“You didn’t overdo it.”
“No. I was careful. They took Victor away in the ambulance. Then Doctor Miraglia tried out the intercom, and agreed that was how it must have happened. He told me I mustn’t feel bad about it.”
“You’re trying to say something, Shirley. Goddamn it. Say it, whatever it is. Let it come out.”
“I’m scared.”
“Well, so am I. You don’t go around doing what we did every day in the week. You’ve got to stop being scared.”
“It’s not so much Victor. It’s Mayda.”
For a bright moment, in my mind’s eye, I saw Shirley ramming that carving knife into Mayda Lamphier’s back.
“Just don’t worry.” I said.
“You think I should report her missing, Jack? You think that might be the thing to do?”
“Will you forget her!”
“Yes. All right.”
“What else did Miraglia say?”
“To be honest, Jack—he acted as if it were his own father dying. That’s exactly how he acted.”
“Oh.”
“Somebody might come. I’d better go.”
“Yeah.”
Her voice was pleading. “Say you love me.”
I told her I loved her.
“I want to see you so badly,” she said.
“Me too,” I said. And at that moment I meant it. Alone, I faced the longest night of my life.
It was in the papers the next day. Victor Spondell had died of heart failure, brought on by a long-time respiratory ailment. Surviving was his adopted daughter, Miss Shirley Angela. There was a brief summary of his background.
There was nothing about Mayda Lamphier.
Well, I began to know what this business means when they talk about a criminal returning to the scene of the crime. It was one hell of a pull. I wanted to go out there to the canal, and just see if everything was all right. Just stand there and stare at the spot where the car was, and where she was. Just to reassure myself.
I didn’t go. But that pull was hard.
I wanted to see Shirley plenty bad. I didn’t like the way she’d sounded over the phone. I couldn’t call her, I couldn’t go near her place. I had to wait.
I knew it was too early for her to start checking on the money. Or, was it? How did an innocent person act? Would they go right down to the bank and put in their claim for the money? Or would they wait for what they call a “proper” length of time?
It was all I thought about. In the midst of the turmoil, it was the money that was bright and shining.
I didn’t hang around the store much that day. I couldn’t think right. I kept having the urge to go up to somebody and say, “Well, for gosh sakes, look here. That Victor Spondell kicked off. What you think of that?”
Nobody mentioned his dying. Naturally. Who was Victor Spondell to them? He was nothing. But just let it come out
Shirley didn’t call. I went home and sat by the phone, but there was no word about anything. I didn’t sleep. I just lay there in bed with the light on and stared at the ceiling, smoking one cigarette after the other.
I tried to think of Rio, but even that wasn’t any good anymore. Nothing was any good.
There was no word for two days. Then, in the morning paper:
MYSTERIOUS DEATH OF WOMAN
I didn’t exactly stop reading. My hands crumpled the paper into a wad, then shredded it, and for some reason all I could see in my mind was Shirley taunting Victor Spondell, as he died. I knew it was only a question of time before they knew who the “unidentified woman” was. They probably knew now.
Shirley, standing over Victor Spondell, laughing at him, because I knew she had felt nothing over his death. Not really. It had been removal of pain, of fierce pain, and inside her was nothing but angry composure over his death.
Mayda was another thing. They would go to her, question her. I didn’t know what to do. But I began to know that she had to get to the bank, and get her hands on that money. At the same time I realized, as I’d thought before, that it might not look right, taking any of it so soon. If things went right, then we wouldn’t have to go near that money.
If.
What an unholy word.
Somehow I had to get hold of myself. Now was the time when being calm counted. There was no real reason to fly apart. Nobody had accused Shirley or me of anything. There was no reason even to cast a suspicious glance our way, if you looked at it the way the law would look at it.
An old man who had been on the tricky edge of death for a long time had finally died. At the same time, a woman had died in a car accident. They would backtrack and there would be the gas station attendant to verify the fact that she had been driving while drunk.
So would they find alcohol in her blood, if they performed an autopsy? I didn’t know. In all probability, Mayda Lamphier had been drinking to some extent before she came over and slammed into Shirley. Only she hadn’t been drinking much. Maybe it would be enough.
I went into the living room, still holding the wadded newspaper in my hand. It was late morning. I hadn’t slept. I felt like hell. I had to see her, talk with her, and I could think of no way. If I tried calling her, there was every chance somebody might be there, questioning her about Mayda.
The buzzer sounded.
I just stood there, staring at the door. The apartment seemed unduly quiet. I realized I was still holding the newspaper.
The buzzer sounded again. There was something lazy, and very patient about the sound of the buzzer.
I went over to my desk, tossed the crumpled newspaper into the wastepaper basket, then walked to the door and opened it.
It was Doctor Miraglia.
“Hi,” he said.
He stood there soberly. I tried to grin. It must have looked great, because a nerve was jumping in my face.
“I stopped around at your store,” he said. “But they told me you were, sleeping late these days.”
“Been hitting it hard,” I said. “Come on in, doctor.”
“Thanks.”
He stepped inside and I closed the door. He wore a suit today, a pale blue gabardine. A pale yellow shirt, the