Shadow Country

pioneer families, some folks was surprised to see ’em pull up stakes. Dolphus’s brother’s wife’s sister was Netta Daniels who had a child by Watson, and maybe that time at Key West, Dolphus said something ugly about Watson’s morals that he wished he hadn’t. Anyway he sold his place, sailed around to the east coast at the Miami River, about as far from E. J. Watson as he could get.

ERSKINE THOMPSON

Mister Watson had a wife and children but never said too much about ’em in front of my mother, Henrietta Daniels, who come to keep house for us at the Bend the year before. I thought they must be crazy to get into the same bed the way they done first night she got there but she said she loved him and she went ahead and had his child. Also she brought along Tant Jenkins, her half brother, skinny as a fish pole with black curly hair. That day Mister Watson come home so excited, Tant was off hunting in the Glades. He snuck upriver every time Mister Watson went away, left the chores to me.

Henrietta-he called her Netta-was setting there on the front stoop, her little Min hitched to her bosom, and I’m down at the dock helping with the lines. Mister Watson ain’t hardly tossed the bow line before he hollers, “Netta honey, you best start thinking about packing up, I have my people coming!” And he laughed out loud about the happy turn his life had taken.

Mister Watson was so overjoyed that he clean forgot about our feelings. I didn’t know where to look, that’s how shamed I was for me and my mother both. After two years, Chatham Bend was home, the first real family home I ever knew. I seen Mister Watson kind of as my dad and he let me think so, that’s how kind he treated me.

My mother was good-hearted, never mind her loose bosom and blowsy ways. When she first come to Chatham Bend, I already been on my own for a few years, so she seemed more like an older sister. With her and Min and Tant and Mister Watson, we made a regular family at the table, we got to feeling we belonged someplace. And here he was fixing to toss her out like some ol’ shiftless nigger woman and his own baby daughter along with her. Me’n Tant’d have to start all over with no place to go.

I felt all thick and funny. When he swung that crate of stores up off the boat deck and across to me, I banged it down onto the dock so hard that a slat busted. That bang was somewhat louder than I wanted and the noise surprised him cause his hand shot for his pocket. Then he straightened slow, picked up another crate, carried it off the boat hisself, and set it carefully on the dock longside the other.

“Swallowed a frog, boy? Spit it out.”

I set my hat forward on my head and spit too close to them Western boots he wore when he went up to town. Scared myself so bad I couldn’t talk knowing my voice would come out pinched or all gummed up; I give him a dirty look and stacked the crates, to let him know Erskine R. Thompson was here to do his work and didn’t have no time for palaver.

He was waiting. Stone eyes, no expression. Put me in mind of a big ol’ bear I seen with Tant one early evening back of Deer Island, raring up out of the salt prairie to stare. It’s like Tant says, a bear’s face is stiff as wood. He never looks mean or riled, not till his ears go back, he just looks bear down to the bone, that’s how intent he is on his bear business. Mister Watson had that bear-faced way which let you know he had said his piece and weren’t going to repeat it and didn’t aim to take no silence for no answer.

I couldn’t look him in the eye. “You want me to tote this crate or what?” But my sassy voice come out all squeaky so I cleared my throat and spat again just to show who didn’t give a good goddamn. Mister Watson gazes at his boot, nodding his head, like inspecting another feller’s spit is common courtesy. Then he’s looking me over again, still waiting.

“Well, heck now, Mister Watson, sir, ain’t you the daddy of that baby girl up in the house? Ain’t we your people, too?”

He blinks for the first time, then turns his gaze away like he can’t stand the sight, same way that bear done when it give a woof and swung down to all fours and moved off into the bushes. He steps back over to the deck and swings me another crate, hard to the chest. “What I’ll do,” he says, “is train my oldest boy to do your job-”

“I knew it! Gettin rid of us-”

He raised his palm to still me. “And you and Tant can run the boat. I’ll need a full-time crew.”

He seen the tears jump to my eyes before I could turn away. Know what he done? Mister Watson stepped over to the dock and took me by the shoulders, turned me around, looked at me straight. He seen right through me. “Erskine,” he says, “you are not my son but you are my partner and my friend. And Ed Watson needs every friend that he can find.” Then he roughed my hair and went off whistling to make his peace with Henrietta Daniels.

I picked up a crate, set it down again, turning away to dab my eyes with my bandanna in case they was laughing at me from the house. At sixteen years of age, a man could not be seen to cry. For a long time I stood there, thumbs looped into my belt, frowning and nodding like I might be planning out ship’s work. My first plan was, I would be the captain. Tant might be four years older and a better hunter but he wouldn’t never want the responsibility.

That afternoon, to get away from Henrietta, Mister Watson brung his hoe into the cane. Me and the niggers clearing weeds was near sunk by the heat and Mister Watson outworked everybody. Sang all about “the bonnie blue flag that flies the single star,” and straightened only long enough to sing the bugle part-boopety- boopety-poo! tee-boopet, tee-boopet, tee-boopet, tee-poo!-as he marched around us, hoe over his shoulder like a musket.

Mister Watson usually wore a striped shirt with no collar that Henrietta sewed him from rough mattress ticking. Never took his shirt off, not even when it stuck to them broad shoulders, but no ticking weren’t thick enough to hide the shoulder holster that showed through when he got sweated. Even out there in the cane, he had that gun where he could lay his hand on it. Never hid it from the niggers, neither; they hoed harder. “Keeping your shirt on in the field is just good manners,” he said. “You never know when you might have a visitor.”

Tant spoke up. “From the North?” Mister Watson turned and looked at him then said, “Don’t outsmart yourself,” which wiped the smile off that boy’s face almost till supper.

That was the day that Mister Watson, chopping a tough root with his hoe, swung back hard and struck me up longside the head. Next thing, I was laying on the ground half-blind with blood, and them scared niggers backing off like I’d been murdered. Mister Watson went right ahead, finished off that root with one fierce chop-“That got her!”-then stepped over and picked me up, set me on my feet. Blood all over and my head hurt bad. “Got to give a man room, boy, that’s the secret.” Never said he was sorry, just told me to go get Netta to stick on a plaster.

Henrietta was caterwauling in the kitchen. “I bore his child!” she howled, jouncing poor Min, kicking hens, and banging a tin pot of sweet potatoes on the stove. When my mother seen my bloody face, she gasped straight off, “He done that a-purpose!” That scoundrel was out to murder her poor boy, she concluded, having heard tell that he had killed in other parts. She was taking me straight back to Caxambas was what she yelled as he come up on the back porch. “Don’t never turn your back on that red devil!” Folks might say that Netta Daniels was short on good sense as well as morals but no one ever said she lacked for spirit.

Mister Watson paid her no mind whatsoever. He washed his head at our new hand pump from the cistern-the only pump down in the Islands at that time, we was pretty proud about it. But when he straightened up to mop his face, them blue eyes sparking like flints over the towel, he caught me gawking at the dark place under his arm where the sweat outlined his weapon. He held the towel there under his eyes until Henrietta stopped her sputtering, started to whimper. Then he snapped it down, gleeful cause he’d scared her. He got out his private jug of our cane liquor and sat down to it at a table in the other room, keeping his back into the corner same as always.

For once, she was too scared to nag him for tilting chairs back and weakening the legs-her way of showing what good care she took. Home Is Where the Heart Is At was needlework hung on our parlor wall to make things cozy and hint what a good wife she would make a man of taste who could appreciate the