Read that front page, stare at photo of his face:
Face not smiling -
Remembering when it was always smiling, smiling and laughing, laughing and joking -
That trip to Spain, mornings on beach and siestas in his arms, evenings full of fine wines and dodgy bellies, nights of -
Nights of love:
His grey hair and gentle words, his firm kisses and soft caresses before -
Before BJ fucked it all, fucked it all:
Coach slows -
BJ lean into aisle -
Blue lights up ahead in grey:
Single-lane traffic, red sticks waving in dawn:
Driver has his window down, shouting: ‘What is it?’
‘IRA,’ comes a copper’s voice.
‘Not again?’
‘Irish bastards,’ says copper, but he waves coach through and coach picks up speed again.
Clare is staring at BJ, heavy rain against windows of coach.
‘We there?’ she asks, rubbing her black eyes.
‘Roadblock,’ BJ say.
‘Jesus,’ she says. ‘Where are we?’
‘Heading down into Manchester.’
She wipes window, but it doesn’t help.
BJ say: ‘Not very Christmassy, is it?’
‘Used to have good ones, did you?’
BJ sigh: ‘Not really. And you?’
She shakes her head: ‘I’d love to see the girls though.’
‘I bet,’ BJ say, thinking -
‘Said I’d be back by Christmas, you know.’
‘Give them a ring,’ BJ say.
She sucks in her lower lip and nods.
BJ put newspaper back in bag as coach pulls into Chorlton Street Bus Station.
‘Be half an hour,’ shouts driver. ‘You getting off?’
‘Aye,’ shouts Clare and walks down aisle with BJ and jumps off.
It’s going up to eight and fucking freezing is Manchester.
BJ and Clare cross Portland Street into Piccadilly Gardens and go into first cafй BJ and Clare find:
Clare has a breakfast and BJ have her toast, stomachs full of hot sweet tea.
At eight o’clock radio turns them stomachs, turns them inside out:
Two steaming teas, two empty seats.
Chapter 10
Dark night -
Day 11:
One in the morning -
Sunday 22 May 1983:
Yorkshire -
Leeds -
Millgarth Police Station:
The Belly -
Room 4:
James Ashworth, twenty-two, in police issue grey shirt and trousers, long, lank hair everywhere, slouched akimbo in his chair at our table, a cigarette burning down to a stub between the dirty black nails of his dirty yellow fingers -
Jimmy James Ashworth, former friend and neighbour of Michael Myshkin, child killer -
Jimmy Ashworth, the boy who found Clare Kemplay.
I asked him: ‘For the thousandth fucking time Jimmy, what were you doing in Morley on Thursday?’