spite that made Crystal toss the bouquet to her? She caught it instinctively, before she could stop herself, then stood there, clutching the bouquet that should always have been hers.
It was only later that she fully understood what that day had done to her. She had passed through the fire and emerged stronger, because something that had been burned to ash could never be burned again.
She enrolled in college, studied archaeology and blanked out grief by working herself into the ground.
‘If you ask me you had a nervous breakdown,’ Aunt Lilian said later. ‘Whenever I saw you, you looked as if you were dying. And instead of being sensible like other girls, and taking a cruise, you made everything worse by working away at those awful books.’
But far from making things worse, Joanna knew that ‘those awful books’ had saved her. After a year her tutors were predicting great things for her.
Grief finally subsided into a dull ache that she managed to push aside in the fascination with the subject she loved.
She made herself a promise. Never again would she allow herself to feel anything with the depth and intensity she’d felt for Gustavo. She knew she couldn’t stand it a second time.
She was safe now. She could protect herself from hurt. But she had paid a terrible price.
She began going to parties again, even enjoying them. Finally, one evening, as she was sipping champagne-
‘Fancy meeting you here!’
It was Freddy Manton, beaming at her.
‘I looked for you later but you’d vanished,’ he said. ‘I’ve been heartbroken ever since.’
‘You don’t look very heartbroken.’ She laughed.
They began seeing each other. He was good company, merry, slightly feckless, but kind-hearted. She was lonely, and managed to persuade herself that her affection for him would be enough. They married while she was still at college and she became pregnant immediately, only just managing to get her exams out of the way before rushing to the hospital for Billy’s arrival.
To do Freddy justice, he really tried, managing to be faithful for a whole four years, a record for him. For Billy’s sake they stayed together for another four years, until his infidelities exasperated her beyond bearing.
The divorce was amicable. If she’d been really in love with him their parting would have hurt more than it did.
She knew almost nothing about Gustavo in the intervening years. Recently she had chanced to pick up a newspaper bearing the announcement that Their Excellencies Prince and Princess Montegiano had been blessed with a son and heir, their first child since the birth of their daughter ten years previously.
So the marriage had flourished, she thought. She had done the right thing.
It worked out well for both of us, she mused now. Life’s gone well for me too. I’m in control, settled, even happy. My job is great, I’m friendly with my ex. I have a son I adore and who thinks I’m ‘OK’-a big compliment from a ten-year-old boy. I’m one of the lucky ones.
So why did I return here?
She looked out at the quiet streets of Tivoli, then past them to the vista that led to Rome.
Because after all these years, it’s time to exorcise the ghost and be free to get on with my life.
She reached the gates of the Montegiano estate to find them exactly as she had last seen them. The gatekeeper called to the house and received a message to let her in. Driving the long road to the house was like a rewind of her previous experience.
She chatted calmly to Billy, refusing to think of what would happen in a few minutes when she would see him for the first time in twelve years.
Crystal would be there and she would see them together, husband and wife. The sight of their domesticity would be the final piece in the puzzle.
At last the huge
‘I’m Professor Carlo Francese,’ he said, shaking her hand. ‘We spoke on the phone. I’ll be your host while Gustavo’s away.’
He wasn’t here. Her heart skipped a beat.
But it was good, she told herself. She needed no distractions.
Billy and Carlo took to each other at once, she was glad to see.
‘You’re in the Julius Caesar room,’ Carlo explained. ‘It’s always given to the guest of honour.’
She almost said, Yes, I know. The room had been hers when she was last here.
It had changed a lot, and she could see that money had been spent reviving it. It now looked new, shining, and, to Joanna’s eye, less charming. Billy had been given the room next door, which was equally grandiose and reduced him to fits of laughter.
After a wash and brush-up she knocked on his door. He joined her, looking around him at the gorgeous hallway, with its marble columns and frescoed ceiling.
‘What a place!’ he said with an appreciative whistle.
‘It is, isn’t it?’ she agreed. ‘What’s up, Billy?’ He had turned suddenly.
‘I just thought I saw someone on the stairs. There.’
They looked just in time to see the pale face of a little girl staring up at them with hostility. Then she vanished.
Joanna went downstairs, braced to see Crystal, but there was no sign of her. Carlo ushered them into a magnificent room with tall windows overlooking the lawns, and immediately plunged into talking about the foundations that had been discovered.
Billy listened, asking some intelligent questions, to Joanna’s pride. But then something seemed to distract him, and he slipped away.
‘We saw a little girl upstairs,’ Joanna ventured.
‘That would be Renata,’ Carlo said at once. ‘Gustavo’s daughter.’ He sighed. ‘Poor child.’
‘Why poor? Is she jealous now that she has a little brother?’
Carlo looked around and dropped his voice.
‘Gustavo’s divorce has just become final. The little boy wasn’t his, and his wife has taken the child to live with her lover.’
Joanna drew in a sharp breath.
‘His-you mean Crystal?’
‘Yes; do you know her?’
‘We met briefly many years ago, but I haven’t stayed in touch. I didn’t know this.’
‘As you can imagine, it’s hit Gustavo very hard, so we don’t talk about it. But I thought you should know the situation.’
‘Yes,’ she said slowly. ‘Yes, I’m glad you warned me.’
Carlo didn’t seem to notice anything odd in her manner.
‘When you’re ready we’ll go and see the dig,’ he said. ‘It’s about a mile away.’
‘I can’t wait.’
As soon as she saw the discovery Joanna knew she had come to the right place. Her personal feelings didn’t matter. This was the find of the century, and it
From the corner of her eye she could see Renata and Billy. They seemed to have established perfect rapport, and she was showing him around the site, pointing out places of interest. After a while they strolled away together.
She spent the rest of the day with Carlo, becoming more convinced that this really was the great lost palace Gustavo had spoken of. At dinner that evening she met Laura, a smiling, middle-aged woman who looked after Renata. To Joanna’s amusement Billy turned his charm on her and within minutes Laura was lost.
‘You and Renata seem to get on well,’ she said to him as they climbed the stairs later that night.
‘She’s been telling me about Prince Gustavo,’ Billy said, frowning. ‘Honestly, Mum, he’s a monster. You know her mother’s gone?’
