his eyes stung with the imminence of tears. There are times, as he well knew, when merely having our sorrow guessed at could itself be a kind of rude consolation.
'It's really quite remarkable that I should so literally have crossed your path this morning. For the business that brings me to London is intimately connected with your own household, sir.'
So that was it. Though the police had exonerated, or at least called off their investigation of his son in the murder of that chair-straddling traveler in teat-yanking machinery, the shadow of doubt had not been lifted from Mr. Pan-icker's own consideration of the crime. The possibility of Reggie's guilt was a matter of shame to Mr. Panicker, as was nearly everything that touched in some way or another on his son, but this time his shame was compounded by the intimate knowledge that Richard Shane's brutal murder in the road behind the vicarage had echoed, in outline and particulars, the secret trend of his own darkest imaginings. When the detective inspector, Bellows, had called last week, the implication of the visit, couched though the questions were in terms of utmost circumspection, had been unmistakable. He himself, Kumbhampoika Thomas Panicker, public proponent and living symbol of the gentle but unyielding love of the Lord, stood credibly under suspicion of having killed a man-out of jealousy. And he could not help feeling that his desire to do so-that anger which set his hands trembling whenever a word of Shane's induced the stunning miracle of a smile on his wife's face-had somehow escaped his heart, like a gas, and fatally poisoned his son's, already diseased.
'It was my understanding . . . Reggie . . . the police said . . .'
It struck him now that the old man and he had not 'crossed paths' at all. He was still under investigation, and now the police had enlisted this ancient veteran; or perhaps the fantastical coot had put himself, half dementedly, on the case.
'Tell me,' the old man said, and the prosecutorial lilt in his voice confirmed all of Mr. Panicker's fears. 'Have you remarked, or encountered personally, any strangers around the vicarage of late?'
'Strangers? I don't-'
'This would be a chap from London, likely I should say an older man, perhaps a Jew. Man by the name of Black.'
'The dealer in birds,' Mr. Panicker said. 'They found his card in Reggie's pocket.'
'I have reason to believe that he has recently paid a visit to your young lodger, Master Steinman.'
'Paid a visit?' The boy of course received no visitors at all, apart from Martin Kalb. 'Not so far as I-'
'Clearly, as I have suspected from the beginning, Mr. Black is indeed aware of our Bruno's existence, and of his remarkable abilities. This recent attempt directly to contact Master Steinman suggests that Black had received no communication from any of his alleged agents in this affair, and knew nothing of the bird's disappearance. Perhaps, indeed, it was in despair of ever receiving such a communication that he paid a clandestine visit to the boy, seeking to arrange for its sale, or perhaps to steal it himself. In any event, I intend to put some rather direct questions to Mr. Joseph Black of Club Row. Otherwise I shall never arrive at a final disposition of the bird's whereabouts.'
'The bird,' Mr. Panicker repeated, slowing the car. They were approaching East Grinstead, where the police had set up a checkpoint, and the traffic had already begun to back up. The old man had been correct then, in his surmise about increased military activity; security had been tightened. 'You are looking for the
The old man turned to him, an eyebrow raised, as if something about Mr. Panicker struck him as unfortunate or reproachable.
'Aren't
'Yes, yes of course,' Mr. Panicker said. 'We are all very . . . the boy has been . . . inconsolable.'
In fact the bird had entered Mr. Panicker's thoughts in the two weeks since its disappearance only as a kind of grim mental aftereffect of the scenes of violence and bloodshed, of cuckoldry revenged and indignity repaid, that had characterized his imaginings during the brief tenancy at the vicarage of the damned Mr. Shane. For Mr. Panicker was certain that Bruno the parrot was dead, and dead furthermore in some particularly gruesome or violent manner. Despite its wild origin in, as his consultation of the 'P' volume of the
'In all the recent confusion . . .' the old man offered helpfully. And then, 'No doubt your pastoral duties and obligations . . .'
'No,' Mr. Panicker said. All at once he felt himself sober and calm, and, at the same time a spasm of absurd gratitude seized him. 'Of course not.'
They had reached the checkpoint. A pair of uniformed policemen approached the Imperia, one on either side. Mr. Panicker rolled down his window, assisting the process as was necessary with a series of sharp tugs on the upper edge of the glass.
'Good morning, sir. May I ask your reason for traveling to London?'
'Reason?'
Mr. Panicker looked at the old man, who looked back at him with a steady humorous unconcern.
'Yes,' Mr. Panicker said. 'Oh. Yes. Well, we've,
Mr. Panicker's wife, ruefully true to her married name, suffered from gephyrophobia, the morbid fear of crossing bridges. When a car, bus, or train in which she was riding hung suspended over some river, she would sink deeply into her seat, eyes closed, breath coming through her nostrils in short whistling gusts, moaning softly, holding herself perfectly still with the brimming cup of her fear clutched between her palms as if she dared not spill a drop. As Mr. Panicker drove through Croydon, the swift, haphazard gathering of the city around them appeared to arouse in the old man some allied phobic turbulence. The rasp of breath in the nostrils, the knuckles white as they gripped the hafts of his knees, the stayed cables of his wasted neck standing out-all these Mr. Panicker recognized as the signs of an all but unmasterable dread. Yet as they entered London the old man's eyes, unlike those of Mrs. Panicker when she found herself trapped mid-span, remained wide-staring open. He was, by irremediable nature, a man who
'You are unwell?'
For a full minute the old man made no reply and merely stared out the side window, watching the streets of South London slide by.
'Twenty-three years,' he croaked. 'August 14, 1921.' He drew a handkerchief from some interior pocket, patted his brow, dabbed at the corners of his mouth. 'A Sunday.'
Affixing a date and day of the week to his last glimpse of London appeared to a degree to restore the old man's equilibrium.
'I don't know what I ... silly. One has read so extensively about the damage from bombs and fires. I had prepared myself for a ruin. Indeed I confess to having in some measure
The adequate adjective eluded him. They were across the river now, and found themselves caught between