The Italian’s Rightful Bride

‘You were too close, and you have that pain to cope with as well.’

‘Renata’s rejection. Yes. But what can I do?’

‘Be patient. She’ll choose the time. There’s no other way.’

‘I know,’ he sighed. ‘I know you’re right, it’s just-’

‘It’s just that you’re not the most patient man in the world,’ she said sympathetically. ‘I know.’

She poured him some more wine, and he drank it.

‘So Crystal wasn’t happy,’ Joanna said, to encourage him to continue.

‘No, I think she felt fairly soon that she’d made a mistake. I think that’s my fault for marrying her in such haste. I should have brought her to Montegiano first so that she could see for herself whether the life would suit her. But I wanted her so much that I just grabbed the chance. We might both have been saved a lot of grief if I hadn’t.

‘She was bored with the estate, bored with motherhood, in fact bored with everything I valued. I’ll never forget talking to her one day, trying to tell her what Montegiano meant to me. And I caught a certain look in her eyes- sheer blankness. She was just waiting for me to shut up.

‘She wanted a grandiose apartment in Rome and a high-society life. That time I held out. We had our friends and I’d take her into Rome as much as possible, but I wouldn’t move there permanently.

‘When she realised I meant it, there was a bitter quarrel. That was when I discovered her real opinion of me, stuffy and dull, a man who couldn’t give her the exciting life she wanted. She packed her bags, moved to the most expensive hotel in Rome and waited for me to crack. When I didn’t, she returned after six weeks.

‘I told myself she’d come back because she still loved me, but I believe she just liked the title, and still thought she could persuade me.

‘It’s been like that through the years. If she was thwarted she’d move out for a while and run up vast bills to punish me. I learned not to enquire too closely into what she got up to in the city.’

‘You think she was unfaithful?’

‘I’m sure of it.’

‘Couldn’t you have divorced her then? Or did you still love her too much?’

‘No, the love died some time back, but I was reared in the tradition that said you don’t break up the home, no matter what. And there was Renata. I had to think of what divorce would do to her. And now I’ve seen what it has done to her, I still think I was right.’

‘What happened in the end?’

‘Crystal started attending a gym in the city, said it was time to take proper care of her figure. Her instructor was called Leo. I only saw him once, all greasy hair and gigolo smile.

‘Suddenly she was pregnant. I even thought that perhaps we might have some hope after all, especially when it was a boy. But then I heard her talking on the phone to Leo, and it all became clear. I confronted her. She called me every name she could think of, packed her bags and left for good, with the baby, but without Renata.’

‘Suppose she’d wanted Renata?’ Joanna asked. ‘Would you have let her go?’

‘Yes. I’d expect to have her back for long visits; after all, she’s my child too. But I’d let Renata do whatever would make her happy.’

He leaned back and ran his hand through his hair, leaving it slightly ruffled. Joanna regarded him tenderly, and reached for the phone to call Room Service. In a few moments a waiter had arrived to remove the remains of the meal. When the door had closed behind him Gustavo moved to the large, comfortable sofa and sat down in a way that was almost a collapse.

Joanna came over to an armchair near him, and poured him a large whisky.

‘Are you trying to get me drunk?’ he asked with a grin.

‘Possibly. I think it might do you good to let your hair down for once. I won’t tell on you.’

He took the tumbler and drained it. It pleased her to see him more relaxed, although whether it was the whisky or the relief of confiding in her, she couldn’t tell. But she found that she didn’t care. It was sweet to reach out to him and feel that she’d brought him some relief, even perhaps a little contentment.

She found that he was smiling at her, a strange smile that seemed to be sizing her up.

‘Of course,’ he said lightly, ‘I blame you for everything.’

‘Me? How?’

‘Because it was entirely your fault that I married Crystal.’

CHAPTER SEVEN

‘YOU were crazy for her,’ Joanna reminded him.

‘But I was engaged to you. If you’d held me to that we’d have married and lived happily ever after. Instead, you released me with quite indecent haste, abandoning me to my fate.’

‘Oh, really?’ she said, catching his ironic mood. ‘So I should have been your nanny, should I?’

He sighed. ‘Some men need nannies to stop them making fools of themselves. The melancholy truth is that I may be one of them.’

They laughed together.

‘If I had held you to the engagement, would you really have married me?’ she asked. ‘You’d have let me coerce you?’

‘You wouldn’t have coerced me,’ he said quietly. ‘But you might have reminded me where my honour lay.’

‘Love or honour,’ she mused. ‘It’s an unequal contest. Anyway, where does honour lie?’

‘That’s the last question I expected you to ask.’

‘You abandoned my large fortune for her small one because you really wanted to marry for love,’ she pointed out. ‘I call that honourable. I admired you for it. Truth to tell, I admired you for marrying Crystal more than for proposing to me. And if you’d let me force you into marriage, I’d have lost all respect for you.’

He was silent. What she was saying amazed him.

‘But actually,’ she went on, ‘I don’t think I could have held you to our engagement, whatever you think. I think you’d have followed your heart anyway. At least, I hope you would.’

He stared at her. ‘Do you mean that?’

‘Of course I mean it. You put your love first, as a man should. It’s not as though we were actually married. If we had been, and had children, that would have been different. You’d have had a duty to them. But you had none to me.’

He made a helpless gesture.

‘I don’t know how to answer that.’ He thought for a moment. ‘I never really knew you, did I?’

‘No, not for a minute. Or I you. Gustavo, you’re wrong about living happily ever after. We wouldn’t have been happy together. You’d have been yearning for Crystal and resenting me for trapping you. Besides, do you think I have no pride? Who wants an unwilling husband?’

‘And maybe you were secretly glad to be rid of me,’ he mused.

She nodded. ‘Maybe,’ she said lightly.

He became awkward.

‘Joanna, there’s something I have to ask you. You may say that I have no right, and you’d be correct, but it’s been puzzling-no, troubling me.’

‘Go on.’

His voice was tense.

‘Why did you agree to marry me in the first place?’

For one blinding moment Joanna was tempted to tell him the truth. After keeping the secret all these years, she had an overpowering need to reveal it, and surely she could risk telling him now?

But then she pulled herself back from the brink. He had come here for her help and she was about to pile more burdens onto him. For the knowledge of her love would be a burden if he could not return it.

So her shrug was a masterpiece of helplessness. ‘Who knows? I believed in family expectations, just like you did. I was supposed to make a splendid marriage, and you were the best prize on the market. I was dazzled.’

‘But by the time things fell apart you’d seen how little it all meant. You’re right, our marriage wouldn’t have worked. You needed something else, something that fulfilled and satisfied you more than I could ever do. You made