guzzling down your own infusion? Why would anyone bother trying to kill you?' she said, throwing her hands in the air. 'Why not just wait for you to kill yourselves? Here, take this,' she said, shoving a wooden sword so hard against Raffin's chest that he coughed. 'If I have anything to do about it, the next time someone comes across the world to kill you, you'll be ready.'
Bitterblue had forgotten how good this could be: a project with straightforward, identifiable, and
'Skirts are an imbecilic invention,' said Katsa, who always wore trousers and cut her hair short. Then she picked Bitterblue up and set her on her feet so quickly that Bitterblue was no longer certain she'd been lying on the floor in the first place. 'I expect they were a man's idea. Don't you have any practice trousers?'
Bitterblue's single pair of practice trousers were also her midnight escape trousers and, as such, were currently muddy and soaking wet, drying as best they could on the floor of her dressing room, where she hoped Helda wouldn't find them. She supposed she could ask Helda for more trousers now, with these lessons as the excuse. 'I thought I should practice in the clothing I was likely to be wearing when attacked,' she improvised.
'That does make sense. Did you knock your head?' Katsa asked, smoothing Bitterblue's hair back.
'Yes,' Bitterblue lied, to keep Katsa touching her.
'You're doing well,' Katsa said. 'You have quick instincts—you always have. Not like that nincompoop,' she added, with a roll of her eyes at Raffin, who was sparring with Bann awkwardly at the other end of the practice room.
Raffin and Bann were far from evenly matched. Bann wasn't just bigger, he was faster and stronger. The cowering prince, who handled his own sword ponderously, as if it were an impediment, never seemed to see an attack coming, even if he'd been told exactly when to expect it.
'Raff,' Katsa said, 'your problem is that your heart's not in it. We need to find something to strengthen your defensive resolve. What if you pretended he's trying to smash your favorite medicinal plant?'
'The rare blue safflower,' Bann suggested.
'Yes,' Katsa said gamely, 'pretend he's after your snaffler.'
'Bann would never come after my rare blue
'Pretend he's not Bann. Pretend he's your father,' Katsa said.
This did seem to have some effect, if not on Raffin's speed, then at least on his enthusiasm. Bitterblue focused on her own drills, soothed by the noises of productive work going on nearby, allowing herself to empty her mind. No memories, no questions, no Saf; only sword, sheath, speed, and air.
SHE WROTE A ciphered letter to Ror on the subject of remuneration and entrusted it to Thiel, who carried it gravely to his stand. It was hard to predict how long a letter would take to reach Ror City. It depended entirely on what ship carried it and on the weather. If conditions were ideal, she might look for a response in two months—the beginning of November.
In the meantime, something had to be done about Ivan in the east city. But Bitterblue couldn't claim to have learned of him through her spies as well, or her credibility would begin to wear thin. Perhaps if she were allowed to roam the castle every day, then she could reasonably pretend to have overheard conversations. She could claim a broader familiarity, with everything.
'Thiel,' she said, 'do you think I could have one task every day that took me out of this tower? If only for a few minutes?'
'Are you restless, Lady Queen?' asked Thiel gently.
Yes, and it was also that she was distracted and far away from here, in a rainy alleyway under a guttering lamp, with a boy. Embarrassed, she touched her flushing throat. 'I am,' she said. 'And I don't want to fight every time. You must let me do more than shuffle paper, Thiel, or I'm going to go mad.'
'It's a matter of finding the time, Lady Queen, as you know. But Rood says there's a murder trial in the High Court today,' added Thiel benevolently, noting the disappointment on her face. 'Why don't you go to that, and we'll look for something relevant for tomorrow?'
THE ACCUSED WAS a shaking man with a history of erratic behavior and an odor that Bitterblue pretended not to notice. He had stabbed a man to death, an utter stranger, in broad daylight, for no reason he was able to explain. He had just . . . felt like it. As he made no attempt to deny the charge, he was convicted unanimously.
'Are murderers always executed?' Bitterblue asked Quall to her right.
'Yes, Lady Queen.'
Bitterblue watched the guards take the shaking man away, stunned at the brevity of the trial. So little time, so little explanation needed to condemn a man to death. 'Wait,' she said.
The guards to either side of the shaking man stopped, turning him around to face her again. She stared at the prisoner, whose eyes rolled in his head as he tried to look at her.
He was disgusting and he'd done a horrible thing. But did no one else feel in his gut that something was wrong here?
'Before this man is executed,' she said, 'I should like my healer Madlen to meet with him and determine whether he's in his right mind. I don't wish to execute a person incapable of rational thought. It's not fair. And at the very least, I insist on some greater attempt at finding his reason for doing something so senseless.'
LATER THAT DAY, Runnemood and Thiel were carefully pleasant to her, but seemed to stiffen around each other, avoiding conversation between them. She wondered if they were having a row. Did her advisers have rows? She'd never witnessed one before.
'Lady Queen,' said Rood near evening, when he and she were momentarily alone. Rood most certainly wasn't squabbling with anyone. He'd been walking around meekly, trying to avoid people altogether. 'It pleases me that you're kind,' he said.
Bitterblue was rendered speechless at this. She knew she wasn't kind. She was largely ignorant, she was trapped behind unknowable things, she was trapped behind things she knew but couldn't admit she knew, she was a
She hoped that the Council meeting would be another anchor.
AT MIDNIGHT, BITTERBLUE slipped down stairways and through dim-lit corridors to Katsa's rooms. As Bitterblue approached Katsa's door, it opened and Po emerged. These were not Katsa's usual rooms. Normally Katsa took rooms abutting Po's, near to Bitterblue and all of her personal guests, but Po, for some reason, had arranged for Katsa to occupy south castle rooms this time and sent Bitterblue directions.
'Cousin,' Po said. 'Do you know about the secret staircase behind Katsa's bathing room?'
Moments later, Bitterblue watched in astonishment as Po and Katsa climbed into Katsa's bath. The bath itself was rather astonishing, lined with bright tiles decorated with colorful insects that looked so real that Bitterblue didn't think it could possibly be relaxing to bathe. Po reached down to the floor behind the bath and pressed on something. There was a clicking noise. Then a section of the marble wall behind the bath swung inward, revealing a small, low doorway.
'How did you find it?' asked Bitterblue.
'It leads up to the art gallery and down to the library,' said Po. 'I was in the library when I noticed it. That's where we're going.'
'Is it a staircase?'
'Yes. A spiral.'
Still standing in the bath, Po held out his hand. 'I'll be before you,' he said, 'and Katsa will be behind.'
SEVERAL COBWEBBY, DUSTY, sneezy minutes later, Bitterblue crawled through a small door in a wall, pushed a hanging aside, and stepped into the royal library. It was a back alcove somewhere. The bookcases, dark, thick wood, were tall as trees and had the musty, living, moldering smell of a forest. The copper, brown, and orange books were like leaves; the ceilings were high and blue.
Bitterblue turned in circles. It was the first time she'd been in the library for as long as she could recall, and it was exactly how she remembered it.
