Bitterblue

She added to her list two questions: Why are there so many missing pieces everywhere? Will the library hold any answers?

When Katsa dragged her out of bed for sword practice, Bitterblue found that she'd dragged not just Raffin and Bann, but Giddon and Po along as well. The lot of them waited in Bitterblue's sitting room, picking at her breakfast while she dressed. Giddon, muddy and rumpled in last night's clothing, showed every sign of having been out all night. Collapsing on her sofa, he actually fell asleep for a moment.

Raffin and Bann stood together, propped against the wall and against each other, half dozing. At one point, Raffin, not knowing he had one small, curious witness, gave Bann a sleepy kiss on the ear.

Bitterblue had wondered that about them. It was nice when something in the world became clear. Especially when it was a nice thing.

'THIEL,' SHE SAID in her office later that morning. 'Do you remember that mad engineer with the watermelons?'

'You mean Ivan, Lady Queen?' said Thiel.

'Yes, Ivan. When I was walking back from that murder trial yesterday, Thiel, I overheard a conversation that concerned me. Apparently, Ivan is in charge of the renovation of the east city and is doing a mad, useless job of it. Could we have someone look into that? It sounds as if there's actual danger of buildings collapsing and so on.'

'Oh,' said Thiel, then sat down randomly, rubbing his forehead in an absent manner.

'Are you all right, Thiel?'

'Forgive me, Lady Queen,' he said. 'I'm perfectly all right. This Ivan business is a dreadful oversight on our part. We'll see to it immediately.'

'Thank you,' she said, looking at him doubtfully. 'And will I be going to another High Court case today? Or will it be some new adventure?'

'There's not much of interest in the High Court today, Lady Queen. Let me see what other extra-office task I can rustle up.'

'That's all right, Thiel.'

'Oh? Have you lost your wanderlust, Lady Queen?' he asked hopefully.

'No,' she said, rising. 'I'm going to the library.'

WHEN APPROACHING THE library in the usual manner, one walked into the north vestibule of the great courtyard, then stepped straight through the library doors. The first room, Bitterblue discovered, had ladders that ran on tracks and led to balconied mezzanines connected by bridges. Everywhere, tall bookshelves cut into the window glare like dark tree trunks. Dust hung suspended in shafts of light from the high windows. As she had the night before, Bitterblue turned in circles, sensing the familiarity and trying to remember.

Why had it been so long since she'd come here? When had she stopped reading, aside from the charters and reports that crossed her desk? When she'd become queen, and her advisers had taken over her education?

She walked past Death's desk, covered with papers and one sleeping cat, the skinniest, most wretched creature Bitterblue had ever seen. It lifted its hoary head and hissed at her as she passed. 'I expect you and Death get along quite well,' she said to it.

Arbitrary steps, one or two here or there, seemed to be part of the library's design. The farther she advanced into the library, the more steps she descended or climbed. The farther into the shelves, the darker and mustier her landscape, until she needed to backtrack and remove a lantern from a wall to light her way. Entering a nook lit by dim lamps stretching from the walls on long arms, she reached up and traced a carving in the wooden end of a bookcase. Then she realized that the carving was a curiously shaped set of letters that spelled out large, floppy words: Stories and Explorations, Monsea's East.

'Lady Queen?' said a voice behind her.

She had been thinking of the story rooms, of tales of strange creatures in the mountains. The sneer of her librarian dragged her unceremoniously back into reality. 'Death,' she said.

'May I help you find anything, Lady Queen?' Death asked with an attitude of palpable unhelpfulness.

Bitterblue studied Death's face, his green and purple eyes that glinted with antagonism. 'I found a book here,' she said, 'recently, that I remember reading as a child.'

'That couldn't surprise me less, Lady Queen. Your father and mother both encouraged your presence in the libraries.'

'Did they? Death, have you been the caretaker of this library all my life?'

'Lady Queen, I have been the caretaker of this library for fifty years.'

'Are there books here that tell about the time of Leck's rule?'

'Not a one,' he said. 'Leck kept no records that I know of.'

'All right, then,' she said. 'Let's focus on the last eighteen years. How old was I when I used to come here?'

Death sniffed. 'As young as three, Lady Queen.'

'And what kind of books did I read?'

'Your father directed your studies for the most part, Lady Queen. He presented you with books of every kind. Stories he himself wrote; stories by others; the journals of Monsean explorers; the written appreciation of Monsean art. Some, he wanted you to read most particularly. I would go to great lengths to find them, or him to write them.'

His words flickered like lights just out of her grasp. 'Death,' she said, 'do you recall which books I read?'

He had begun to dust the volumes on the shelf before him with a handkerchief. 'Lady Queen,' he said, 'I can list them in the order in which you read them, and then I can recite their contents to you, one after the other, word for word.'

'No,' Bitterblue said, deciding. 'I want to read them myself. Bring the ones he most particularly wanted me to read, Death, in the order he gave me them.'

Perhaps she could find missing pieces by starting with herself.

IN THE NEXT few days, reading whenever she could, staying in at night and stealing time from her sleep, Bitterblue worked her way fast through a number of books in which pictures outnumbered words. Lots of them, as she reread them, climbed into her and spread to her edges in a way that felt obscurely familiar, as if they were comfortable inside her, as if they remembered being there before; and when this happened, she kept the book in her sitting room for the time being, rather than returning it to the library. Very few of them were as obscure as the Book of True Things. Most were educational. One described, in simple words, on thick, cream colored pages, each of the seven kingdoms. It had a page with a colored illustration of a Lienid ship cresting a wave, from the up-high perspective of a sailor in the riggings—every sailor on the deck below with rings on each hand and studs in each ear, painted with the world's tiniest brush, the paint burnished with real gold. Bitterblue could remember having read it, over and over, and having loved it, as a child.

Unless it was her own journey on a Lienid ship, fleeing Leck, that touched something comfortable inside her? How frustrating to feel a familiarity yet not be able to trace the feeling back to why. Did this happen to everyone, or was it one of Leck's special bequests? Bitterblue squinted at the empty shelves lining the walls of this room, certain too that when these rooms had been her mother's, the shelves had not been empty. What books had her mother kept on these shelves, and where were they now?

The library became Bitterblue's default extra-office destination every day for a week, for Rood had no interesting High Court cases to offer and she didn't feel like inspecting the drains with Runnemood, or seeing the rooms where Darby filed paperwork, or whatever other task Thiel suggested.

She walked into the library on the fourth day to find the cat guarding the entrance. It bared its teeth at the sight of her, its hair standing in a ridge on its back, its ragged coat a mix of blotches and stripes that seemed to sit wrong, somehow, on its body. As if it were wearing a coat that was the wrong shape for it.

'It's my library, you know,' Bitterblue said, stamping her foot. The cat shot away in alarm.

'Nice cat you have,' she said to Death when she reached his desk.

Death extended a book toward her, dangled between two fingers as if it smelled.

'What is that?' asked Bitterblue.

'The next volume in your rereading project, Lady Queen,' Death said. 'Stories written by your father the king.'

After the briefest hesitation, she took the book from him. Leaving the library, she found herself carrying it in