes flare, angry and betrayed. “Hey, I didn ’ t say we were
